Annoyed #2

OK I know I just posted something like not long ago but something unfavourable occurs to me in the same day... I don't always complain but this one really needs to be highlighted...

So yesterday (2nd Feb), I did an online interview and everything went well for me... I am confident as usual during the online interview, meanwhile the interviewer is quite carefree, which I don't mind... After the interview ends, the interviewer drops me a massage in WhatsApp cause he say is for easy communication... But everything starts to become weird when he message me the next thing, which is do I workout???

To simplified this, our conversation is purely about our physical bodies... We shared some arms pictures (he is totally obssessed with arm wrestling) and talk about fitness, to an extent where we ended up meeting at the interviewer's condo for a workout... The way he looks at me feels like he have interest on my body (I can tell clearly) and he was a little bit reluctant or shy which I understand... After a short workout, we ended up arm wrestling with each other... Just to add, during the workout, he has the tendency to touch my arms (he obviously love big arms) and while we were resting from arm wrestling, he loves to move his chest for no reason... To me, that is an obvious sign of seduction... He tend to stare at my arm and chest most of the time... I really do not know what is his intention during my whole time being there, but for me, I was hoping that I have a chance to know him better since he is quite cute and good looking...

After I reached home, everything went downhill when I was trying to joke with him that I may not be able to pin his arm down (from arm wrestling), but I definitely can pin him on the bed... I purposely say that just to test him out to see if he is really interested on me and based on the reply, he is being obvious when he deleted a message and reply that he is only interested in arm wrestling...

I showed my true side and if he is not interested, I am OK with it... However, he is very persistent in chatting with me as if wanting to get close to me... For what reason, I really have no idea at this point... And the worst thing is, the interview was yesterday and today morning (around 10am), I received his email that I did not pass the screening test... Is this even normal for a HR to filter the candidates this fast??? Don't they need at least 2 or 3 days instead of less than a day??? By this, I questioned myself a little, did he failed me because I show my true self??? And since you are the one that wants to chat with me so badly, shouldn't he message me and tell me that I did not pass it???

Honestly, I find this a little bit ridiculous... I may be overthinking but failing on the screening stage in less than 24 hours??? I really could not accept this logic... Right now, I have no idea what he is even thinking about, and more importantly is, I should take a step back away from him since everything does not sums up correctly...

Seems like the jobs that I want can never be mine...

Annoyed...

Since I am unemployed for like almost 2 months, I realise that I don't really have much freedom as compared to I was working... The reason is every day, either my mom or dad will call me, asking me for something... My dad will always call and ask me some minor stuff, which is still OK while my mom is the most annoying one (Yes I know I am mean but she is taking this too far)... I am OK if she ask me to fetch her somewhere once in a while... She could have list down what she wanted to buy for that 1 day and buy everything but NO... That's not what she want... She will call me to fetch her buy 1 thing today, then the next day she will ask me to fetch her again to buy another thing, and the same thing repeats for the following days... Basically, not even one day I am free from her... I find this very exhausting when she keeps bugging me all the time... Every single things I wanna do, she will ask me such as where I'll be going if I am not free to fetch her that day or something... It really pisses me off a lot...

I don't hate them... I don't dislike them... But please, I am an adult... Give me the freedom of a grown up...

Sometimes, I have to be mean to them so that they don't expect too much of me...

:/

I really have nothing much to talk about in this post but there is something that has been bugging me for quite some time... Why is is so difficult to find a soulmate??? Why??? I started to feel exhausted in finding one... None of it was fruitful and anyone that I set my eyes on will never belongs to me... Why???

Should I just give up and stay single forever???

What should I do???

Plans Ahead...

It marks 1 month of me not working since I resigned... I really enjoyed the moment I had while I was not working, busy with settling most of my personal stuff and even explore my perfumery stuff... It feels more satisfying when the things I wanted to do or achieve for the last 1 or 2 years finally came into realisation... I got to give myself a pat for that xD

Chinese New Year is coming soon... I am still in the midst of getting my new job (well I have commitments) and I was planning to start my new job on February... Whether I got an offer or not is another story but what I want is a job that I really enjoy doing with a good boss... Now I realise how important to have a good boss in the company I am working for... Apart from my job hunting, we are in the midst of getting a reply from the perfume company in France... Frankly speaking, I did not do much stuff related to this France company (my housemate did all of it) and it seems like this is our only last choice and chance... I won't go deep into the details on what we going to do for now...

What should I do next???

Getting myself ready for everything now >.<

Summary Of My 2022...

We have finally entered 2023 and at the same time, it still reminds me of what had happened to me in 2022, vividly... Everything started off on 31st Dec 2021 (which is New Year of 2022) and everything ended miserably for me until July, like half a year and slightly more... I posted everything (like very detail) that had happened to me since then in my blog as well... I could not bring myself to read it again but I will still keep it to remind whoever that reads it not to make the same mistake as I did... It had taught me that everything can change just within a day, things can get worst within a week, and tragedies befall within months... I had the worst year in my life, and had to suffer a lot of things throughout the first half of the year... Battling depression wasn't really easy but I managed to get out of it in less than a year so I am still feeling thankful for that...

The funny thing is, it was a really wild ride for me in early 2022 but I felt that I had learnt a lot of valuable lessons in my life, and hopefully I can share this lesson to everyone else so they will not repeat the same mistake I did... I will let this misery locked deeply inside the 2022 vault and start my new beginning in 2023... I will make 2023 to be a brand new me and do what I really wanted to do :D

Wishing everyone a happy, healthy and wealthy 2023!!!

Belated Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!!

As usual by being late, I would love to wish everyone a belated Merry Christmas and early Happy New Year of 2023!!!

In this month, a lot of things happened quickly... I think this post will be a good for me to further explain what had really happened since early of this month... Let me start off with my job...

I started this new job in late August and I had worked for around 3 months and I decided to resign early this month... This would be the very first job that I had work for the shortest period in my entire life... And since I am still in probation, I felt that resigning during probation period will be more reasonable and better for both me and the company as well... Now, here are the reasons why I left this job so quickly:

1. When I joined the company, there are total of 7 employees left the company within the period of 3 months. Since then, I already knew and was being very alert about it. 2 of the employees was fired by the boss because the boss did not like them, and it was an instant resignation without notice period.
2. Worst HR ever. Like seriously??? We are not even entitled for Medical Leave during probation??? No entitlement for Annual Leave does make sense but not a single Medical Leave??? You expect people not to fall sick within the 6 months of probation period??? The fact that the company's probation period is 6 months already doesn't feel pleasant. On my last day in the middle of this month due to early termination, you only compensate me RM100 instead of my daily salary for my last day at work???
3. When I went for the interview, the boss was very friendly and says a lot of stuff like how much he earned in this company and shit, but in the end, his attitudes changes (like very obviously) towards me after I worked for a month. The worst part is, he NEVER trust me and doubt EVERY SINGLE THING I DID when he handed me the most important project. Like hello??? You have no documentations at all about your old projects and you expect me to do everything perfectly for it???
4. The boss is very bias towards female. Is very obvious. The way he treat female against male employees is so damn obvious. I mean is good for the female of course. At least they won't be treated badly.
5. Empty promises. Whatever the boss told me during my interview, it turns out opposite from what he says after I worked in the company for a month. Therefore, it tells me that whatever the boss say can never be trusted from that point onward.

Frankly speaking, the only thing I miss about this company is the colleagues... Within the 3 months, I would say I bond very well with all of them and so glad that we can still hang out...

OK after long post of my job, now let me move on to the next stuff...

During the beginning of my unemployment, I immediately proceed with my next goal which is perfumery. Since last week, I had done some searching on how to get my hands on some quality fragrance oil and found a few one and contacted them (my business partner contacted them). We will be meeting with one of them today and still waiting for reply from the other one. Then there are 3 more which we will contact by this week. Probably these 2 weeks I will be fully occupied with my perfumery stuff as I have to prepare a lot of things to kick start my "experiments". Apart from that, I will try to attend few more perfumery classes or lessons to improve and gain more knowledge from it. I will make good use of this 1 month plus unemployment (I was planning to start work in February) to gain as much knowledge as I can first and at the same time, give myself some break off from work.

Since my resignation, I have never felt so relax and loosen up... All I ever think of is how to improve myself and enjoy my leisure time in the gym and more importantly, spending my good old times playing console games (just got myself a PS5 and I am broke as fuck xD) until my new job starts... Although I have not found a new job yet, I am not in a rush to find one since I still have a lot of time to do so in between...

There are still a few more things I need to do and settle while I am free and hopefully I got the time to do so...

Well that's all I wanna cover for today... Once again, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE~~~

Dong dong chiang coming soon lolz...

Missing In Action...

I knew it has been a long time since I post anything and this is why I reminded myself to post at least something today xD

It was really hectic for me since I changed to my new job... There are a lot of things I need to follow up and at the same time, busy with my life... On top of that, a lot of things happened during the last 2 months and I will just list it down instead of writing a long ass story about it (cause I ain't have time for that lol)

1. Up and downs with my new job - It was not difficult yet it wasn't easy as well due to someone... Will write more about this if I have time...
2. Fell sick twice within a week - I never experienced something like this before... Of course am I fully recovered by now but it definitely felt something new to me lol...
3. Recovered from my STD - This thing has been bugging me for the longest time since I got it... At least now, I know I am recovered from it and being inactive which is definitely a good sign... I can live my life normally now...
4. Gym hiatus - Since I got sick twice a month ago, I decided to put a stop on it temporarily... During the Covid pandemic, I stopped gym for a month and when I started back, I see more gains than continuously gym for few months straight... Hence, I have decided to prove if this really works lolz
5. Perfumery - Thanks to my housemate, my interest on learning perfume stuff is being triggered... Funny thing is my housemate did a tarot reading for me related with my perfume business and it was all so positive... Not sure how true is this though XD

These are the major stuff that had happened to me for the last 2 months... Too much to cope, but one thing for sure is I am living my life happier now... Saying bye bye to my depressed life :D

Strive to be your better self and aim for what you want for your life!!!

WELCOME BACK ME!!!

Busy Busy Busyyy~~~

It is almost a month since I post anything in my blog... First of all, I've changed to a new job a month ago and I was totally occupied with it and I don't even have time to think about what to post... And at the same time, I don't have any interesting thing to post about as I was exhausted by the time I finish my work... I even spend lesser time on the gym for the last 1 month... Things were quite hectic and I did not manage to spend a lot of "my time"... During that 1 month, I was very emotional as well due to a lot of stuff happening... Thank goodness, things are getting slightly better for now...

One thing I realise why I felt quite emotional was because I feel a little lonely recently... Lonely in a sense that I miss someone, and I am so eager to meet him again but not sure if things will work out like how I want it to be... Even I get to know some new friends, I felt like they are not going to stay for long...

Another reason would be how unfair I am being treated right now... I felt like I am being taken advantage to a point where I don't really care at all, as if I am soulless, like an empty vessel...

I was supposed to enjoy my 3 straight days rest but my last 3 days are just as exhausting as my working days... What is the point of this long break???

Wish that my mood gets back to normal quickly...