Smell of Disappointment...

I told myself that it would be fine even if I am disappointed as expected... But it doesn't... I am suffering and seems to be depressed... I'm not sure why... All I just hope for is to have the loan pass and that's all without the need to trouble anyone else... I knew I will have this feeling of regret buying the car if my house loan got rejected due to this commitment... Maybe for this time, I hope for a miracle even though I am being selfish for once...



Please...

At Long Last!!! But Not Yet!!!

At long last, I have found a house that I MIGHT be able to afford... Actually, the chances to get the loan is still not so high but some good vibes telling me that everything will be alright... It seems difficult but at the same time, not impossible... All I need is some luck and faith lolz... I told myself, if I really able to get a loan for this house, it was pure luck...

What I like about this project is because it is going to complete soon and at the same time, they still have the rebates/discounts for late buyers... The more important thing is, I don't need to pay anything at all besides the booking fee and eventually, I can get some cashback (in terms of monetary) which I can use to buy furnitures or maybe renovate some part of the house to look better... I guess this is a plus point from the rebates... Since the developer provides nice looking tiles, I don't need to spend anything for the tiles in this term... With the money, I can do quite a few things... Like seriously I will really think over what to do with the money merely for the house... Lol...

In the end, is all about my luck... Whether I get it is all depends on luck... Just be positive and everything will be fine... Positive :)

To be frank, if being positive all the time really helps me to buy this house, I will never ever be depressed anymore AHAHAHAHA!!!

Surprisingly...

I was expecting my first incentive would be above 700 (the normal rate as they said) and below 1000 (inclusive of compensation of my bonus)... However, a big turn of event when my boss shows me my pay slip and telling me that I will be getting 1.4k for 2 months... I mean whattttt??? I really never see that coming... Obviously I am happy... It was more than what I expected... And with this amount, I don't think I will have any trouble buying the house I want now for real...

Not gonna boast about my incentive anymore but my key point here is that feeling you have when you get more than what you expected...

Even if I get 700 I am happy enough because the pay is still better than my previous company... Couldn't complain much though lol...

April...

This end month is the month I've been waiting for... It determines whether I am able to buy my own house... I feel anxious and nervous more than excited because my boss told me that he will compensate the bonus I have gave up in my previous company to join this new company... Basically, to compensate my bonuses, the incentive I will be getting should not be lower than what I expected... Hence, I am really worried that my expectation fails me now... Should I have a high hope of my expectation or I should just let it go??? To be frank, I need the money to clear my credit card debts off as soon as possible since it affects my chances to obtain a loan... All I can do as of now is move on with what I have... I even have to sacrifice my vacations for this :'(



Adult's life...

First Time Ever...

This is my first time buying and using perfume (although it is a Eau de Toillete) which I never really did before all this time... Took a free sample and kinda like the fragrance from Davidoff Cool Water... Not sure how many people in Malaysia is using it but I do like this fragrance a lot (they say it was the best seller after all :|)...

The simplicity fragrance from Davidoff Cool Water is what attracted me the most... It is not heavy, not weird and most important of all, relaxing to smell due to the existence of lavender... It gives me peace when I put it on and it somehow gave me a huge confidence boost in my daily life... Never expect it to have such a huge impact by putting on perfumes o.O... I wanted to say that this perfume does not last long but so far I only tried splashing a small amount of the perfume from the sample... Just bought the bottle and never tried spraying on myself before... Perhaps it will last longer if I spray it instead of splashing it from the sample???

I got another sample which is Davidoff Champion... Not sure how does it smells like but I should give it a try someday... As for the roadshow, they were promoting Davidoff Horizon which is their newest product... The smell was OK generally but it did smell slightly unpleasant when mixed with my sweat... Could the smell came from the someone walking pass by me??? I really could not recall that part...

When I do research on perfume, I just notice there are so many things to learn from perfume itself... From choosing to keeping are meant to be a knowledge for perfume users... And thus, I have further enrich my knowledge in my life :)

Should I consider this as another achievement??? LOL...

Learning To Use Perfume/Cologne...

I guess is a little bit late for me to learn how to buy and apply perfumes or cologne at the age of 26... I was not exposed to the lifestyle where I get to keep some privacy in my life... Applying pefume is normal among men and most of my friends does it... To be frank I do not have a very bad body odor that leads me to apply perfume but I will definitely need it even just a little to ensure some confidents for myself... It will be difficult if the perfume comes with a sprayer I have to say... Or basically I can remove the nozzle and it function like a normal bottle??? Still more things to learn here...

What's important right now is to discover the right fragrance for me...



I like fruity aroma like peach lolz...

3 Months...

Surprisingly, it has been 3 months working in this new company... Previously I was worried and afraid that I could not cope with what's going to happen on a new environment... Now, it just felt almost the same as my previous company... I wonder if all these feelings will be the same whenever I changed to a new job??? I am still unsure what will happen in the next few months as I will be busy rushing to get the jobs done but at least I enjoy what I did so far...

Well, the only downside so far: Bored and lonely cause I do not have my own lunch group now :(



My next blog update should be my review for Perfume's COSMIC EXPLORER album :D

Deep Thoughts...

During lunch, my boss told me this:

When you are still young, travel as much as you can...

And the next thing that comes to my mind is:

I absolutely agree. Provided that you have the money to travel to the places you love.

There is a long list of places I would love to travel... From Sipadan to Koh Lipe and as I said, not said but more like a promise to myself that if I am rich in the future, I will go Bimini again for a vacation... I mean who doesn't want to go for a vacation??? I may be a introvert but it doesn't mean I don't like travelling... I love to play games but it doesn't mean I dislike going outside...

In fact, I would really love to try skydiving and surfing as well... Climbing mountains may not be in my list but I guess I should give it a try as well... Bungee jumping or zip-lining (aka flying fox) is in my list too... I absolutely understand the true meaning of enjoying your life or at least try those things you want before you die... Unfortunately, all these enjoyment ended revolves around money... Perhaps when I get older, I will get a chance to try all of it... Perhaps :)

If a human lives long enough without achieving his/her goals and dreams, what is the meaning of life then???