Hmmmmm...

Recently I felt that my muscle tend to be more firm or stiff... It feels nice but at the same time, my body needs a massage badly... It is like tiring but not aching/sore... Kinda hard to describe but I don't feel uncomfortable at all, just tiring... Really wish to find some good cheap massage to keep the lethargy away... Sadly, no massages are cheap lol...

I am trying to achieve 4 days straight workout before a rest day... Seriously, how does those bodybuilders workout everyday weiii??? Crazy weiii... Now, I need to keep track of my workout and rest day so that I can give my muscles some good rest... Must not over exert my muscles!!! And on top of weight training, I need to include more cardios from now on... Need to get rid of my spare tyres T____T

Dear fats please have mercy on me!!!

Update #4721976462784464

 

Ok... Just took this pic yesterday and got my body result checked... My weight did not increase for the week but my body fat did drop a little compared to my previous' week result... Guess that I need to work harder this week to see some better results... Just hope that my body fat does not increase for this week T_T

And one thing worth celebrating... MY ABS IS SHOWING A LITTLE!!!!! OMGGGGG T______T

(Yet still I have to struggle with the fat on my waist -.-)

Ok besides my body progress, I had my HIV test done last Saturday... Of course as usual, it is negative... If it is positive, probably I will be depressed as hell and this post will be a long ass post instead... So to whoever reading this, always keep yourself safe!!!

Apart from that, I was extremely horny for the past 2 weeks... When I am horny, even my hands will not do the job... What I need is real sex... OK I had my session last Friday and it was satisfying... I was bottoming for someone that time and I thought it had satisfied my craving for sex... Sadly I just realise, I am still craving for sex, not being a bottom, but being a top... I guess being a versatile has its good and its bad >.<

I know I should not engaged too much on sexual activities due to safety of my boyfriend but I promised I will always keep myself checked and safe...

My house is progressing well and I REALLY REALLY REALLY hope that I can move in by end of October (Oh God please please please)... I just want my own freedom and please make sure everything goes smoothly...

I guess that's all for today's update... Probably the closest thing I'm looking forward to is Blackpink's album on October 2nd... And I think I will be quite busy arranging my furniture delivery this month end...

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Recent Jams!!!

 I've been looping these 2 songs since Monday:





Couldn't help myself with these 2 damn good songs xD


And finally a new song by Perfume :D





Wish to have more holidays XD

Sad Update...

This week result is disappointing... Loses some weight but body fat increased... Feel so sad right now... I just feel like I can never hit below 15% body fat... Or maybe the machine scam me... I don't know... Getting tired by just thinking of it... And eating clean is not cheap at all... So much stuff to be troubled with... Why? Why?? Why???



I'm desperate for sex more and more nowadays T____T

Quick Update!!!

Ok it has been quite some time since I update my body pic in this blog... So here it goes:

Kind of happy with my progress right now as I am constantly gaining weight which I wanted for quite some time... Hope to see better results in the future with the help of protein supplements...

Next... My house renovation goes well so far (except the wrong paint I picked for the first time)... Can't wait to get the rest done so I can start moving in all the furnitures and electrical appliances that I have bought... And most importantly, I can move in and stay... Dear freedom!!! I've been longing for you!!!

Next... My planned holiday should be on end October... I'm going to visit my boy one last time before he comes to KL and enjoy all the food that I did not try last time there... Just hope that this covid stuff remain peaceful for these 2 months...

I guess that's all for now... Tomorrow is my rest day yayyyyyyy~~~



I am so fucking hungry right now lolololol

Post #777!!!

This post marks my post number seven hundred and seventy seven!!! Actually, this is not the main stuff I want to talk about lol... Back to my main story...

Recently, I came to realisation that I am having some issue with my temper... It was worst last week whereby every single things that does not goes my way or just doesn't seems right will make me feel pissed off... For example, I was working and doing my stuff as usual and suddenly it hangs, or I made some mistake on my work and have to redo the part again... Another example is when I was working out at the gym, whenever I want to use that machine but it was occupied... First machine, fine... Second machine, not so good... Third machine, I lost my mood to do that workout anymore... I just could not help myself being pissed off... Even when I'm walking and somehow someone just passes by where I'm walking towards or someone in front of me is walking slower than me, it ticks me off... There is this constant anger being triggered all the time... Currently, I'm doing slightly better but I still need to control it... Hopefully by next week I'm back to normal hahaha xD

There are still a few things I want to address about but I will leave it to my next posts :P



I miss my boyfriend more and more nowadays :'(

YESSSSSSSS!!!

I was absolutely delighted when I have achieved a new milestone:

One of the main reason is I never hit above 66kg in my entire life, which made me feel so happy about it... I feel like I am getting closer to 70kg very soon... Another thing is my body fat is dropping from 18% to 17% and now 16.5%... I can't wait to see myself goes below 15%...

Frankly speaking, this drastic result that I'm having now was due to my diet changes and after taking protein supplements for 2 weeks... Didn't expect it to have such a huge impact on my progress and I feel more motivated than ever now xD

Probably I will continue to bulk up till end of next month, then start to go for cutting hehehe~~~



Let's pump it up!!!

Lol...

Ok not sure what to put for this post's title but here is how the story goes...

I noticed my best friend using one of the gay app since Chinese New Year... I accidentally saw his phone's notification that time... I was a little bit shocked initially but I am OK with it since I am one of them lmaoz... Now the next part...

We went for a trip last weekend and my best friend brought his friend along... Since he is picking me up and his friend, I notice a lot of unusual vibes coming out from them... As I'm sitting behind them, I can see everything clearly... From the way they talk to sharing drinks, that is so typical thing to do for a couple... And probably the most obvious part is when we were all asleep, I somehow notice that they were cuddling together on the bed (we shared the same room but they were using the bed while I'm on the floor xD) and I guess that explains everything... Another obvious thing is when my best friend locked the room together with his friend just for a shower... I mean come on... That would be the most obvious hint if you ask me... Then we had our lunch the next day and head back home...

I somehow tempted to ask my best friend but not sure how to start... Hence, I ask my boyfriend for opinion and he wants me to ask him straight to the point if they are dating... Hence, I decided to ask my best friend how old is his friend first... And after his reply, I jokingly say that as if they were like dating... And BAMMM!!! BINGO!!! He admitted himself and my best friend says since I am one of his closest friends, he don't mind telling me the truth...

Ok now... I don't mind him coming out to me but the next interesting story is, how do I tell him about my boyfriend LOLZ!!! The fact that I am in a long distance relationship for almost a year plus makes it more difficult for him to trust me if I tell him... It just doesn't seems right...

Regardless of what, sooner or later, I will eventually tell him because he is one of my closest friend and I have no intention to keep it among them all...



Thinking what story to tell my best friend about my boyfriend now lol...