Monday, September 18, 2017

Is This Love???

I am falling in love... Like seriously... It is not official yet until Hideto says yes right on my face... After that day, I kept thinking about him... I got a little good feeling that Hideto is interested in me as well... I can say he enjoy most of the time with me and so am I (but in the end I enjoy the most)... I really can put the sexual thoughts away... Even if just him and me, hanging out together, dinner or anything, that feeling of holding his hand, cuddle or hugging him from behind is more than enough for me... I am indeed a horny guy and I have strong sex desire but I can hold on for the person that I love... To be frank, if he agrees to be my boyfriend, I really have a lot of things to think about... I need to understand him more... I need to spend more time with him... I need to support him... I am willingly to do anything just to be with him... I don't even care if he make use of me, provided that he still loves me... I told myself, if he really became my boyfriend, I will spend as many years as possible with him because he is the type of guy that I want to be with for the rest of my life...

There are so many things going on in my head about him right now... This will never end... If I continue typing, it will be a billion words post... Oh my...



I have to express myself... I need to know the answer as soon as possible...

Sunday, September 17, 2017

Best Day In My Life...

It was never a bad decision for me to meet up Hideto. The story is absolutely lengthy and here it is (WARNING: Explicit content inside):-



I just tried Hideto the Japanese masseur that a lot of people recommended previously. I told myself that I must share this story ASAP because he is seriously damn good when it comes to the s** part. But seriously don't have high hopes for the massage. So this is my story:

I reached his place and wait for him at the lobby. Not long after, he came down and when my eyes meet his, I knew that he is someone I adore. As I walk closer to him and take a good look, yes. He is definitely the good looking type (basically my type) and we enter the lift together. Here are some of my first impression about him:

- He is just as tall as me (around 168cm)
- He does have a good looking body
- He looks manly (probably because of some beard)
- He speaks fluent English
- His smile is definitely killing me lolz

Moving on, as I reached his door and he opens it, the whole room is dimmed, with music playing and he even have an aromatherapy oil burner to make the whole room atmosphere as relaxing as possible. He show me where is the bed and I put all my belongings on the table before moving on to the bed area. Of course, I did not hesitate and remove my shirt first, and while I am removing my shorts and underwear together, he removed his shirt and shorts as well (except underwear). And now this is my impression after he removed it:

- His arms (biceps and triceps) are good
- Nice chest but not buff. Small nipples.
- Not so visible abs but he do have when flexed
- Nice shoulders
- Shaved armpit

Let me get straight to the point. He did turned me on the moment he stripped down to his underwear because he is definitely my type. I lie on the bed after that (with a mild boner) and he started off with my leg. Like I have mentioned previously, his massage is not something you should have high hopes for. I will skip this part and move on to the real deal.

When he started to massage my back by climbing on top of me, I only realise that he took off his underwear because I can definitely feel his hard d*** touching my back. That moment, he started off with body to body. To be honest, I immediate have a hard on when his body is touching mine and he gave me the warmest, loveliest hug from behind. And the best part, he started to pant softly which makes me more aroused. Of course, I am totally sold by his pant and I follow him pant along while he rub his body against mine. His hard rock d*** is constantly swiping along my body and I seriously think his imagination starts to go wild from that moment on (and my mind already went wild) and he proceed to hump me from my back (not anal). As he humping, I wrap my arms around his arms, gently touching his arms, lick his biceps, nibble his arms and he seems to love it a lot. After humping, he proceed to nipple play after asking me to turn around. At this point, I couldn't hold any longer. I begin to moan softly when he is licking my nipple and his hand is rubbing my d***. I played with his nipple and I am very sure he loves people to play with his nipple as well. He lick both of my nipples, then slowly lick down to my hard d*** and suck me gently. After a while, he lick all the way up to my abs, across my chest, up to my neck, and lastly we kissed each other for the first time. After the kiss, he kneel on top of me with his hard d*** pointing at my face. Without a doubt, I start sucking him slow and nice. This time, he moans instead of pant. After that, he goes back to body to body position and we kiss each other for a good one minute. I have to say that with his body on me and my arms and legs wrapped around his lovely body while we were kissing (with moaning and panting), I seriously want this feeling to remain forever. Once we are done with kissing, he start to hump me again. This time, it went to a new level of intensity. As he humps me on top, I hump him back. As we both humping each other, we both moan and pant faster and faster as every second passes by. I couldn't forget the sound when his chest and my chest hit each other, creating the "piap"-ing sound as if we are f***ing so hard until tomorrow never comes. I told myself that this is the type of fun that I am eagerly looking forward to and Hideto definitely able to fulfil my desire completely.

After a good minute or two of humping, he ask if I am a top or bottom. My first experience as a top and bottom was never a good one hence I lied to him that I am a top. From his hard d***, I can sense that he wants to f*** me. I'm not sure if anyone mention this before, here is a good news to all of you: He might be a vers top. The reason is because after I lied to him that I am a top, he ask me if I want to f*** him. Of course, I want to but I decline for this time. Then he ask me the 2nd time if I want to try bottom again. To be frank, at first I hesitated because I am not ready and I worry that it will be a bad experience again. But I told myself that I am totally sold to him, and my lust instantly took over my brain, saying OK without hesitation. And you know what? Being f***ed by a hot, good looking Japanese guy once in a while is totally worth it lolz.

As he sit on top of me and try to grab a condom from the end table next to the bed, I am constantly sucking him. Then he put on his condom, lube his hard d*** and my a***, slowly insert in. One thing I really love about him is he keep asking me if I am OK. Of course, it hurts and I have to say it hurts a little. When I told him that, he stop inserting and kiss me, trying to keep me calm. As he kiss, he slowly insert again. Not long after, he ask if I am OK or not again. Definitely, he is very considerate of his bottom. When he ask me the 2nd time, I replied him that it still hurts a little. He try his best to calm my a*** muscle down by kissing me again. Surprisingly, not sure what happened, the moment he completely insert his hard dick into my a***, I don't feel any pain at all. He ask me the 3rd time and this time, I told him it is all good. He increases his speed and I can feel his d*** start to dominate my a***. I moan louder and louder and he joined in as well. For sure, this is my very first time enjoy being a bottom.

After few minutes of f***ing, he ejaculated and I ask him if I can ejaculate on his body. He say he want me to ejaculate into his mouth instead. Since he insist, I sit on top of him this time, and jack myself off until the point of no return. I have to say that it turns out to be a little disastrous because my cum did not ended up into his mouth, but all over his face, and even got some on his hair. I apologise and immediately took the tissue to help him wipe off those cum on his eyes. I gotta say, I am absolutely satisfied and remorse for cumming all over his face lolz.

He ask me if I want to take a shower and I said yes. I should have ask him to shower together with me and I really regret for not asking that time(will definitely ask him on my 2nd time lolz). After we are done showering, we get ourselves dressed up and I proceed to pay him. I have to commend him on one thing here. Before we meet, I told him that I do not want full service because I'm not a good top or bottom. Hence we agreed to 200 (his full service is 300) just for b2b and kissing. In the end, I did let him top me and I should be paying him full service instead. When I ask him how much I should pay, he told me that it is up to me since we agreed for 200. I decided to pay him for full service since he made me a happy guy today.

After I paid him, he proceed to hug me from the back and kissed me a few times. I really do not want this to end hence I ask if there will be other people coming for your massage later and he replied there might be another client coming later. Since I do not want to disturb him at all, I have no choice but to leave. And well, before I leave, I hug and kissed him numerous times. I told myself that I will be back for him again. Like definitely.

(And I think I am in love with him now lolz)



So here is my story. My rating for Hideto will be as below:
Look: 9/10 (The missing 1 point is his abs lolz)
Massage: 3/10 (Don't go for his massage if you really need one)
S**: 10/10 (I may be bias here but oh well lolz)


I copied this whole story and too lazy to cut out all the explicit part... Well, not like anyone will read this lolz... And to whoever that read this, please keep it to yourself and hope you enjoy it LOLZ




I can't wait to see Hideto again :D

Saturday, September 16, 2017

Deep Thoughts...

Every now and then, I tend to see some of my friends (especially those pretty and handsome ones) able to enjoy their life much more than I do... They get to travel few times in a year... Saviour delicious food every few months... Taking selfie with a group of happy friends... It never ends... Everytime I see their pictures, I will get envious eventually... How can they afford such happiness??? Do whatever they want, go wherever they want... As for me, it just doesn't make me feel good or happy...

Now... I think that they are actually happy with their life... But in reality, are they really that happy as they look like??? I may look happy to other people but it doesn't mean I am really that happy as well... So why am I covering myself with so much negative thoughts which will make me feel more sad??? Why???



Cause I wanna sleep now lolz xD

Thursday, September 7, 2017

Life Update!!!

I tried a simple urut batin (manhood massage) for the first time and I only realise it is just a normal handjob or some sort lolz... Nothing special... There is a specific manhood massage session which is meant for erectile dysfunction people but I definitely don't need that at all (as of now)... As what's next, I will be looking forward to a lengthy "massage", costly but I should try it at least once xD

As for the story of the guy in my gym, met him few times recently but did not get a chance to talk with him, and I even fail to greet him... Gotta do something about it...

Moving on to my job, it is slightly better now... I am able to cope with it so far (at least there are progress) and with the help of an intern, it could eases me a little bit more...

Financially wise, not so good but eventually it will be better lolz...

So far, I am not keen in meeting new people (except one) hence no story about giving massages...



Finally, to end this blog, here is the video of their live performance for both A-side and B-side of the single:





And I need to take a day off to settle few things next week -.-

Saturday, August 26, 2017

25th August 2017...

Yesterday night was a special night for me... Why??? At last I opened my mouth and had a conversation with the guy in my gym which I approached earlier... Before that, I felt awkward to speak anything with him because I'm worried that he is still uncomfortable with me... Of course, I tried not to make him uncomfortable as well although I met him quite a lot of times... Plus, I only felt that I can only start a conversation with him when we are in the sauna or steam room rather than in the locker room or in the gym... After 3 weeks at least, I managed to get a very good chance to speak with him again and he doesn't seem to mind, but most likely feel slightly uncomfortable when I am around... To be frank, I felt bad to make him feel uncomfortable but I really desperate to befriend him, even though we can't go anywhere further in terms of relationship...

One thing for sure, he has opened up a little bit to me as he willingly to answer some of my questions which is personal to him... First, I really forgotten his name and I ask him to reconfirm his name lolz... Then I ask if he has a girlfriend and he smile it off (which I find him doing that is extremely cute), reluctant to speak in a very soft voice, he said that he is still single... He is seriously cute even though he looks extremely manly which is really my type LOLZ!!! After that, I ask him if that time we first met in the steam room, was that the first time a guy approaches him like that and he answered me yes as well (I don't feel bad cause I find him charming whenever he answer me at this point)... Hence, I ask him if he has been to any other gym before this and he said this is his very first gym... So far he answered all my questions and basically this is a good sign to me :D

After we left the steam room, took our shower and preparing to leave, I was reluctant to ask at the beginning and I took out my courage to ask if we can exchange our phone number... Of course, it is normal that he will reject (even if it was my first time, I did that without thinking twice)... But I did not force him at all to exchange by replying "It's OK if you don't want" but deep in my heart I desperately want it... Before I leave, this time, I said "See you" and he replied... It was a happy day for me...

I can see some progress in getting close to him now... I can sense he might still feel uncomfortable with me but at least this is a good start... I have to slowly make him feel comfortable with me...



I sound very evil as if I am converting a guy to be gay/bi LOLZ!!!

Thursday, August 17, 2017

Down...

Today is my crush's birthday (just to make it clear, it is a she)... I wished her happy birthday and I was planning to meet her up for a meal anytime next week... I am prepared to make a move on her by having frequent dinners and slowly get close to her more and more so she will feel my feelings for her... I am ready to proceed my life to the next stage... I am absolutely ready... Not because I felt guilty for making out with guys but I always believe that I am more comfortable spending the rest of my life with a woman... I can't wait to see her... I am excited and happy and nervous at the same time when I message her... Unfortunately, everything is gone the moment I received her reply...

My hopes, my dream, my future, my lover, all just vanished instantly when she say that she is away from here... What am I supposed to do??? When I took my courage out, she is no longer nearby... How am I supposed to approach her more now??? When I am prepared, she's no longer there for me... Don't get me wrong... I am not blaming her... I just felt that whatever happy things that I am looking forward to will never be a happy thing... This makes me down... Sad... Sorrow... I do not know what to feel about now... Just purely blank...



I need some good rest now...

Thursday, August 10, 2017

Life So Far...

Can't believe that I am somehow developing a feeling towards a guy, not immediately into relationship yet but close to it... Not sure about his thoughts but for me, it seems promising if things move or goes on well enough... To be frank, I am not expecting to be in relationship yet, plus it is not a girl but a guy... What the hell am I even thinking??? But isn't this is what we call love???

Whatever it is, I am definitely not ready to be in long term relationship with a guy yet provided that he is the one that speaks out first (as in he wants to be in long term relationship with me aka boyfriend), then I might consider about it... Here are some short details about him:

1. He is 7 years older than me
2. He is sweet and kind, but love to tease/bully me a lot
3. Tend to be very stern when goes into conversation that doesn't seems fit to his thoughts... Basically, he is a man that demands for justification clearly...
4. Has a cat
5. Extremely busy with his job



Not sure if I want to go anymore detail into it but I will leave those as it is...



Need to prepare for my swimming >.<

Friday, August 4, 2017

That Feeling...

Two moments this week. I will keep it straightforward:

1. Meet up with a guy from BW on Monday and we had lunch together... He was overall great, with good look, decent body and well mannered...We ate our lunch at Sunway Pyramid and once we are done, we proceed to Sunway Hotel's grand ballroom washroom for some casual fun. He enjoy the session and I'm glad he did... Would love to meet him again sometimes but this time, I will join in the fun...

2. Found a swimming buddy from BW and met each other yesterday (Thursday)... Swam for an hour and we proceed to the shower room... Agreed to have some great fun on our shower but I failed to do so due to me feeling uncomfortable... Felt guilty and bad for him as he was looking forward to it and I spoil it in an instant... In the end, we had dinner together and we discussed a lot of things... Two things I love about him??? The way he look at me and smile (totally mesmerising), and a very forgiving kind man as I disappoint him so many times yet he is still OK with it...



Another happy week in my life... Get my job/work moving forward at last and get to meet few nice guys...