Ok. First of all, sorry for the belated wishes and I would like to wish everyone a happy, wealthy and healthy Lunar New Year of 2020!!!
Since I rarely get to blog nowadays, I can only update it like once or twice a month... There are quite an amount of update so it might be a lengthy post once in a while but I will try to keep it short... As of now, nothing much is happening... All I can say is my next post in the blog would be after next my Penang trip which is next week... Be prepared for a lot of pics as well...
GONG XI FA CAI!!!!! HUAT AHHHHHHH!!!
Thursday, January 30, 2020
Sunday, January 12, 2020
Life Is Complicated...
Since last month, lots of things had happen and it heavily affects me emotionally and I am really having a hard time going through... Hence this is the reason why I didn't post anything for quite some time... Now, I will give out a summary of what happened since Dec 2019 up until this new year of Jan 2020:
1. I was struggling with my job. Like seriously bad. It never went well and I was in a serious mental breakdown where I can't concentrate and get anything right. Do note that this is not because I was going through something else but I personally not fond of this project hence I know I can't handle it well. Probably I should say this project is not suitable for me. After a tiring 3 months of struggle, now I can say I am slightly better but I don't think I will ever continue with working on insurance related project. Don't ask me why.
2. Met a guy. We had fun and everything was great until I realise he fell in love with me deeply. It was a complicating relationship that I am having. Given that he knows about my boyfriend, he just want to be with me. And because of his sad past, I kind of pity him but would love to see him recover and be better with me being around him. Don't get me wrong. I like him as a very good friend and I am very clear I will NEVER love him as a boyfriend since my love is for my boyfriend. I have drawn this line very clear with him. Nevertheless, he just wants to be with me so that he can forget his ex and I admit that whatever I do now could make him step deeper. He needs to know what he is doing for sure.
3. Seeing my friends travelling for year end. Yes. I am poor as fuck and not in a very favourable financial status. I will never get to enjoy much in terms of spending. I don't have that luxury anymore. It might drive me crazy but I still have to move on with my life. Waiting for my home to be ready feels so far away. Will my life be ever easy from now onwards? Lol.
4. Gym? No longer able to workout as much as I used to. The fact that I workout lesser nowadays due to my current project makes me fall sick even easier. Is not a good sign and I think I should not stay in this project any longer. Have to make the right decision for my health now.
5. PS4. I have so many games to catch up. Forget about Nintendo Switch. I don't even have time for my PS4. I really want to get back to my gaming life. Felt that my life changes a lot since I stop playing console games.
I have listed down most of my sad things and all I can wish for is better days ahead... Wanting to change job but unsure if there are company who would love to hire me... Is not easy at my age now... Nothing is easy...
Happy Belated New Year 2020...
1. I was struggling with my job. Like seriously bad. It never went well and I was in a serious mental breakdown where I can't concentrate and get anything right. Do note that this is not because I was going through something else but I personally not fond of this project hence I know I can't handle it well. Probably I should say this project is not suitable for me. After a tiring 3 months of struggle, now I can say I am slightly better but I don't think I will ever continue with working on insurance related project. Don't ask me why.
2. Met a guy. We had fun and everything was great until I realise he fell in love with me deeply. It was a complicating relationship that I am having. Given that he knows about my boyfriend, he just want to be with me. And because of his sad past, I kind of pity him but would love to see him recover and be better with me being around him. Don't get me wrong. I like him as a very good friend and I am very clear I will NEVER love him as a boyfriend since my love is for my boyfriend. I have drawn this line very clear with him. Nevertheless, he just wants to be with me so that he can forget his ex and I admit that whatever I do now could make him step deeper. He needs to know what he is doing for sure.
3. Seeing my friends travelling for year end. Yes. I am poor as fuck and not in a very favourable financial status. I will never get to enjoy much in terms of spending. I don't have that luxury anymore. It might drive me crazy but I still have to move on with my life. Waiting for my home to be ready feels so far away. Will my life be ever easy from now onwards? Lol.
4. Gym? No longer able to workout as much as I used to. The fact that I workout lesser nowadays due to my current project makes me fall sick even easier. Is not a good sign and I think I should not stay in this project any longer. Have to make the right decision for my health now.
5. PS4. I have so many games to catch up. Forget about Nintendo Switch. I don't even have time for my PS4. I really want to get back to my gaming life. Felt that my life changes a lot since I stop playing console games.
I have listed down most of my sad things and all I can wish for is better days ahead... Wanting to change job but unsure if there are company who would love to hire me... Is not easy at my age now... Nothing is easy...
Happy Belated New Year 2020...
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