A Moment Of Emptiness...

Somehow, the more I think about finding a new job so I can afford to buy a new house, the more miserable I became... Is like the next few months, it will be a torment for me (actually it had started since last few months)... And what's tormenting me right now??? Money... Even ignoring the fact that I'm looking for a better pay job, it will be even more miserable that the fact I am not able to save any money every month now... There are a lot of things I would like to speak out but I just feel that it will make myself feel more worst... But one thing for sure, does money really plays an important role in every human's life??? For me, all I ever want is my own territory of peaceful life but it seems to be EXTREMELY difficult to achieve... I really swear, I won't demand for anything else once I got what I want cause I am just a mere, ordinary human... I totally did not think of buying a SUPERBLY huge house or drive a SUPERBLY luxurious car or eat SUPERBLY luxurious gourmets for the rest of my life... I just want a small little condo, where I have my own entertainment zone, a place to sleep, a place to shower and maybe a kitchen for me to cook??? Unfortunately, this goal is still a million miles away from me...

People always says that by suffering now, you will enjoy more later... The enjoy that they talk about is not like what I thought of... The "enjoy" they said is far more luxurious than what I wanted... So why is it so difficult for me to build my own comfort zone for my life???

Another question is, does the car actually make me feel miserable lately??? This is the biggest question I have to answer myself... However, thinking of the answer is even more miserable than it seems...



I don't hope for miracles to happen... All I want is to pull myself through this misery... That's all I want... In the quickest way possible...

Just Being Honest...

If I'm living in a condo now, I would have been swimming around this time and not playing games that actually pissing me off... Why does MOBA games always make you pissed off??? I don't know either but I am getting tired of the losing streaks...

So what do you expect me to do if not playing this game??? No swimming pool no easy access to consoles no money to get myself more entertainments... The most convenient entertainment I have now is only MOBA... How am I gonna continue to live like this??? Will this year be a better year for me??? If yes, when will it be???

I wish I have a life right now... A life which I desires and not clinging to the same place again and again... Sigh... Why am I this depressed??? I really don't know why...



Does being rich really changes the point of view of my life???

Happy New Year~~~

Officially, I will welcome year 2015!!!

Wishing everyone a happy and healthy year ahead... Most importantly, enjoy your life ;)

As for me??? I will be very happy if I manage to buy a house >.>



Will this year be my year???