Happiest Moment!!!

I never had such happy moments where few good things happen simultaneously to me... Let me summarise it:

1. Finally he message me!!!
2. Pre-ordered my S10+
3. Met a new guy (as a friend but not a partner)
4. Cash out my bring forward annual leave
5. BLACKPINK concert tomorrow

And all these just happened within a few days... I really never felt this joyful in my entire life that I just wanted to stop doing any work right now lolz!!!



Now... I am looping MAMAMOO's Decalcomanie nonstop :P

Impressive!!!

Samsung S10 won my heart... Completely... It is the type of phone that I'm looking forward to since 3 years ago... And what surprise me more is the price range of S10+ which does not exceed RM4k... Here are the following things that I am impressed with:

1. Ultrasonic fingerprint scanner
2. Dynamic AMOLED
3. Ultra Wide camera
4. Bigger battery capacity
5. Infinity-O

What's more??? The pre-order perks looks promising and worthy to me :D

Now... I'm waiting for the pre-order... Die die also must book 1 unit liao lolz...



I am so excited right now T_T

Events This Week...

Ok... I am anticipated with this week because of the following:

1. Samsung's event on 21st Feb
2. BLACKPINK concert on 23rd Feb

I don't feel mundane at all this week... On top of the events aforementioned, I am looking forward to meet him... Although not as eager as how I am previously, but I will let fate decides... Among all the events, Samsung's event is the one I am really looking forward to the most because I am ready to buy it... Nothing can stop me now :D



Yet I still have to complete my work from my job T_T

New Jam!!!

Ok... Hwasa from MAMAMOO really got me hooked up completely on her solo single... I really love this song a lot... And, their backup dancers are awesome as fark!!! xD



Twit twit twit twit~~~

End Of Lunar New Year...

Tomorrow is the last day of Lunar New Year... It has been always joyous during these period because we will get to visit friends' house and eat sinful food... Gambling, playing games and many more are like additional toppings to the festive seasons... It will never be bored... It will never be silent... It will always be fun all the time... I enjoy it a lot :D


Now moving on to my personal life... As expected, he did not send me a message... Frankly speaking, I still miss him a little as of now... I just feel like I should not give up on this... Is it because I'm getting older to think about having a relationship or what??? Lolz...
Even if I don't get a chance to be in relationship with him, I am very happy to be a close or good friend with him... I am ready to make a move on the person I am interested but situations does not allow it such as:

1. The girl I love - Every time when I try to date her for lunch/dinner, she will be either not in Malaysia, or she just went back to Singapore... I really love to be close to her as much as I could and slowly further our relationship but NO!!! Not even a chance for me to do so... Given how expensive Singapore is to me, I will never think of going Singapore for a day or two just to meet her...

2. The guy I love - He asks for my number and never message me at all but I still in love with him... After the incident, I felt way much better but I really hope that I can further develope our relationship... The only place that I can meet him now is at the gym...

I am still not giving up on the girl actually... I will do anything to get close to her as long as not asking me to go Singapore that's it... And yes... Being bisexual is not fun because we will ended up having more options to choose from...



So, who am I destined to be with???

It Was My Fault...

It was an utterly disappointing day yesterday... Able to meet him but it was a total turnover event... Not sure if I should be sad or happy cause this is how the story goes:

(NOTE: SFW)

Never intended to workout but just for the sake of hoping to meet him, I went to the gym for their sauna and steam. Upon arrival, as usual, looking around in hope of noticing him. Found a locker, settle down and undress myself. Head towards the usual shower row, nobody around and I thought he will not be in today. Since it is Valentines, probably he is with someone. I took a shower and head to the sauna. For almost 15 minutes, I leave the sauna to cool down. As I walking out from the shower area, BAM!!! It's him. Joy surges on me. I approaches him and greeted him. He replied. Asked some lame questions to break the tensions. Then, things goes differently after I ask the most important question.

Usually when he sees me, he will ask for a hug. But not this time. So I asked him the same old question which he promised to. Cheerfully I poked his arm and ask, "I thought you were going to message me yesterday?". The answer he gave totally explains everything. He replied "Oh I was too busy with work and I forgotten about it. I'm really sorry and I will message you tonight". That very moment, I actually get what he meant. I was instantly crushed, but at the same time, the burden in my heart dissipates. That very answer from him tells me that I am just fallen deeply in love by myself and not him. At this point, I know it was not his fault but I do want him to know that what he did previously made me fallen for him. I can't tell him that at all. No I can't. Since he gave me that answer, feeling gets awkward. I mean if I was him, every time we meet and I was asked the same question and I keep giving the same answer just never seems to work out well. Hence, I dismissed myself so that he can continue with what he wanna do. As I walk to my locker, I realise that I haven't get the firm answer. No. I can't give up yet. I embrace myself and look for him once more. I drank some water then I get back to the shower area to find him. When we dismissed, I notice which shower row he went. So I went back to the same row he was at previously and enters the shower cubicle opposite of him. Here goes.

As I was showering, I opened a small gap on my curtain because I want to confirm that he was at the opposite. I'm a creep. I instantly turned into a creepy stalker which I will never do. I was constantly staring out the curtain. And yes, when I enter and turn on the shower, he was peeking out. Not sure he was expecting some other people or me but yea he noticed me and I knew it is him. So I stayed as long as he stays and we peek each other numerous time. He was in fear (so sorry about that lolz). His expression tells me that he just want to completely avoid me at that very moment. But I am being very persistent on getting my answer so I kept waiting and he kept staying in the shower. Since I know how it goes, I left the shower and walk away pretending like I'm giving up. But no. I went out and get myself a drink, then I get back to where he is. He was wrapped in towel and he is being very alert of me, trying to leave the shower quickly but I pops up like a freaking creepy guy. He saw me. I was calling him over to me and he was too afraid at that point by waving no to me. It went for like 10 seconds where I was persistently asking him over and he keep declining. He thought I was up to something but the fact is I want to ask him something. After that, he give up and walk over to me and I immediately says "No worries I just want to ask you something". He felt slightly calmer. Without hesitation, I get to the point straight by asking "May I know what is your purpose of getting my number?". One second of pause. He open his mouth and answer me "Just want to get to know you more". That very moment, I was kinda pissed off and fire back a question in an instant "If you want to know me more, why are you not even messaging me?". Same answer from him. Once is fine. Twice is forgivable. Thrice? No point talking anymore. Not sure if he notice it but I can tell that my face was in total disappointment. Before he tries to walk away, I hurl out a quite true but hurtful sentence to him. "Even you say that you will message me, I believe you will never do so" with a disappointed smile on my face. Assuming he heard what I said, he smile and we both walk off. To me, at that moment, I know is the end. I walked back to my locker, take my new towel, go for a shower and leave the place without even trying to search or look for him anymore. The End.

Thinking back on the incident, I think I am being a little too mean on him just because of my own misunderstanding. But it seems like a right thing for me to do because this will stop him from being appreciative of me which could cause me to misunderstand again. At least now, I can see the fine line between us both. It is OK if he don't even look at me like how he used to be. It is OK if he is not going to message me. Frankly speaking, I knew his intention now but I still like him for who he is. The fact that I may hurt him, I accept it if he no longer like me. It was my fault to begin with. I'll admit.



Dear Joey. You had screw up your love life.

Valentines...

Before I leave my house, I pray one more time in order to hope to meet him again today... Indeed I sound greedy at this point because my previous wish was fulfilled... And now, I'm asking for it again... However, I have no choice because he did not send me a message... Not sure if he really saved my number or what but I can't wait like this... It won't do me good... I want a firm answer tonight... I was going easy on him yesterday because I believe in him... But this time, he broke his promises twice and I don't think he will dare to defend himself in any way... And like I said, yes, I will go wild... I may have those traits and looks of a small, young kid but once you messed me up, you gonna get it... First of all, if I meet him tonight, I will ask for his number, pull him along to my locker and pass him my phone... No running away... Hell yes, I will send a message right away and ask him to confirm the message is received successfully... Secondly, as a punishment, I will pull him to the shower and force him to hug me for at least 1 minute (I do not want to make his friend waiting for him and I am a gentleman) unless he is alone... Thirdly, ask him for dinner... To be precise, valentines dinner... I want to officiate it as our first day of dating if he agrees as a punishment as well... I may be evil, but goodly evil HAHAHAHAHA!!! If he declines, fourth thing to do, ask his real intention... Does he want me to be his FWB, or clearly a friend, or something beyond... If he says he is awkward, shy and still adapting, it is OK I can give him time but one thing is we have to know each other more by communicating more, not just at the gym but through messages and hanging out together more...

I am so gonna bombard him with questions... I do sound like a girl right now but sorry to say, I won't miss this opportunity...



If I see him tonight, he will never get a chance to leave the changing room lolz...

Thank God...

I never pray to God for help unless it is necessary but yesterday, my prayers was heard... It was kind of miracle to be honest and to return my favour, I swear I will not eat beef anymore... Let me go through the story on what happened yesterday...

(WARNING: NSFW)

As usual, arrived to the gym and start changing to my workout attire. I never have high hopes because something tells me that I won't get to see him today since I did not manage to find him on Tuesday as well. I told myself yesterday if I don't get to see him, I will just accept my fate. Hence, I just get back to my usual routine. But the only differences this time is I am paying attention to the guys around the gym more than usual, in hope that I can identify him or he identifies me... For an hour plus, it was disappointing but I accepted it. Things changes from this point.

I went to the changing room, looking around as well. No luck. Head straight towards my locker and undress myself for shower. I told myself again that I should just shower quickly and leave the place since the chances for me to see him is as thin as a beach sand. As I walk towards to one of the cubicle, a guy was infront of me. Well, normal. He enters his cubicle and closes the curtain. As he turns around with the curtain almost fully closed, my eyes met his. I can't recognise him at all since it was just his eyes. I mean well I gave up my hope anyway. I just walk to the cubicle opposite of him. As I was trying to close my curtain, BOOM!!! FUCK YEAH!!! The guy opposite me pulls his curtain completely open, with the sudden moment where memories surges right into me. It was him. As if I regain back how he looks like that day. His eyes, face, nose, mouth and most importantly, his body. I can never forget his firm yet meaty pecs and arms. I can feel my eyes was full with joy. Excitement. "Shane?" I blurted. He said "Hey" and that very moment, I was melted with joy once again. We both walk out of our cubicle and greeted each other. After asking some questions, we proceed to a spot and again, he asked me for a hug. I mean why not? Both of us was on our towel, topless and we hug each other. That hug is definitely something I could never forget, probably because it was him. I wanted to hug him longer but I know he was a little afraid of other people noticing so after a quick hug, I asked him for his number. He was kind of reluctant to give me his number but I emphasis on reminding him to message me. I believe in him. I trusted him. And the next part is the interesting part.

After some talking, we both parted ways. As I enter my cubicle, I noticed that he was following me. I mean that's fine. But he seems a little shy. He peek through my curtain but he did not ask for anything. As he was trying to walk away, I peek out of my curtain and he notices me. A manly guy but shy in any possible ways. I BOUGHT IT!!! I ask him over and he ask me why. Of course, my instinct tells me that I should take a shower with him, hence I invited him to shower together. He declined at first because he was afraid and I know I should not force him at that point so I ask him to shower next to my cubicle. He agreed. As we were showering, the cubicle has a 2 sided glass wall that is slightly transparent. I saw him putting his hand on the glass wall, so did I, as if we are holding each other's hand. After awhile, he was done showering and left his cubicle. I purposely open some gap between the curtain for him to see me when he is done. Yes. I am not ashamed because it is him. He stops, glaring at my naked body and asked me am I top or bottom and I replied I'm vers. As he was glaring at my dick, he offered to touch my dick. I was OK with it for sure and to get him closer, I pull him in a little to my cubicle but he is still afraid of the people around. As he was playing with my dick for awhile, I really wanted to pull him in but to ensure that he don't feel uncomfortable too much, I let him go. While he was enjoy looking at me, he asked me to show him my butt. The fact that I have this firm, perky and bubble butt will attract a lot of tops. As I showed it to him, he smiled and compliments my firm butt. Honestly speaking, I don't really feel anything when anyone compliments my butt probably because I'm not a real bottom as well. At that moment, involuntarily, I asked him "So you're a top right?" and he nodded without hesitating. Eventually, the crowd around the shower area is getting more. Few guys were roaming around and we knew this is the time for us to be apart. He goes back to locker to dress up and so do I. We left the changing room. As I was walking out from the changing room, I saw him for the last time, and I reminded him to message me no matter what. The End.

Now. I'm very pissed (but not mad) with the fact that he did not message me even though he promise me. I mean, if you are interested in me so much and you try to jual mahal by not giving me your number, I can honestly say that the next time you meet me, you may like it or dislike me completely. Don't blame me though. You played with my feelings first but I can tell he won't mind what I'm going to do to him because he really fall for me somehow. I may be soft from the outside but I can be wild sometimes xD

Promise is a promise. Like I will stop eating beef as agreed. You have triggered my wild button so you better be prepared for it!!!