Deep Thoughts...

I came to realisation that I am more of a person that stays within my own comfort zone... Whenever I tried to break out from this comfort zone, it seems like it will never be good enough from other person perspective... It got me thinking when one of the company I applied for recently through an agent and they come back to me explaining that my skills are not up to a senior level expectation... I do admit my skills are not very fantastic because I tend to present my work in the most simplified manner so that other people could understand when they study my work... I have done numerous complex stuff in my entire career and I'm pretty sure all functions accordingly but if my skills were evaluated from a simple test, I have no comment on that...

Nevertheless, I still enjoy doing what I'm doing now (just not for this project) and I guess I will just stick to my current job for a little longer... I don't really have any intention to change job unless someone introduced me a new job then I will just give it a try... I told myself that if I were to change my job, at least make sure I got my bonus first before I leave HAHAHAHAHAHA xD

Of course, if there is a better opportunity in my career, I am willing to give up the bonus in this case :)

Feel so empty recently... Need to find something to spice up my life a little...

Quick Rant...

Ok so I just moved to this new project and given the tight timeline, I understand that I am required to help them since that is the purpose of having me there but I feel that the timeline is way too unreasonable and I'm not sure who is not doing the right job at this point but if you expect me to work on something that I am not responsible of to begin with does not make any senses at all...

Therefore, I do not mind helping anyone at all but if you expect me to work during the weekends, I am so sorry that there is a limit to it and if you are unhappy with it, complain it to my boss... Given that you all are too used to working at such odd hours (like 10pm onwards) due to your inconvenience does not mean I have to follow your time as I prefer to work before 9pm...

Finally, if you all expect me to help you on something so last minute with the due date being tomorrow, I will but sorry to say it could be a half assed work because frankly speaking, my mind do not work that way :)

Meeting start gotta go for now ranting end xD

Happy Chinese New Year 2021!!!

It is the time of the year again where all Chinese will celebrate... The only differences is, we can't visit as much as we used to and basically it means we collect lesser angpows for this year and all parents saves more money cause they give lesser as well hahaha xD

Honestly, I really felt something missing for the first day of CNY... Usually, I will be gambling at this hour and eat/drink plenty of stuff... But now, it is just like an ordinary day for me... In fact, I am desperate for some mahjong and visiting my friends' house which is not likely going to happen...

Regardless, I would like to wish everyone a healthy and wealthy year of 2021!!!

Ok now one thing I really really really wanted to rant about... Starting from today, gyms are allowed to operate as usual BUT WHY SHOWER ROOM ARE CLOSED FOR USAGE!!! ARE YOU F**KING KIDDING ME?!?!?! When I read this, I felt so pissed off and because of this, I decided to continue on freezing my membership until the showers are open... The fact that I have to pay the same monthly membership fee yet they closed most of the facilities and services does not justify this at all... Therefore, my only choice is to continue freezing it to avoid paying something I am not getting...

What should I do for this new year???

Pressured...

OK like seriously a lot of stuff had happened to me recently and it is not going in a good direction for me... I always try my best in my work/job but at certain times, I felt miserable when I did not achieve what I'm supposed to... Of course, I do get my jobs done in the end but there is still something that bugs me all the time...

I did post something about my current project which is related with insurance and I DEFINITELY dislike it a lot since the very first day of taking up the project... I can tell that I am not suitable for it and I even approach my boss and told him that I wanted to give up that time... Up until today, it was a little bit better off but it still gives me a lot of pressure whenever I work on it... It feels like I am being traumatised by this project for some reason and the fact that my boss will take even more project related with this in the future gives me an insecure feeling on what I can do or achieve in the next few years... Is true... This project earns a lot of money... By doing well, I will be rewarded equally as well but I am still unsure if the pressure is worth the money by now... 

Recently, I was told by my boss that I will be moved to another project which is exactly the same insurance thing that I have been doing... At first, I was interviewed together with my other colleague and I thought that at least there will be one companion to work with in this new project... And my first impression of the new project is we will start off from the beginning slowly and build up... The moment I started working on the project yesterday, I only realise one thing... Something that is so not favourable for me at all... It turns out that in this new project, I am the only one that will be joining and the worst part is, I was informed that this project had started half way and they are in the midst of rushing everything by end of this month which I feel it is a little ridiculous given that the work that needs to be done is still so much... I mean like seriously??? As if I am not enough pressured in doing this project and now you giving me more??? One thing I am glad is that the stuff I'm going to be involved in is something I am quite familiar with but whether it will turn out as expected after it is done, I am still skeptical about it...

Right now, I really do not know what to expect from this new project... It felt so familiar yet foreign to me... Since last year October, I was actually updating my resume and got quite a few calls from headhunters but none of them interest me at all... On the other hand, the one that I found which interest me does not want to hire me... I felt like my career path is being stagnant and no progression at all since I work on this insurance project... I don't see myself enjoy doing this project... Hopefully, I don't go insane over this...

So there goes my story... At some point, it does really give me some depression and demotivate me badly as well... Since I have not much choice as of now, I will just have to do what I can do and keep moving on...

So... What my life would be???

Mask Day xD

 

So glad I got my haircut today and without those long hairs, doing my facial mask is waaaaaaaayyyyyyy much more easier and less messy...

Apart from this, what I really want now is to get a good massage... Wonder if any of the massage centre are open now...

Ok I have nothing else to type now lolololol...

The purpose of this post is just because of this pic HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Challenge Accepted!!!

Ok recently one of my friend challenged me to see who get 6 packs within 30 days first... Since gym are still closed and I barely workout since MCO, I decided to take up his challenge because it would be a good motivation for me to do some workout anyway... Apart from doing home workout, I tried to change my diet as well in hope that I can see less fat on my waist xD

Today is the 4th day... 26 more days to go... I got a feeling I might not be able to achieve it but I will still try my best...

As promised, I am posting a picture which is completely irrelevant with my progress and to show off how messy and ugly I am right now HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

 

I just finished working out in that pic lol...

Ohhh...

So after working with this project for a year plus, I am officially moving out from it and work on another project next month onwards... Not sure if it is a good or bad thing because basically, I will be doing the same thing like what I did for my current project... Nothing less, nothing more, just under different manager and different company... As this is a completely new project, I will have to do all the stuff from the beginning till the end (of course I'm not alone xD)...

Here comes my sad story... My boss just announced that our bonus will be postponed until further notice and we no longer get our incentives... On top of that, most of the benefits are no longer valid, and the still valid ones will have the amount reduced... I understand that it was a tough year in 2020 and it was not easy for everyone... Occasionally, there will be some recruitment company or staff from the company itself contacted me for a job opportunity but I don't find them interesting... To me right now, an interesting project is what I'm looking forward to... Something that is to my liking or interest, and something that I would enjoy doing and learning at the same time (not like insurance lolz)... My boss told me that he really hope that I will stick longer throughout this tough time with him... To be honest, he is a good boss and he really take very good care of his employees... I could not deny that and this is the reason why I'm still working for him... It will be better if he assign me to a more interesting project HAHA!!!

Ok... That's all I wanna update... Hopefully my next post is a picture xD

LONG WEEKEND AHEAD COMING SOON WOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO~~~

Island Trip...

I really love islands so much that I will miss the smell of sea breeze once in a while... And sometimes, I would smell the sea breeze for a second and it is gone even though I'm at city center... When I retire, I told myself that I MUST live by a beach... That would be the most enjoyable moment in my entire life...

Right now, I really wanted to travel to some islands but due to this pandemic, the trip has to be delayed for a longer period... To ease myself, I will list down all my island trips (for work or for leisure) in sequence as below:

1.    Langkawi Island (Leisure)

I could never forget this trip because it was my very first trip to an island with my group of high school friends... It was after SPM and we decided to go for a trip and this is where we ended up... Given that I was an introvert that time and rarely hang out with people, it really feels different to me in a good way... My very first banana boat memory was from this trip as well xD

We rented a villa with swimming pool and at night, we were so noisy around the pool area that other tenants start complaining... The joy of youth lolz

2.    Bimini Island (Work)

During my 3 years of university, I think I never visit any islands until I started working for my very first job... On my 2nd year of my first job, I was given the opportunity to work at an island called Bimini, which is from Bahamas... It was my very first time working on an island, and probably the best working environment I ever had in my entire life... Up until today, I still miss Bimini island so much... From the beautiful crystal clear water to the serene lifestyle... I am so grateful that I was given the chance to work at this island... I really hope that I am rich enough to visit Bimini again someday :')

3.    Redang Island (Leisure)

2 years later, I visited Redang Island with one of my ex-colleague... To me, it was such a nice getaway after not going to an island for 2 years... The sound of the waves flapping by the shore is absolutely relaxing... Nothing other than this can eases my mind so much... From island hopping to enjoying the scenery, this is what I called paradise :P

We stayed at Coral Redang Island Resort and I recall this is the very first time I sleep shirtless with some other guy around me... Even when I work at Bimini alone, I never dare to sleep shirtless lol...

4.    Koh Lipe (Leisure)

A new experience for me when I visit Koh Lipe a year after Redang... This time, it was a solo trip and this is why it meant so much for me as well... Apart from the usual island hopping, one thing that stands out the most in Koh Lipe is their walking street, which is the most happening place at night... Along the whole stretch of the walkway, you can find almost every local delicacies from seafoods to dessert and I really enjoy it a lot... To me, this island is basically a food heaven xD

I will definitely bring my parents to this island one day :D

5.    Perhentian Island (Leisure)

On the very same year itself, 3 months later, I visited Perhentian with my ex-colleague again... If I remember correctly, this trip was a very ad-hoc trip where my ex-colleague and me suddenly agreed to go for an island trip and we decided to go here... We practically traveled to both side of the islands (there are Perhentian Besar and Perhentian Kecil which is just opposite each other) and it just satisfy my craving for sea breeze... As usual, we went for island hopping and in this trip, the most memorable thing is it was my first time having a serious conversation with my ex-colleague... LOL!!!

6.    Penang Island (Leisure)

This is still an island right??? LOLZ!!! Went to this island before Chinese New Year 2020... Not exactly the island trip I wanted but still, it satisfy my craving for sea breeze >.<

Ok... That's all the island trip that I had been to... There are still so many islands that I want to visit and I really hope that day will come sooner...

Bimini is still the best island for me so far :)