TWICE - Scorpion

Ok their first Japanese single that got me hooked was Breakthrough and after that, they released another 2 more Japanese single which is not to my liking... However, in their recent Japanese single 'BETTER', I love it especially their Side-B track 'Scorpion'... When I heard this song for the first time, I immediately fall in love with it... I rarely fall in love with a song on my first listening... But when it does, I will loop the song for the rest of my weeks, or maybe a month... Muacks!!!

Over night, over night~

Over night, over night~

物語は続くの wow~~~

My zodiac is Scorpio by the way LMAOZ!!!

Long Distance Relationship...

So... Apparently I thought I am good in handling long distance relationship... It seems like everything will be fine between us since it has been a year plus being apart... We never video call each other but we do message each other everyday... We share photos of hot and cute guys to each other... We laugh and joke with each other all the time... We share about the food we had all the time... I never feel that we are like strangers toward each other... Everything seems fine and good to me...

My very first time visiting Kuching and stay over at your house was better than I expected... You made me feel comfortable being around you although we only met for 3 times before I visit you at Kuching:

1.  First time was when I pick you up at your hotel to the sauna upon your arrival

2. Second was when we had breakfast together the very next morning

3. Third was when you came to KL again with your cousin and we meet up for dinner

Yes... I remember them very clearly... The time we spent at Damai where we swim together in the pool and you took a lot of pictures for me... I've even uploaded the best picture you took in my IG... That time when I hug you from the back while we were in the pool... That time when you were so fascinated with my phone as it can take pictures underwater... Facing a beautiful sea and mountain while swimming, it is really my very first time and I really appreciate that you brought me to Damai...

However, the most memorable moment for me was not when we were at Kuching... Initially, we missed our flight to Kota Kinabalu as I failed to check in on time... I felt so bad and down that time but you cheered me up and you suggested that we should go on the next day flight instead... Eventually, I agreed and we fly on the next day...

When we went for island hopping together where we swam to our heart content... When you wear your crab beach pants to the beach... When I apply sunscreen lotion onto your body... When you dance by the beach out of the sudden... When we head to a nearby stall and had our coconut milkshake after our swim... Lastly, when you challenge me to take off my pants underwater (there were no people around) and I laughed so hard underwater when you took off yours... It is still vivid in my memory...

I tasted the weirdest white tom yum soup at Kota Kinabalu and you love it so much while I hated it full heartedly... Our best dinner at the seafood restaurant (and it was cheap as hell) whereby the sotong is what we both miss so much until today... When we visited Imago Shopping Mall by running across 2 highway like road and took some pictures with the fountain... When we stroll along Kota Kinabalu Waterfront... The food we ate together are tastier and I never feel tired walking around with you...

That evening when we head back to our hotel after our swim and we were tired as fuck... We were supposed to take a quick nap before dinner and you ended sneaking over to my bed when we both are naked... I can never forget that warmness... We did almost everything except penetration as I do not want to rush things... When your warm mouth wrap around my **** and vice versa... When we kisses so much and intensely... When we cuddle together on the bed... When I look into your eyes while I was kissing you...  When we showered together and release our load in the shower finally before going to take our nap... I can never forget that very night...

The time we spent, both at Kuching and Kota Kinabalu meant so much to me... It will be engraved in my mind and heart for the rest of my life... The good memories will still remain within us but we are not fortunate enough to continue being a couple... I'm not feeling sad at all because we broke up in a good term... Somehow both of us do not feel awkward when we decided to break up... Maybe because our feelings toward each other drifted way too far and no feelings were hurt at this point...

Hope that you are not feeling sad all alone by yourself...

2020 Summary!!!

This year is definitely the most memorable year for me... Definitely something worth noting down to sum up my 2020 and welcoming the 2021, with a hope that it will be better for everyone :D

I really wanted to buy my own house since 3 to 4 years ago... Unfortunately that time, with my meagre salary I could not afford any of them... Even if I found some cheaper ones, the layout is not what I really love... As time passes by, month by month, I will try to browse for new properties... None of them caught my attention until 2 years ago, I found my dream house... It is small but it comes with 2 bathrooms and 2 bedrooms which is something I wanted... Those cheaper properties I found previously was either loft or SOHO... I have never been that excited to buy my very first house... It is definitely a dreams come true for me... And on 1st of November, it marks the day where I moved in and live alone in my house... I can proudly say that I am able to check off one of my life goal :D

Covid-19... Needless for me to say, this is definitely one hell of pandemic that strikes the entire world... Nobody could escape and the worst part, it is still ongoing while I'm typing this post... The only advice that I can give to everyone, please please please keep yourself safe and avoid any unnecessary outings to reduce the risk of getting infected...

Well... That's all I wanna express for the end of 2020... Wish that everyone's resolution for 2021 will be fulfilled... 

As for me, all I wish for is to earn more money so I can clear off all my debts T_T

Hmmmm...

I've been working with my current company for 5 years and since last year, I have been browsing for some new opportunities but none of it really interest me... Not to say that my current company is not good just that I know my boss is leaning toward on working this big project (which I have been doing since last year end) that earns big bucks... If you ask me, isn't that a good thing since your boss is earning so much and they can pay us employee better (bigger bonus as well)??? These are the problems that made me question myself if I should continue on...

When I started doing this new project, I really struggled a lot... It was so bad till the extent that I confront my boss and told him that I really could not continue on anymore... Of course, my boss persuaded me and ask me to stay for a month before he reassign me to other job (yet I worked for a year now lol)... I was so devastated that time and I told my boss that need to take a break from working at my client's office for awhile... I'm so glad I made that decision and after that break, things were slightly better for me...

The second problem which concerns me is how interesting the job could be... I've been working for so many years and most of the things I've been doing was enjoyable... Therefore, I can achieve my tasks given successfully... But in this project, I can only say that not even a single thing is enjoyable for me... It was purely related with insurance and to me, I don't really like doing jobs related with financing (this includes banking stuff)... It was a pain in the ass... Sadly, financing related stuff earns the most for IT company lol...

Finally, the biggest problem is this project has been delayed for too long... Not sure if I need to stay for another year here and I really really really do not want to stay in this project for too long... This project is too bored and uninteresting for me... Like SERIOUSLY BORED...

So, I applied for this job 2 weeks ago and I got a response from them for an interview tomorrow... I wonder what will happen if I got an offer from this new company??? xD

Ranting done. Time to move on :P

Weeeeeeee~~~

My brother suddenly bought me a new PC instead of buying for himself... Not sure why when my old PC still works fine and perfectly for me and I was planning to continue using that initially... Well, since my brother insisted to buy, I will just take it with my arms wide open HAHAHAHAHAHA...

My last research on computer was like 4 to 5 years ago... To my surprise, so much had changed... Never expect to see such a small hard disk (and it is SSD) and almost everything has shrink in size... Even the PC casing nowadays are glass tempered on one side... Totally flabbergasted...

Since I need a place to store the specification of my new PC for future reference (or just in case somebody ask me lol), here it goes:

Processor: INTEL CORE i5 10400F

Motherboard: GIGABYTE B460M H

GPU: AMD GIGABYTE RX 5500XT OC 4GB

RAM: CORSAIR VENGENCE LPX 3200 8GB x 2

Hard Disk: ADATA XPG SX8200 PRO 512GB

PSU: COOLERMASTER MWE BRONZE V2 650W

Casing: COOLERMASTER MASTERBOX K501L RGB

Kinda enjoy playing some games with the new PC... So smooth and fast xD

Quick Update...

Ok... First of all, I've been very busy with work even though I'm working from home... Probably this will last for the next few weeks or even early next year... Although so far I'm still able to cope with it, but I could not deny the fact that working from home made me less motivating and less efficient on doing my work... Honestly, I prefer to work in the office more... Given the situation didn't get any better (as in the pandemic), working in the office will just be a dream... Now move on to the next thing I want to talk about more...

For the first time in my entire life, I bought myself a tank top and put it on... I have to say I am still not so used to it yet cause I never wear any sleeveless shirt since I was young... I wanted to try wearing sleeveless for a very long time just for the sake of trying... Frankly speaking I feel comfortable wearing tank top while working out but I just feel that I am attracting a lot of attentions from other people which makes me feel less comfortable at the same time... Maybe it was just me overthinking xD

Nevertheless, I can check off one of my goal which is to wear sleeveless shirt... I will try my best to wear this shirt to the gym more frequently...

I'm so out of shape now T_____T

Why???

Something stupid happened to me yesterday night... I was having my shabu-shabu dinner and at one point, I wanted to eat the tofu that has been boiled for like quite a period of time... As usual, I scoop it out from the pot, placed it on my spoon and was ready to eat it... And that's when the worst thing happened... I accidentally slurp the tofu too hard (it was rather a small piece by the way, not a big one) and it went straight into my throat and not my mouth... It sounds normal right??? Not when the tofu was fucking hot and the tofu absorbed all the hot soup and it just got stucked between my throat with the burning sensation on going... At that time, I just notice that I did not get any drinks and it was quite a torture for me in my throat... I just went to grab a few drinks and try very hard to sooth it with those cold drinks...

Now... After all the struggles, I'm having a sore throat sensation... It has the same sore throat feeling but I am very very sure it is not sore throat but a burnt throat... I just hope that it will recover quickly... And I hope it is not a serious matter...

Even a small piece of tofu can cause so much damage to me -.-

1st November 2020!!!

1st November 2020 marks the special day for me... One of my lifetime goal has been checked and I am absolutely happy about it... Was supposed to write this post on that day itself but I was totally busy with unpacking stuff, cleaning, sorting stuff out and etc etc etc... Now, most of the things are done just left with a few stuffs to buy...

My first 2 nights of sleep was not so good because of the new environment but last night was really good... I think I have adapted to the house now, and totally in love being naked all the time in the house except heading to the yard lol... The freedom that I wanted for so long is finally here... Felt absolutely fantastic :D

My life is even better when I got the internet installed in the house... My next thing to do is deploy my PS4 and play it tonight haha... Next is to buy a long ethernet cable for my PC... So many minor stuff to care with but I am happy about it... Oh yes, and I am still deciding what hand wash to buy for the house lol...

Basically I have nothing much left to buy, and no major cleaning required... Just once in a while, I will wipe here and there or sweep and mop the floor every 2 or 3 days... Will post some pics soon lol!!!

Need to do some cleaning now >.<