1. The main reason, your preferences on working at Sarawak or Sabah instead of KL. I understand you have your freedom on choose where to work in near future and I will always support you even if you want to work overseas. However, long distance relationship is something I can no longer accept and I will avoid it at all cost. I do not want to love someone that I can't express my affections physically constantly, or at least once a week.
2. I understand you have a lot of things in your mind but your cleanliness is my biggest challenge. Since that day when I went to your house and clean up some mess, I told you that there was a dead pest under the end table. Then within the next few weeks, when I visit your house twice, you did not dispose the dead pest at all. Imagine in the future when we live together, what could have happen provided that I am someone who cares about cleanliness so much (not to the extend of being OCD I guess). Eventually, I was glad that you were willing to help me clean my house during your stay.
3. Our sleeping habits. I never love sleeping in air conditioned room while you are the opposite of me. There was one day where the room was too cold that I could not sleep at all due to uncomfortableness and I ended up sleep at my couch that night. And the funny thing is, I slept all the way till the next morning and you did not realise it at all until you woke up. If you ask me why I did not turn off the aircond and switch on the fan instead, I guess I just do not want to disturb you sleep soundly.
Apart from the aircond, your tendency to sleep all the way in the middle of the bed without realising me sleeping almost at the edge of the bed is another uncomfortable reason. Even during your occasional sleep over at my place, I do not recall how many times I tried pushing you back to your spot. But then, after a few moments, you will repeat the same thing, again and again. Probably because you are too used to sleeping on a big bed alone so it was a little bit difficult for you to adjust when sleeping with someone else.
One more thing is your snoring. Although I am not a light sleeper but I am quite sensitive with noise while sleeping. I am actually still OK with it as I quite used to it but sometimes I really hope that I can get a good night sleep without any noises. Out of all the days we slept together, only 2 days I never hear you snore. Once was when you inhale the anti-snoring stuff (not sure what is the thing called) and another time was just quite natural I guess. However, what turns me off the most at this point is you knew that you snores yet you never take the initiative to inhale that thing whenever you sleep with me. Even during that day you inhale it, I was the one that asking for it. For a moment, I just think that you are not being considerate enough but I can't blame you at all because you are too used to sleeping alone all the time.
Overall, I felt that I am still not good in dealing or expressing myself. I promise that I will be a better person in the future.
It is better to feel the pain now than having it being prolong...
