Wednesday, November 7, 2018

OMG!!!

I started to fall in love with BLACKPINK's songs like just two months ago... Frankly speaking, the first time I listen to their latest song 'Ddu-Du-Ddu-Du' does not get me at all... It was just meh on my first listen and it did not impress me at all until I listen to 'Forever Young' which is the other song from the same extended play... This song really gets interesting as I listen and eventually, the best song from this EP has to be 'Really'... As I got hooked up with 'Really' so hard, I eventually listen back to their old songs such as 'Boombayah', 'As If It's Your Last' and 'Playing With Fire'... Not so into 'Boombayah' but the other 2 are just like drugs... And for some reason, I got hooked up completely by 'Ddu-Du-Ddu-Du' now...

Ok... My story aside, the main point I am typing this post is because knowing that I just fall in love with their songs for like 2 months, I saw a news that they are going to held a concert in KL FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MALAYSIA OMG!!! To be frank, I am not a hardcore fan but I will not want to miss this opportunity to buy a VIP ticket for their concert lolz... For this case, even I am broke as fuck, I will still attend their concert for God knows why reason AHAHAHA!!!

This would be one of the best news for the month of November 2018...
And more to come... Lol...



2019 will be the best year for me T____T

Friday, November 2, 2018

Well...

It is funny how easily I fall in love with a guy when there's a chance for me to meet him... But at the same time, if he does not show any interest on me, I can easily give up on him as well... I found this guy and since he is a businessman and he is looking for part timer or full timer, it won't hurt for me to give it a try... There are two motives here:

1. To really work part time so I can earn some extras
2. To get really close to him

He is really the perfect guy or man that I would love to have in my life... Frankly speaking, even if I don't get a chance to be with him, but at least being close to him would really mean a lot to me... However, I am very clear that it would be very close to impossible since he travels a lot and a very busy man...

I guess my only hope here is he really has a feeling for me on our first meet up... That should be sufficient for us to start lolz...



If I really get to date him, I think I will never be depressed anymore lolz

Tuesday, October 30, 2018

Perfume WORLD TOUR 4th...

I was waiting for this announcement and the moment I saw the news that they have announced the locations, I was totally happy... But in a split second as I going through the list, it was so disheartened to found out that not even a single ASEAN country was selected for their tour... I mean come on, Malaysia is difficult... Singapore used to have it twice... Hong Kong always have the huge fandom group there and yet not even selected??? What is going on with their agents/organisers???

As a huge fan of Perfume and realise that I can't even afford to go to their closest tour location (Shanghai or Taipei) totally made my day gloomier than ever...

Guess I will just sit at home and move on with my mundane life...



Perfume WORLD TOUR 4th - Failed to attend...

Monday, October 29, 2018

Disappointments...

I have so fucking many things that I need to do or settle but I never make good use of the time to do so... I am utterly disappointed with myself right now because I felt like I am a complete loser or useless guy... There are just too many things going on that I can barely cope with...

COME ON JOEY!!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!! WAKE UP YOU PIECE OF SHIT AND STOP BEING A LAZY FATASS!!!

I will make good use of my coming weekend long holiday to settle up all my things once and for all... No more excuses...



Dear brain... Please don't run away from me...

Wednesday, October 24, 2018

Lolz Me...

It is kinda stupid of me to have the thought of auditioning for Korean entertainment company (YG, SM Town, etc etc) at this age... I guess this idea sparks out due to the fact that I wanted to know and see how much I can progress being a vocalist... Until today, I did not take any initiative to audition for one but whenever I saw those auditioning news, I will somehow feel regret for not joining one lolz...

I enjoy singing a lot and I am constantly training my vocal (not in a professional way though) by experimenting with my voice... I am really unsure how far I can go with my vocal and not that I can compose or write my own lyrics at this point... My dream of being a vocal artist is still far to go AHAHAHAHHA!!!



Why la... Why you like this gehh???

Tuesday, October 16, 2018

GG-ed!!!

Ok... Never expect myself to be on a tight budget this month out of a sudden... Hopefully I can survive through this month end... Bless myself lolz...

Moving on to my life... Nothing much besides financially struggling... Enjoying my Two Point Hospital a lot and really kept looking forward to play it (wish I can play it in my office lolz)... And within this month, I have congratulated so many people in my life LOLZ... Wonder when people will start congratulating me lolololol!!!



Damn I don't know what else to type... My life is getting mundane!!!


Thursday, October 11, 2018

Slow Paced...

Not complaining but felt that my days are passing by slower than it seems... Although now is closer to mid of the month, I really hope next year January comes as soon as possible... There are so many things in my mind that I need to clear off... Depressing??? Not... Exhausting??? Kinda... Enjoying??? Neutral... Overall??? Mehhh...

I do have a few games that I wanted to play right now... I should think about my games more lolz...

Talking about him, things are going dull, not in a bad way just no conversation between us... The thing is, he never intended to start a conversation with me so if I keep on messaging him everyday, it felt like I am being too clingy... Well... At least this is a good thing... I won't keep thinking about him... Less one thing to fill my mind lolz...

To sum up, I just want time to passes by quicker right now >.<



FAST FORWARD~~~

Thursday, October 4, 2018

Emotional Ride...

The fact that I actually enjoy messaging with this guy makes me feel what a love is... But at the same time, I can imagine how hurting it is if things never goes right between us... The effort, time and emotion that we placed in would have a big drawback if it stops at some point... Now I can imagine why people that broke up have such a strong emotional ride... I may feel a little how it goes when I think about it and it really sucks... Nevertheless, it is all about what is best for the other people... Sometimes, we have to give up something just to see the other person happier... Love is something that can change drastically and instantly LOLZ

My conversation with him mostly are personal, and sometimes sexually comforting... I would say comforting because it is arousal and at the same time, the compliments we gave each other makes us feel more confident in some ways... And when it comes to this, we both agreed to try and fulfill our desires... Of course, we don't just talk about sexual things... We did discuss about how to make myself look more stylish, and how to make him smell better... It is just purely love, caring about each other well being and do what's best for both so that we can appreciate each other more in some ways...

I have involved myself in such situation where I tend to chat with a person and always hoping that they will reply everyday... Well, some of them did reply but always a single line reply... I mean, I would not blame them because I did the same thing to certain people but that is purely because I am not interested in them... Eventually, as time goes by, I understands how this world works lolz... I will never blame them... However, this guy, he tend to keep a long conversation with me... Although he rarely initiate a conversation, but he will share and discuss a lot when he is free which tells me that he is really interested with me... Being able to chat with him every night has changed my night time lifestyle drastically as well and frankly speaking, I am always looking forward to it...



Right now, I can say that I will cherish this very moment with him... Whatever happens in the future, let it be in the future...

When the time comes, it will come...