Quick Update~~~

I am backkkkkkkkk just for a quick update about my life...

As of my last post (July), my life was kinda hectic, mainly revolving on my work as I was moved to a new project since July... To be frank, for the last 3 months working in this project, it was getting more difficult as month goes by and as of today, I would say I am at the brink of resigning... Not sure how long I could endure further but I am pretty sure it won't last long if the situation does not get any better for me, which is my mental health xD

Due to my lifeless job, I had eventually stopped going to the gym for the past 2 months... Like, not even once a week I am hitting the weights... My work was so hectic to the extent that I do not even have a proper time for my meals and I literally ran out of energy to gym at night... In the end, I just spent my weekends to sleep... Nothing fancy with my life since then...

As for love, as usual, nothing good nor bad had happened... Managed to meet some new friends but perhaps I am just not in the state to be in relationship now... I hope but I knew I will never find a partner for the rest of my life HAHAHAHA~~~

Overall, I am doing OK currently but I am still trying to find my new purpose of life and probably when the time comes, I will take a long ass vacation all by myself to find a new life, which I don't know when :P

And here is a song that I would like to share after a long time... Enjoy :D

My Concerns Nowadays...

I realise that my motivation to workout is declining recently... Although not to the extent of skipping gym completely (I still gym 3 times a week), I find it difficult to get myself together and move my ass to the gym as frequent as I used to be...

One thing is, for the past 2 years where I put so much effort to workout, I don't see much progress at all and this is probably one of the reason that demotivates me... Another reason is probably because I got bored with my routine...

Honestly, there are a few things I felt that contributes to the demotivation but at the same time, I try not to think it that way cause it doesn't sounds right... For example, my body tend to be very tired all the time but whenever I push myself to gym with that tired body, eventually I don't feel that tired and sometimes I ended up not being able to sleep at night... At this point, I'm not sure what's going through within my body...

But nevertheless, is not that I feel completely unhealthy or bad... Apart from the tiredness, I'm still able to function well XD

Is this the sign of me aging rapidly??? LOL...

Love Is Not Meant For Me...

About the story where I had a good feeling with the guy I met recently??? Turns out, there will never be a happy ending for me in my love life... I should have expected it, like usual...

Apparently, I was hanging out with one of my friend and he knows him... He told me that he is a playboy (5 to 10 years back ago) and he has that "expensive" attitude which I realise it after awhile as well... I thought I was overthinking but it seems like it was partially true... He kept avoiding my questions about his interest in relationship and things became clearer as time goes by...

It was a hard one for me... It hurts me for sure cause I do fall in love easily... And thanks to my "fall out of love easily" as well, he doesn't mean much to me anymore...

Why does falling in love so hard??? Why does finding a soulmate this difficult??? Why???

Perhaps, I wasn't meant to be in love...

2nd Week...

2nd week of meeting him... I honestly want to meet him up more frequently because I really really really enjoy the time we spent together... It has been a long time since I have this love feelings... The more I think about him, the more I want to meet him... However, the more I tried to message him, the distance seems further when he never reply me... There are still a lot of things I wanna learn about him, hence my urge to meeting him up more seems reasonable... I have a lot of questions to ask... I have a lot of feelings to express... I have a lot of doubts to be cleared... The more I fell for him, the more hurtful as time goes by without knowing what he truly feels about me...

OK Joey... Stop overthinking stuff for now... When time comes, embrace yourself and ask the right question... Plus, this is quite new for him so it might take some time for him to digest as well... Plan something, spend more good times together, and enjoy the process...

THIS FEELING IS REALLY KILLING ME!!!!!

Quick Update!!!

The reason why I am posting this is because I might have found my soulmate... Although it is just a start and there are more things to learn about each other, but the feelings we had for each other somehow matches in a good way... Looking forward to more outings with him :D

Meanwhile, it has been a long time since I share any songs (because this post is too short so I am embedding a video to make it longer HAHAHAHA) and this is one of my top favourite since the song was released:

Hope everyone is having their happy days ahead :)

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

I can't think of what title to put for this post, and since today is Hari Raya, it matches with my previous post which is Chinese New Year xD

It has been quite some time since I posted anything because nothing much happened except bad luck since 1st of April... It wasn't anything severe but it still does affect my mood a little... Guess this holiday is a good time for me to unwind and relax :D

I have some plans ahead for this month and the one I am looking forward to the most is perming my hair... I really really hope it turns out well :')

Apart from my hair, I am eagerly waiting for my increment and bonus by end of this month xD

Signing off for now... Hope to be more active with my blog again HAHAHAHA!!!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

It has been a month since my last post and, we had enter our lovely year of Dragon (since last Saturday)... As we get older, Chinese New Year (CNY) feels less exciting but for those who are still unmarried like me, we get to enjoy some extra pocket money... Thankfully, my relatives never pester me about my love life much they still ask about it once every year... To me, I always give them a straight forward answer, which is I don't have a girlfriend and have not found one yet... If I am meant to be loved or found love, it will come eventually... I can't force myself to love someone who doesn't love me... Perhaps, my entire life was not meant to have a partner...

Since the start of the new year (both Western and Chinese), I feel the same as last year... Normal luck, down but not depressed life, slight loneliness, empty but not lost, and neither happy nor sad... Thank goodness I am still doing well in my work and I would say the least, I am still enjoying my job...

There aren't much update as I have been going slow with my life... I rarely meet new people and rarely engage in anything as well... All I ever wanted is just to let time passes by... I wanted to go for a vacation but I have nobody to go with, nor I have the money to do so... Therefore, I guess I will just go with the flow...

Frankly speaking, I am not so motivated in anything now... I rarely gym due to my work location and I will need to reschedule everything to fit in my workout routine... However, one thing for sure, I will never stop going to gym... I might take a break, but never completely stop it once I started it 😆

OK that's all for me today... Wishing everyone a healthy and wealthy year of Dragon!!!



HAPPY DONG DONG CHIANGGG!!!

Weakening...

Recently I realise that my body has weakened a lot, like I get tired easily and feeling lethargic most of the time even if I get enough sleep... I'm not sure what causes it because I somehow changed my lifestyle by eating oats instead of eggs for my breakfast, workout lesser compared to how I used to be and I even cut down on my lunch (eating bread only)... I've been doing this since last year November... The diet changes has the biggest impact for me when I started but it goes better after a month... Since then, my body tend to feel tired and lethargic at certain hour of the day like around 2pm and 5pm... However, when I workout, I feel damn energetic 😅

One thing I suspected is I might be having Covid but the symptoms are not severe to the extent of fever, cough or sorethroat... Or probably is just some Influenza A or B that wears me down like this... I can't really say much because apart from lethargic, I have no other severe symptoms to lead me to visit the doctor... But since this has been ongoing for almost few days, I might consider getting an influenza test from the clinic (when I need to work in the office 😂) in next few days if it still persists...

In a sense, my health is deteriorating but not in a very bad way... Thankfully, I only feel tired since the frequent changes in my diet (or maybe because of my work stress)... Still, I need to closely monitor in order for me to get back on my physically active path... 

Since bulking doesn't progress much, then I try cutting now xD