My Lonely Days For Christmas...

Started to clean the house since yesterday... Basically, I am preparing for CNY... Mahjong-ed on Christmas Eve as well... But the only weird thing I am facing lately: craving for desserts during holiday... I am NOT SUPPOSED to consume sugary foods as I need to keep a proper diet... Unfortunately, I can't control my cravings... I need to get back on a clean diet or else I won't get to shed off those fats on my tummy :'(

The truth is, I have skipped a lot of workout lately due to unwanted events... I am trying my very best not to skip from now on and I have to make sure I look great on my Koh Lipe trip ;)
Of course, hopefully someone would like to join me for the Koh Lipe trip :'(

Today is a holiday for me... The last day for Christmas... What should I do??? What can I do??? How should I pamper myself tomorrow??? What can I eat for dinner tomorrow??? And I just realise that I did not buy myself anything for this Christmas... So what should I reward myself on this lovely, lonely Christmas??? Holiday tend to passes by extremely fast... Why??? WHYYYY???



I wanna eat shortcake :P

FFXV!!!

Indeed this game gives me a new feeling of playing Final Fantasy... Not in a good way, but it was not bad either... The seamless battle gameplay reminds me of Kingdom Hearts and loads of side quests keeps one person occupied with the game... So far after completing Chapter 1, it was all great... Can't wait to use my summoning for the first time which I'm not sure which chapter I'll be getting it lol...

As usual, kinda sad that I can't play it everyday... Only able to touch it during weekend... If I'm living alone now, it would be great >.<



GTG~~~

Update...

Nothing much interesting to type out... Hence, I am summing up ny agenda for this week:

1. Got my FF15 yesterday... Have not started yet...
2. Grand opening of Sunway Velocity Mall today... This mall is just 5 to 8 minutes walk away from my house...
3. Another failed gym day tomorrow...
4. Wedding dinner to attend on Saturday night...
5. 2 nights stay at PD on Sunday...

Phew... That's it... Need to find some time for my FF15 T_T



I am so getting fat thanks to Sunway Velocity Mall -.-

Sign Of Relief...

I won't say that I am happy, but at least I feel less pressured or stressed... Knowing that the money from EPF came in indeed was a great help... Although partially will be used to pay back to my mom, the rest should be good enough to assisst me throughout a few months... Hopefully I do not overspend on unnecessary things from now...

Spent 200 buck to buy a new hard disk today and will be spending another 260 bucks for FFXV next week... Way to go...




Gotta move on!!!

Sigh...

It was not a sad incident... Basically, my hard drive starts to be faulty, causing minor disk reading issue... The best solution will definitely be replacing it with a new one but I don't really like the process of copying things... The worst is, I don't want to spend anymore money on it... I know it is getting older but why at this time???



Just leave me alone...

My Birthday!!!

Today is my birthday and this is how it goes:

The Happy One

1. Tried shortcake for the first time... It was fantastic!!!

2. Tried some desserts from Isetan Japan Store at Lot 10!!!

Conclusion: They are awesome shiettt!!!

The Sad Thing

1. After reinstalling Windows, I face a major slowdown on disk processing... Suspect that it could be due to bad hard disk...

Well... That's it for today...

Happy Birthday To Me :)

Dear PC...

My main entertainment comes into a complete halt... Thanks to some stupid Windows 10 update, booting/starting my windows takes longer than usual and always try to repair which never successful... In other words, a full reinstallation is required but I only have Windows 8.1 installation CD as this Windows 10 is a free upgrade... I have so much thing to consider when reinstalling this and I am really bored with reinstalling things... I totally hate this... Gotta find the quickest way to deal with it right now...



It died on the day where my favourite game started an event...

Goal Fulfilled...

One of my main goal is to buy a house and I did it for real now... I have been waiting for this time since 4 years ago... I planned to buy my first house 4 years ago... I just felt that I should bought my first house 4 years ago... To be frank, I am extremely disappointed with myself right now... This feeling of "Why other people can buy their first house earlier than me" just made me sad... Think in the other way, I may be better off than other people where they can't even afford one after working for 10 years... But maybe they spend those money for vacation rather than a house??? Or maybe they are living a happier life even without having to worry about buying a house??? And for me, I am facing depression once in a while... Right now, my main goal has been fulfilled... So the next thing is, will I be able to keep myself happy enough and achieve my next main goals???



Will the day where I do not have to worry about anything comes???

Dilemma...

To use it, or to sell it...

Right now I am struggling to decide whether I should be using the S7 Edge or sell it instead... The cash I can get from selling it will be helpful indeed and I love using my Note Edge as of now... But if I would sell it, who will be buying it from me??? The only person that I can sell to easily would be my family or friends...

The fact that I shamelessly asked for the LED Cover View was something I'm looking forward to... It will look classy with the phone... And it would be a great upgrade from my Note Edge (but I still love the unique Note Edge's edge screen)... I might have the answer as of now...

Oh well... Tough decisions...



Welcome to my life, S7 Edge :)

At Long Last...

Monday is the day I can collect my prize... Like at last... Phew... Have been waiting too long for this... Although I was disappointed that I'm not getting my Note 7 but have it replaced with S7 Edge, but at least it comes with a free LED Cover View (I asked for it indirectly and shamelessly LOLZ!!!)... To be frank I still love my Note Edge and it is considered limited edition as of now... Since it is still functioning perfectly, might as well give it to my brother to use it... It will be a great upgrade for him as well...

After that, it is my Nobu experience... Still wondering who should I go with right now -,-

I can't wait for New Year because I want my bonus lolz...



Fight till the end!!!

I Should Be Sleeping...

But Samuro is too addictive (Warcraft 3 hero for Heroes of the Storm)... I mean, looking at the images and critical hits bouncing up and down is damn satisfying... With Wind Walk, it will be the best supper surprise combo for him... Totally love it... Time to play... Nights!!!



RARARARARA~~~

Relaxing Vacation...

I am still waiting for one great, long, peaceful, relaxing, lovely vacation and I hope it will be somewhere around November or December... I can't wait to have one and I would be looking forward to it... I might even consider going all by myself just for the sake of escaping from my current lifestyle, knowing that I need one after my Redang trip... Going with a group of friends is great but I should consider trying out alone to enjoy some lonely peaceful life...

I won't get to fully enjoy a single peaceful life unless I'm living alone, or on a vacation alone... And what I can do as of now is wait for the time to come...



Getting to a point where I might loses my mind for the sake of lonely time...

Next Week...

Next week might be very happening... Let me wrap up what will happen next week:

1. The result of my house loan... Yes or no is the only answer...
2. Possibly to get my Galaxy S7 Edge...
3. Have my car repaired due to air conditioner gas leakage...
4. The cute little baby is back!!!
5. Possibly to get my Nobu dinner as well...

Whoa!!! One heck of a week...



I am ready!!!

Curse...

Indeed it was true... I don't believe in it but now, there is no way I can deny it anymore... The curse where I won't get to enjoy what I wanted so bad and eagerly will never goes away... First thing I'm talking about is my Note 7... Come on... It's just a phone... They have Note 4 and Note 5... There are other phones besides Samsung that will be released every year... But why??? Why does it have to be the phone that I won for free and I thought I could enjoy it??? Among all phones, why it has to be the phone I want to play with???

The story comes from another explosion case of Note 7, which is a replaced unit... I do not want to go any further as this hurts me... Previously it was delayed to early November... So after this incident, when will I get my hands on the phone??? Like seriously... When???

Second thing is about my house... I got a good vibe but at the same time, something's not right is going to happen... I can feel it... Is either my father disagree, or I fail to get my loan... I don't know what will happen but the curse indeed lingers around me now... I've been longing to buy a house and now I got myself a great opportunity... Why is it so difficult to make myself happier???

Sleep is all I need now... Doze off the curse away...

3 Years...

I was whining like a bitch on my previous post about how hard is my life but today, something great cheer me up... At last, I found my desired type of house... Small in size is fine... It has a balcony, 2 rooms, 2 bathrooms, an olympic pool (50m), gym, and most importantly, close to public transportation... The only downside for this project is leasehold, not furnished at all AND it will only be completed by 2019... Lolz... 3 years heh...

There are quite a few more things I need to verify about this project and that would be on my next visit to their show gallery... My final decision will be placed on it once I have viewed the show unit... Hopefully something interesting will lighten me up on my show gallery visit...

House VS Vacation...

Realised that once I own a house, I can hardly enjoy a nice, luxurious vacation... If I don't own a house yet, I can spend those money on vacation every few months... Unfortunately, I am not able to save extra money even I don't own a house now... Thanks to the family commitment, my financial was never improving... The most, it is just barely enough for me... I just want to end this burdened life as soon as possible...

As I might have mentioned before, I just want my parents to enjoy a happier life now and wait until the time where I can be independent all by myself... That would be a long long way to go...



Tried so hard not to be depressed... The only way to exit this life is to find a job overseas...

Utada Hikaru - Fantôme

I would be happy to write a full review of Hikki's latest album but it is not so convenient for me to do so by posting it via mobile... Hence, I will go for a brief but honest review of her latest album here...

1. Michi

Imagine after a long time of hiatus and once she is back, she hits it off so well with the first track from the album... The beat is lovely and the music is never wrong coming from Hikki... Combine it with Hikki's voice and her style of singing = Perfect!

+1!

2. Ore no Kanojo

This song definitely has its unique feeling which tells me clearly that this song indeed is Hikki's song... The chorus is nice to sing along... Oh yes, Hikki added in some French lyrics into this song making it to be more fun to sing along lolz...

+1!

3. Hanataba wo Kimini
One of the single for the album... Lovely and really a great song to relax thanks to the soft slow ballad...

+1!

4. Nijikan no Vacancy

Hikki and Sheena Ringo... At first I thought Sheena spoilt this song but as I listen to it more, it grew inside me for a reason and I just got to say I love it... At least I can see Hikki's face after a long time in her MV for this song (and the only album song with MV)...

+1!

5. Ningyo
Another slow ballad... Worth for casual listening but not sing along...

0.5!

6. Tomodachi
The opening of the music for this track was just fantastic... I have to say it has the best uplifting beat compared to the others... Without a doubt, my 2nd favourite song for this album :)

+1!

7. Manatsu no Toriame
Second single for the album and another slow ballad... Hanatabi wo Kimini seems to be slightly better than this... Great for casual listening and not sing along as well...

0.5!

8. Kouya no Ookami
Another masterpiece from the album... The chorus was really different from the other tracks which really reveals Hikki's capability... She played with her voice very well in this track... Definitely my 1st favourite song of this album~~~

+1!

9. Boukyaku
Worst. Song. Ever. Period. Only worth listening to Hikki's part as KOHH'S part is absolutely terrible. Not sure why Hikki will feature KOHH for this song... Felt kinda wasted a potentially good song... Will never listen to this song just to avoid KOHH's terrible part...

0!

10. Jinsei Saikou no Hi
A cheerful track with reference of Shakespeare... Great for casual listening but not for sing along...

0.5!

11. Sakura Nagashi
Well... This track was released 4 years ago and I still loop this up until now... This could only mean one thing for me: Magnificent!!!

+1!



Final Score: 9 / 10

This album only have one song which I really dislike and the rest are acceptable with most of it being my preferred tracks... Well... I think it really worth 9 out of 10 :D

(Kindly ignore the colouring of my texts... Tried to make the colour accordingly but it just never works well...)

Replaced...

Previously I was being extremely hyped about learning gymnastic... Now, it just went down but got replaced with the thought of going to work at Singapore... My cousin sis kept telling me that it is not worthy to earn MYR and spend it on MYR when you can earn SGD and spend it on MYR... Yes it is absolutely true but I just can't bring myself together to choose Singapore... I would rather choose US or UK to be honest and here are the reasons why:

1. I prefer to be less interactive with my relatives (as I have A LOT of relatives working at Singapore)... Thus, other places would make me feel more comfortable... Friends will be fine as they do not require frequent interaction like family...

2. Earning GBP or USD are definitely better than SGD lolz...

3. Far away being alone makes me learn to be more independent better...

4. Explore the other side of the bigger world (Singapore will just always be Singapore)...


Probably there are much more things but these points are the main one and they are good enough... I guess that's it...



Why nobody find/call me to work at Singapore or US or UK??? :'(

Ermmm...

I was supposed to blog something but I totally forgotten what was it about... Hence, I will just move on with some random things...

First is the next Resident Evil CGI movie titled RE Vendetta... It looks quite good from the trailer and I would never missed out a single CGI RE movie with Leon in it lolz... It is just awesome to heard about this...

Secondly, will be heading to Cameron on 1st or 2nd October as the holiday falls on Sunday, hence my Monday is a holiday as well... Wanted to take this opportunity to take some outstanding photos of my bobby bag for the contest by XD Design... Still thinking if I should bring that bag or not though...

Lastly, still eagerly waiting for Samsung good news in regards to my prize -_-

Ohhh whyyyyy~~~

Utada Hikaru - 二時間だけのバカンス

Ok... This song is legit... I have to be honest... I don't really like Sheena Ringo in this song cause she somehow spoil the lovely voice of Utada with her voice... Not to say Ringo's voice is better than Utada but Ringo's voice is absolutely the bitchy girl voice... This song would be better without featuring Shiina Ringo in it... Like seriously...

Nevertheless, after listening to the full song (it is somewhere in the internet by now), it really slowly builds up the vibe of Utada's songs and feelings for me which I totally love it... Indeed, she is a music genius :')

Utada Hikaru-san daisuki da!!!

One By One...

Another reason why the idea of working at Singapore kicks in (though I really try to avoid this) was due to every people I know from every stage of my life which is from secondary school, university mate, up to my previous company's ex-colleague have at least one of them working at Singapore right now... I never desire to work at Singapore as I prefer UK or US... Just that Singapore would be the easiest to get a high paid job as I can see by far... Most of my friends are able to work at Singapore now and one thing for sure, I can do it as well if I really want...

Well... I did plan to give Singapore a try in the end but it will be early next year as I do not want to miss out my bonus for this year... Is true that my salary is not low as of now but I am still young and I should take this opportunity to try working outside my comfort zone... My original idea was to buy a house and be independent but things were not as good as it seems right now... Therefore, my next option would be working overseas so I can enjoy being independent with a even better pay to sustain my parents living expenses... I do think this is a win-win situation for me... Life will not be the same working overseas and I should embrace it as a challenge to further improve myself...



Indeed I sound selfish here but I think it is important to make yourself happy before you make other people happy...

That Feeling...

It hurts to find a good house... Knowing the details such as ease of public transportation access, next to a supermarket, city centre location, and most of all, it have balcony, great facilities and adequate in size... Thinking of owning one is totally a dreams come true for me... Alas, it was not meant for the poor like me... Everything was almost perfect but with the price of over 700k is totally out for me... And this is when the thoughts of winning lottery or getting rich faster kicks in... Do I (and maybe a lot more people) have to always dwell in such misery??? I have enough of this... Eventually, if I am extremely desperate for it, I guess I should start working overseas by now... Winning lottery was never in my list... Going to work at Singapore would not be bad but I have crossed out this location due to certain things... Once again I will tell myself... Unless I am extremely desperate, then this would be the only choice for me... And I totally don't want that... Sigh...



Depression is kicking in...

Public Holiday...

Today is a Public Holiday... In fact, this week have 2 public holidays... If I take 3 days of annual leave for Tuesday to Thursday, I have a freaking total of 9 days long holiday (inclusive of weekends)... You know how fun that would be??? Unfortunately, I have no plan for such a long holiday :(

Really wanted to go for another round of beach vacation this month... However, financial is my biggest obstacle... So what can I do??? Continue live on like an ordinary slave until I saved enough for the next one lorrr...

Once again... When am I going to get my Note 7 :'(



What about my dream to be an olympian??? Guess it is not easy at all to be an olympian :(

The Patient...

I admit that I am quite a patient guy... Unfortunately, this is not applicable with my Note 7... Why does the case occurs right after I was announced as the winner??? I was supposed to get my Note 7 and a lovely dinner next week... It's not like I'm not getting it but I just want to rant it out cause this is the first time I win something in a contest... Gimme now!!!

Why you do this to me??? :'(

Curse???

I was supposed to get my Note7 next week... I am having the biggest joy of my life, and totally got wrecked with the exploding battery on Note7 reported cases recently... Due to this severe incident, I have to delay my Note7 collection... I guess this will be always true, or maybe even a curse... The curse where I will NEVER get to enjoy the things I EAGERLY want... From fibre internet, to buying a house, and now this... Luckily my Bobby bag did not ended up with this curse... Felt kinda sad just because I was expecting this new toy next week and now it got delayed till early November... This is actually very far away if I have to say... Mid of October is far but still acceptable for me... I just... Sighhhhh...



Let me slowly get over it by sleeping...

Worst Day Ever!!!

I usually don't rant about my bad day but today is absolutely unacceptable... At the same time, I have to admit that I am dumb as well... Basically, I lost the key for my gym locker and I do have a spare key tied to my house key which I put it inside my car... However, by the time I remember that I have the spare key, the lock was destroyed by the staff... Why??? Is cheap but still I can prevent it from being destroyed... I may use this lock for other purposes and not for my gym locker... I just feel so down and hate myself so much when I realise it... Like seriously pissed off and moody and ARGHHH!!!

I may have won a Note 7 but it doesn't mean I have to trade such sadness for this happiness... Why is it so unfair??? Why??? WHYYYYY???



Rant over... Gotta move on with my happiness...

Independence Day!!!

Happy 31st August for Malaysia Independence Day!!!

To be frank, yesterday was the best Independence Day's Eve that I ever have in my entire life... Why??? I won a contest and get to enjoy a free meal at Nobu and even a Note 7 as well... I mean, how do I even express this gratitude... At least there are something to keep me entertained for awhile though I am still unsure if I should use the Note 7 or just sell it... Cause seriously, I don't feel anything special about Note 7 so far... I guess I have to use it myself in order to know if it suits me or not...



Once again, Selamat Hari Merdeka ke-59!!!

Teehee!!!

Since I can't upload the picture into blogger from my phone's gallery, I gotta do it from my PC :)

(Taa Daa~~~)

Isn't it lovely...

Love both of the exterior and spacious interior... Sleek and neat designs are always my choice... Gonna take good care of this bag :D

Lalalala~~~~

Quick Update!!!

Got my Bobby bag at last... It was totally awesome... Unfortunately, I can't upload the photos taken in my mobile... Bad blogger :'(

Another thing to highlight... Pewdiepie's girlfriend, Marzia uploaded a video of them in KL... To be honest, I knew they were here in Malaysia but I did not get any chances to meet them personally and this is kinda sad to me... It will be great if I can at least take a picture together with them... What are the odds of them coming over to Malaysia for a visit... Sigh... I hope I can meet them personally at least once in my lifetime...



Moving on with my laifu...

Experiences In Life...

I still have a long list of things to experience in my life... Given that my age is no longer young, there is one thing I would seriously considered to experience, and that would be the Olympic...

I know I am not an athlete... So how am I going to experience Olympic??? This is where the feeling of wanted to join Olympic starts to grow in me...

Ok... First of all, Malaysia have a lot of talented athletes... However, Malaysia only participated in like quarter of the games available... And to me, I am seriously, seriously like absolutely serious about considering to join as a male gymnast... Not sure why this crosses my mind suddenly but it really starts to grow within me... It is not easy at all to train day and night provided that I still need to work... I am not even sure if I take this seriously, will I have the time to train when I need to work full time??? If I am really considering to join and quit my job, where can I find money to sustain myself??? If I choose to train at night only after my daily work and full time training on weekend, can my body take this constant workload??? How do I ever find a suitable trainer that is willingly to train me??? Where do I even start??? There are tonnes of questions unanswered and it will never be an easy road ahead...

Somehow, my rough plan would be like this:

1. Continue gym to build myself up more for a year. In the meantime, go for workout routine that gymnast needs to go for...

2. Before the time I decided to stop gym and move on to real gymnast training, look for a real gymnast trainer for guidance (I really do not have any idea how to approach one as of now)...

3. Train as much as I can after finding a real trainer... Since the next Olympic is on 2020, I still have 3 more years to further polish my skills... But before joining Olympic, I think it is wiser to compete in some non-major competition, and one of it will be Commonwealth game which will be held on 2018...

4. Work as hard as possible for Olympic after Commonwealth game...

This is what I have roughly scheduled for myself... Perhaps within this one year time, I can dig more info on how to find a real gymnast trainer and at the same time, train myself as much as possible so during my gymnast training, I won't have any issues with upper body strength... It is kinda funny that how I ended up choosing male gymnast instead of swimming/diving when I am more comfortable with water sports but here are the valid reasons:

1. We have young and potential swimmers and divers representing Malaysia... I trust and believe in them that they can get gold in the upcoming Olympic and hence, I opt for gymnast instead...

2. It has been quite some time since we have a male gymnast representing for Malaysia... This is why I took the determination to represent Malaysia as a gymnast now... It will be better if we have total of 5 male gymnasts so we are qualified for team gymnast...

3. We may or may not have a silver, or maybe even a bronze for Malaysia in any of the Olympic so far under the male gymnast sports category... Getting one, even if it is a bronze will eventually show that Malaysia indeed have talented athletes all along... Of course, it will be even more awesome if it was a gold since Malaysia never have a gold before in the history and if I really manage to get one, I will be in Malaysia lifetime history LOLZ!!!

I guess these 3 reasons are solid enough to justify my determination on being a gymnast, not as myself but as a representative for Malaysia in this sport category... This will be an interesting news by then provided that I really have my wish come true...

Right now, all I ever need is able to find the right trainer that is willingly to teach a noob like me... I believe in myself that if I have set a goal for myself, I will not back down until I achieve something out of it...

Important note: By any chance whoever that bumps to this post and you are a gymnast trainer (or maybe know someone), please comment on this post and let me know how to contact you if you are really interested in teaching me... Thank you in advance... (Lol feels like I am talking to a wall as the chances for someone to notice this post is almost 0.000000001%)

Once again let me repeat... I am NOT kidding, joking or trying to be funny about being a gymnast as a representative for Malaysia... Should any readers somehow read this, please do not hesitate to drop me a comment if you know a trainer that is willingly to teach and guide me from the beginning... I am totally ready for it...

Bobby Bag!!!

At last my Bobby bag has arrived to Malaysia!!! It should be ready for collection tomorrow and I seriously seriously hope it will be delivered to me by tomorrow morning as I won't be around the office after lunch... Please please and please deliver it to me in the morning please... I can't wait to experience this new bag of mine...

Too many things going to happen this week and I need to embrace and prepare myself for it... Gotta hang on tight!!!



Let the spirit ignite!!!

Keep It Simple...

Just gonna sum up what's happening since last few weeks until today:

1. Since Pokemon Go was launch, nostalgic moments came alive...

2. Waiting for news from my agent in regards to a new project...

3. Supposed to help one of my friend to install windows but failed...

4. Watched Final Fantasy XV Kingsglaive movie in the cinema... Which is something I did not do for a year or maybe more (as in watching a movie in the cinema)...

5. Waiting eagerly for my bobby bag...

6. Waiting for the result of my Samsung Galaxy Life contest...

7. Waiting for my brother's Miku Hatsune Project Diva X...

And lastly...

8. In deep thought of joining Olympic 2020 as a gymnast... WADAFAQ???

Not sure how no. 8 came into my mind so sudden but somehow, getting a gold medal in olympic for my country is not that bad either... The rewards are quite impressive... Provided that I really think I have the talent then it would be great but by the time Olympic 2020 comes, I am too old for this shit LOLZ!!!

Oh well... Wadafaq moment are meant to be wadafaq... That's all for today's post... :)



Laptop are so not my things...

2 Months Results...

Went for another full body check at the gym and the results was rather surprising... My aim to increase my body mass indeed was successful, but my muscle mass dropped by a little??? What??? Dropped??? How does that supposed to be??? I am confused now...

Based on the results, my upper body gained the most mass from both body fat and body mass... Though my overall body fat increased significantly when compared to my last 2 months' result, that was because my diet was not good at all... Like I said, my aim was to increase body mass but by body fat, that is definitely not a good thing... I can't recall how much muscle mass I gained for my arms but from my physical appearance, I am very sure that my arms got buffed slightly... I can be very sure that my chest gained some muscle mass as well... Yet I have absolutely no idea why my muscle mass dropped when compared to my last 2 months' record where I never do any weightlifting at all... Seriously what is happening to me???

Right now, for this month, I will substitute my tea break with milk, no nasi lemak in the morning and no fried/oily food for lunch and dinner, motto miruku and...... Shit now I have problem what to eat for my lunch and dinner... Based on what I read from the experts, it is best for me to consume more protein and heavier weights for muscle mass boost while slightly reduce my calories intake... It sounds extremely difficult for me because I don't take protein shakes AND I can't even find healthy, clean, rich in protein food around my office... I am going to have a hard time on this...



Why does bodybuilding so difficult??? How am I supposed to find my foooooods!!!!!

Rest In Peace...

It was a heartbreaking news to hear that my fellow forumer passed away after being in critical condition for almost 2 weeks... I really hope that I get a chance to at least talk with him again after that many years... Unfortunately, I am no longer able to... It would be great if I was given a chance to ask about his life, or maybe give some advice or provide him some support... It was a little bit late to know that he was struggling... I only know he needs help when I got the news that he was admitted to the hospital...

My most sincere condolences to his family...

To be honest, I am sad because he used to be a nice, kind and sweet person I used to know... But if he decided to suicide, I just feel that he could have thought about a better alternative in solving his problems instead of suciding... And I got to say, I just have this "meh" feeling with people that died due to suiciding... They just don't deserve something... I really do not know how to express this something... Suiciding was never ever a way to solve the problems in your life and that will always be the truth...



May your soul rest in peace... The gentle side of yours will always be remembered...

Please Wake Up...

Got a news that one of my forum friend was hospitalized for 5 days due to suiciding... I was not crying or sad but somehow, I am totally devastated... I only met him once face to face and I can honestly say he is those type of good, kind man which is almost extinct... He is not rude, gentle and friendly the first time I met him... Although I refer him as uncle (he is just few years older than me) but he is definitely a sweet and kind uncle... I have never meet up with him since the first time, which is around 4 or 5 years ago I think... I'm not sure if he still remember me because I really never tried to get in contact with him since then but this sudden news is seriously heartbreaking... Is like when he is still OK, why I did not try to contact him??? Perhaps if we still keep in touch, he might not ended up in this situation... However, I really have to say that I did not foresee this event to happen... I guess suicidal is really something that you will never notice until it happens...

As a long, old friend of yours, although we don't know each other much, I really wish and hope that you will wake up and give me the chance to talk to you again once more since the last 4 or 5 years... I honestly think that you are still the kind and gentle uncle I used to know...



For the first time I seriously pray to God, please give him strength and vitality to wake up... I will always stand by your side...

Redang 2016

(This is ma beach lifezzz)

Ok I took around 30 pictures but I don't think I will upload all of it in my blog... The only reason I pick this pic first is because of waves... Yes I love waves... I love watching those waves hitting the shore, making the splashing sound and the smell of the sea water always calms me down... I really fall in love with beach after I went to Bimini... Not sure why though...To be frank, I started to learn swimming due to Bimini as well... Is like everything begins from Bimini...

I can talk about how much I love beach endlessly right now... However, the main purpose of this post is to give a brief review about my 3D2N trip to Redang.,,

Cleanliness

Redang was made as a tourist spot for like more than 10 years... My first thought was Redang will not be as clean as what I could imagine but came into surprise, the sea water was still crystal clear... Although there are some litters in the sea, but it can be cleaned up easily if they put an effort to clean it... The most important part about a beautiful beach is whereby you can swim together with the fishes underwater and Redang got this covered perfectly... I would say the cleanliness of this beach is still well maintained even it has been a tourism spot for more than 10 years, which is impressive...

Transportation

There are 2 ports in Terengganu (Merang and Syahbandar Jetty) which provides daily ferry services to Redang... It is not difficult to find a transport going there but they only have 2 boat timings available which are 9AM and 1PM (for ferry services provided from Syahbandar Jetty)... It will take roughly an hour to reach Redang from Syahbandar Jetty as well... For Merang Jetty details, I have no info about it right now >.<
To sum up, it is quite convenient to find a ferry service in Syahbandar Jetty provided that you reached Terengganu before 12PM...

Accommodation

There are a lot of resorts in Redang offering packages which are cheap and worthy... These packages includes meals, water activities, ferry transportation and room of course... And indeed, those packages that are more expensive tends to provide better view, maybe better foods and bigger rooms when compared to the cheaper ones... For the resort I'm staying, Coral Redang Resort (I'm not promoting for them don't worry LOL), I would say that their food was good... The downside for the meals provided is the beverages they serve for lunch and dinner which is limited to coffee and tea only... Since they can serve juices for breakfast, why not they serve those juices for lunch and dinner as well? As for their rooms, it is clean enough with one downside which is the water heater they provided is solar powered with 2 units sharing it... In other words, I am showering in cold water most of the time... If I'm going to rate this resort, I would give them an 7 out of 10 where;-

1 point deducted from the beverage served for lunch and dinner

1 point deducted from the lack of hot shower

1 point deducted from the lack of water activities available (other resorts offers kayaking)

Other than that, it was good enough for me :)

Alright... I have concluded my review for this trip... Somehow, I thought of planning for a beach vacation every 2 months... Regardless it is near or slightly far, if I plan accordingly, I can spend lesser to enjoy more out of it... Well, let see how it goes by then :)

Live life to the fullest while you are still young~~~

A Month Of Progress...

I have to admit, within a month I can really see some progress on my arms and chest (a little for my abs too)... With slightly strict diet, I am still glad that I can buff up my pecs and arms in some ways... As for my abs, I am trying to catch up but something tells me that I need to work even harder on shedding away all those fats on my waist... It was not easy at all but I will work on that slowly... For this month, I will concentrate more on arms and chest as these 2 are my top priorities...

Well time for me to sleep :P 

Need those rest for recovery~~~

9th July 2016!!!

AT LAST!!! I HAVE PLANNED FOR A TRIP TO REDANG!!! LIKE FOR REAL!!! I don't care what happens but I will take a good rest from this trip... Nothing can stop me now... I just wanna relax and enjoy... How much I will spend does not matter... I don't want to be bothered by my financial status anymore...

I still wanna type a lot of things but mehhh... Lazy :P 

Official...

Well... I have decided to join the gym for a year... Though it was sad that I put a huge commitment on my credit card for joining it...
Anyway, since I am kinda enjoy the process of gym, a year of subscription shouldn't be much... Better than having it for 2 years lolz...

Right now I am trying to keep track of my progress... For this free month, I will see how far I can achieve and next month onwards, I will use the 2 free PT sessions to improve parts that I'm lack of... So far I can see an improvement on my shoulder, chest, and my arms (biceps and triceps) since I am concentrating on these part first... Meanwhile, I did go for abs but I believe it will be quite difficult to notice since I have a layer of fat there =.=
On top of weightlifting, my usual cardio exercise in gym is threadmill, while swimming on weekend... Unfortunately, with so much cardio workout going on in a week, I can still hardly shed off those flabs on my tummy... Dang it...



Seriously... I should just clear off all my credit card debts in one shot... But I don't have much money T____T

Enduring Pain...

My chest is aching... I did my chest workout on Wednesday but it seems like my abs workout today somehow overuse my chest... I really need a good rest for a better recovery... I guess my journey to the gym will continue until it ends... Buy one year free 6 months... Hahaha... It is going to be a long long journey... Hopefully within 1 year I can shed all my waist fat xD



I cannot tahan liao... Damn sleepy...

Errr Well...

Not sure if it is a good thing but I have to admit that I am addicted to gym... Besides seeing myself growing, the pain somehow gives me a sense of joy and satisfaction which I won't get from anywhere else... As of today, I had done the following workout:

Day 1: Did nothing...

Day 2: Biceps and chest (majority on biceps cause I feel nothing on my chest)

Day 3: Abs

Day 4: Triceps and shoulder (majority on triceps cause I only found 3 machines that pumps my shoulder)

My next gym day would be majority on chest and a little on biceps... Not sure how fast I can recover for my triceps but it wasn't an intense workout since it was my first time... By then, maybe I can pump more on chest and biceps...

Getting darn sleepy from the workout... Good night world...

I Wonder...

How long does it take for me to build a decent looking body with my bad habit of diet??? Not sure if I can afford those "good" diet (I saw them eating steak for most dinners...) but there are still alternatives such as eggs, milks, yogurt, fruits and malts... I mean, huge meat consumption is definitely a good idea since I love meat but it is not easy to find one that sells steak in a right portion with a cheap price... Approximately, a steak will cost more than 20 to 30 (or maybe even more) ringgit per meal which makes me feel like a not so feasible choice anymore... Unless I go for home cook, it could be slightly cheaper I guess...

Nevertheless, one thing for sure is I can opt for steaks once in a while and tell myself that the price I'm paying is for my body, not for my own hunger satisfaction... Lol...

Tomorrow is my 2nd week of gym... Hope I don't stress my arm too much again -_-

I'm starting to get addicted with gym now...

The Pain Of Growth...

Now I understand the feeling or satisfaction from the pain when hitting the gym... That is for strength training and not cardio training... On my first lesson, I requested for arm and chest workout and my PT taught me a few... It was a good lesson because I CAN DEFINITELY FEEL THE PAIN until now since Wednesday... However, today I did some abs training but it seems like my forearms feels the pain more than my abs does... If this is the case, it could only mean I hit the wrong part, or I did not put enough strength to push it... Now I still need some guidance on shoulder, triceps, leg if required and gluteus which I will leave it to the last...

It will be worthy if this pain I am having indicates a major growth on my physical appearance... Now I seriously understands why they love the pain... I won't say I love it because it could affect my daily chores but if I am still able to do my things while fighting through the pain, then it should not be a problem at all...



To be frank, I think I kinda love the gym life for some reason now...

First Day Of Gym...

Not impressed or entertaining... I am unsure if the guy that I'm supposed to meet when I reached there will guide or have a PT for me throughout my workout day but he is not there... So I ended up running on the threadmill for like 30 minutes, wasted 30 minutes of my time in the locker to change from my workout attire to swimming attire, swam for like 30 minutes and that's it... No strength workout at all... Totally no... I am a noob and I don't know how to start... No friends... No tutor... Nobody... Nope...



Waiting for the next gym session... Not sure to look forward to it or not...

Am I Ready???

I am a total noob in gym... I am still unsure what else I should bring and if the things I wear will be ok... It makes me feels weird when someone stare at me... That discomfort feeling somehow haunts me... The worst part is I spent almost RM500 just for my gym attires... Wow... I guess I will just have to give it a start...



My life seems to be getting stresser and I need to do something extra to release it...

House - Solved!!!

I already found a house... At last... For real... The only downside of this project I am looking forward to is far away... Other than that, balcony, parking, swimming pool, these are all covered and most important of them all, affordable... I am not eager to have a big house (landed properties) because I knew I won't be able to afford it unless I sold one of my house (which I never have one to begin with)... In the end, I am quite satisfied because I don't really have a choice... I had accepted the reality :)

Now... Moving on with my life... The next thing I am going to try out: Gym... Really never expect myself to venture into this but my desire to bulk up myself starts to kick in... For health or good looking purposes, it won't hurt to give it a try right since it will be free for a month... What outcome it will be is not the main concern here... What's important is will I be comfortable with it or not...

Ok time to sleep... Too exhausted lately =.=

Oyasumi~~~

What If...

Someone that can afford something and able to utilise/enjoy it is considered fortunate... So if I have something but unable to utilise/enjoy it, does that consider a waste of money??? What if the reason that I am not able to enjoy it was legit enough, am I still wasting my money??? This feeling of incompleteness has been haunting me for quite some time... I really do not know how to express it out cause I think that I am the only one who has this problem and nobody else does... Even if I describe the situation in detail, I can assure that not many people will understand it besides me... To be frank, the only solution for this issue of mine is to have my own space of privacy, with a TV and that's it... It is just this simple...

Having a migraine since this morning... Not a good day for me...

Bobby Bag!!!

Can't wait for September as my Bobby bag will arrive around that time... This will be my very first bag that I am buying for myself... Not sure how much I will love it but so far, the exterior design looks good enough for me... All I can do is wait for the day where the bag will be delivered to me and then I will only decide how good it will be ahahaha...



I am still hunting for a house...

Twist & Turn...

For the past 2 weeks, I was in sheer disappointment, excitement, worry with a pinch of happiness, sorrow and sadness... Never felt this sudden surge of emotions before... I really got lost within the emotions and I just do not know how to handle it... I was deeply unhappy when I can't buy what I want but at the same time, it was acceptable cause I knew I won't be able to afford it to begin with... In fact, now I am on a full time hunting of houses below 400k... To be frank, I could have bought Ascotte Boulevard 2 years ago if my parents did not stop me from doing it and this still hurts me a lot... Surprisingly, after 2 years they are still selling at the same price... I still love it and I will buy it if they have my desired unit view... Else, I should just opt for the newer one...

I have so much to type but I am damn tired and sleepy while typing this post... At least I cover the main point that I would like to convey for this post...



Sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep~~~

How Should It Be???

I was supposed to sleep but I need to post this blog before I hug my bed... Things were rough last week and I did lie to my mom that I was not disappointed... The truth is, it was something I have expected and I should just deal with it and forget about it... However things were keep changing... Now, the agent recommends me another way to get the loan secured and this is just... You know... Will I get disappointed even more if I fail again???

What I am trying to express is the chances for me to get the loan keeps emerging and it tends to not giving me a break from thinking about it... I do like that house a lot but I just can't get it out of my head even though I know I won't get the loan for it as of now... In other words, I will be bugged by this thing for the next few months... I really do not know if I should pursue this loan but since the agent says that she can reserve this very unit for another few months, why not??? Lolz...

I felt bad at the same time for involving other people into this... I felt selfish just because I am involvong someone for my own benefit only... To be frank I have no hard feelings if thr person involved disagree to help me on this because I knew it will be a trouble for them as well...

Nevertheless, it will only take a few months... Shouldn't be long and we shall see what is going to happen for the next few months...



I really don't know what I can do for now...

And Once Again...

The hype that I have built over something for the first time will always succumb in disappointment... I guess that is what my life was born to be... It will NEVER be a happy thing for me... This feeling is exactly like my first time applying for Unifi... The things that I've always wanted will not be real for the first time... Now I have totally lost my motivation... Hopefully I will be healed by next week... I just feel that good things will never come to me when I really need/want it... And this concludes that being positive doesn't really helps...


Disappointment at its finest...

Plan B...

I must stay strong... One of the bank (there are still other 2 banks pending) did mention that it is quite difficult if I am applying alone and this is where plan B comes in... I can still get it by having 2nd person to apply the loan together... However, deep inside my heart, I do not really want to trouble anyone else on this... Unless I am too eager to buy this house, then I really have no choice but to ask someone for help... The only reason I like about this house because it will be ready by end of this year including the rebates as extra cash for me to get my furniture and appliances... Not many project do things like this...

Right now, I can only hope for the other 2 banks to approve my loan without asking me to share with someone else... I prefer to bare the cost more alone than having 2nd person to share... I really dislike troubling other people on this... Like seriously...

Please be trouble free please...

Smell of Disappointment...

I told myself that it would be fine even if I am disappointed as expected... But it doesn't... I am suffering and seems to be depressed... I'm not sure why... All I just hope for is to have the loan pass and that's all without the need to trouble anyone else... I knew I will have this feeling of regret buying the car if my house loan got rejected due to this commitment... Maybe for this time, I hope for a miracle even though I am being selfish for once...



Please...

At Long Last!!! But Not Yet!!!

At long last, I have found a house that I MIGHT be able to afford... Actually, the chances to get the loan is still not so high but some good vibes telling me that everything will be alright... It seems difficult but at the same time, not impossible... All I need is some luck and faith lolz... I told myself, if I really able to get a loan for this house, it was pure luck...

What I like about this project is because it is going to complete soon and at the same time, they still have the rebates/discounts for late buyers... The more important thing is, I don't need to pay anything at all besides the booking fee and eventually, I can get some cashback (in terms of monetary) which I can use to buy furnitures or maybe renovate some part of the house to look better... I guess this is a plus point from the rebates... Since the developer provides nice looking tiles, I don't need to spend anything for the tiles in this term... With the money, I can do quite a few things... Like seriously I will really think over what to do with the money merely for the house... Lol...

In the end, is all about my luck... Whether I get it is all depends on luck... Just be positive and everything will be fine... Positive :)

To be frank, if being positive all the time really helps me to buy this house, I will never ever be depressed anymore AHAHAHAHA!!!

Surprisingly...

I was expecting my first incentive would be above 700 (the normal rate as they said) and below 1000 (inclusive of compensation of my bonus)... However, a big turn of event when my boss shows me my pay slip and telling me that I will be getting 1.4k for 2 months... I mean whattttt??? I really never see that coming... Obviously I am happy... It was more than what I expected... And with this amount, I don't think I will have any trouble buying the house I want now for real...

Not gonna boast about my incentive anymore but my key point here is that feeling you have when you get more than what you expected...

Even if I get 700 I am happy enough because the pay is still better than my previous company... Couldn't complain much though lol...

April...

This end month is the month I've been waiting for... It determines whether I am able to buy my own house... I feel anxious and nervous more than excited because my boss told me that he will compensate the bonus I have gave up in my previous company to join this new company... Basically, to compensate my bonuses, the incentive I will be getting should not be lower than what I expected... Hence, I am really worried that my expectation fails me now... Should I have a high hope of my expectation or I should just let it go??? To be frank, I need the money to clear my credit card debts off as soon as possible since it affects my chances to obtain a loan... All I can do as of now is move on with what I have... I even have to sacrifice my vacations for this :'(



Adult's life...

First Time Ever...

This is my first time buying and using perfume (although it is a Eau de Toillete) which I never really did before all this time... Took a free sample and kinda like the fragrance from Davidoff Cool Water... Not sure how many people in Malaysia is using it but I do like this fragrance a lot (they say it was the best seller after all :|)...

The simplicity fragrance from Davidoff Cool Water is what attracted me the most... It is not heavy, not weird and most important of all, relaxing to smell due to the existence of lavender... It gives me peace when I put it on and it somehow gave me a huge confidence boost in my daily life... Never expect it to have such a huge impact by putting on perfumes o.O... I wanted to say that this perfume does not last long but so far I only tried splashing a small amount of the perfume from the sample... Just bought the bottle and never tried spraying on myself before... Perhaps it will last longer if I spray it instead of splashing it from the sample???

I got another sample which is Davidoff Champion... Not sure how does it smells like but I should give it a try someday... As for the roadshow, they were promoting Davidoff Horizon which is their newest product... The smell was OK generally but it did smell slightly unpleasant when mixed with my sweat... Could the smell came from the someone walking pass by me??? I really could not recall that part...

When I do research on perfume, I just notice there are so many things to learn from perfume itself... From choosing to keeping are meant to be a knowledge for perfume users... And thus, I have further enrich my knowledge in my life :)

Should I consider this as another achievement??? LOL...

Learning To Use Perfume/Cologne...

I guess is a little bit late for me to learn how to buy and apply perfumes or cologne at the age of 26... I was not exposed to the lifestyle where I get to keep some privacy in my life... Applying pefume is normal among men and most of my friends does it... To be frank I do not have a very bad body odor that leads me to apply perfume but I will definitely need it even just a little to ensure some confidents for myself... It will be difficult if the perfume comes with a sprayer I have to say... Or basically I can remove the nozzle and it function like a normal bottle??? Still more things to learn here...

What's important right now is to discover the right fragrance for me...



I like fruity aroma like peach lolz...

3 Months...

Surprisingly, it has been 3 months working in this new company... Previously I was worried and afraid that I could not cope with what's going to happen on a new environment... Now, it just felt almost the same as my previous company... I wonder if all these feelings will be the same whenever I changed to a new job??? I am still unsure what will happen in the next few months as I will be busy rushing to get the jobs done but at least I enjoy what I did so far...

Well, the only downside so far: Bored and lonely cause I do not have my own lunch group now :(



My next blog update should be my review for Perfume's COSMIC EXPLORER album :D

Deep Thoughts...

During lunch, my boss told me this:

When you are still young, travel as much as you can...

And the next thing that comes to my mind is:

I absolutely agree. Provided that you have the money to travel to the places you love.

There is a long list of places I would love to travel... From Sipadan to Koh Lipe and as I said, not said but more like a promise to myself that if I am rich in the future, I will go Bimini again for a vacation... I mean who doesn't want to go for a vacation??? I may be a introvert but it doesn't mean I don't like travelling... I love to play games but it doesn't mean I dislike going outside...

In fact, I would really love to try skydiving and surfing as well... Climbing mountains may not be in my list but I guess I should give it a try as well... Bungee jumping or zip-lining (aka flying fox) is in my list too... I absolutely understand the true meaning of enjoying your life or at least try those things you want before you die... Unfortunately, all these enjoyment ended revolves around money... Perhaps when I get older, I will get a chance to try all of it... Perhaps :)

If a human lives long enough without achieving his/her goals and dreams, what is the meaning of life then???

I Need A Vacation...

Somehow when I start to feel depress, the first thing that comes to my mind is vacation (second to it will be eating good food lolz!)... I will tend to think of something new to try during vacation and this time, it is spa... Found an awesome place to try out spa and it even gives out some free vouchers or some sort of membership card which entitle us for some discounts on dining etc etc... Really tempted in giving it a try... Perhaps I should pamper myself for this month from all the despression that I have been through lately...

When I succumb myself into depression, things just doesn't feel happier than it seems... Thus, I will do anything that makes me happy even if I need to spend a lot on it... And eventually, this takes away my dream of owning a house further...

The truth is, I am no longer capable in buying a house as of now... Might as well give up on this first so that I can prioritise on buying things that makes me happier and less depressive...

Ray Of Light And Hope...

Went to view a house this evening... The result was slightly disappointing but the offer they giving is attractive enough... Imagine if they only requires you to pay 5.5k while they will cover the rest of the 10% downpayment, that will mean a lot to people like me... For example, if the house costs 500k, the downpayment will be 50k - 5.5k = 44.5k and this 44.5k is the amount I do not need to fork out... Hence, just by paying 5.5k and getting a 450k loan from the bank, I can own this house... It was totally a good offer I would say but unfortunately, the cost of the house was not desirable even with this offer given... Another thing I dislike is the toilet facing a room...

It will be a long story if I type everything out... I shall leave this to another day lolz...



Time to catch some sleep... Good night world and I failed to play Tales of Zestiria again this weekend =.=

Blogging From The Toilet...

It feels weird to blog while I'm doing my business in the toilet... This would be my first time and maybe the last time doing it but I am doing this right now because I am trying very hard to waste some time in my office... No major projects, nothing to rush and no supports to follow up will always be a sign of peacefulness for me...

Hence, just publishing this post to fill up my blog xD



Man I am not sick lolz...

Does Getting Married Matters???

Around this age, you will tend to see your friends or cousins within same age group getting married... Well... It does not affects me at all as I am personally not ready and committed for one... Don't even talk about getting married, I am still single now =.=

So now the questions: Is it necessary to get married??? What is the different between getting married and not??? The one and only reason that I can think of about getting married is for offsprings... I mean, you don't simply impregnate a random girl just because you want your kids right??? In this society, even if you do, you are required to marry the girl that is pregnant... In the end, you are getting married just because of the offspring...

Some says that when you get old, at least someone will accompany you, or maybe your kids besides having your wife... But I feel that if we take good care of ourselves when we get older, it won't be any issue to continue living... This type of feeling is tough to describe... I guess people like me will only understands lol...

Too lazy to type this long... Time to sum up my blog for today...



Too busy with my life... Hence, lesser time to blog... What's important is I am happy with my current life :)

The Hunt Is On...

Felt more confident in finding a house that I want... Not for now but maybe in another 2 months... That's where I can see my real income and I really hope that nothing bad will happen from there onwards...

I really need to like hold on just for another 2 months... It sounds tough but at the same time, I must do it in order to achieve what I want... This year will be a good year for me to start and that is what I am aiming towards...

Oh by the way, April itself is the month I am eagerly waiting for... Utada's new single and Perfume's COSMIC EXPLORER album... One heck of a month that I can't wait :)



LET''S DO THIS!!!

And The Holiday Ends...

It was all fun, happy and pure excitement during CNY because we will be having a long holiday... However, it tend to end one day and that would be today for me... Not gonna be sad because of the holiday but thinking about my work... Guess that is the life of being an adult??? Being troubled by work every day and it doesn't sounds right at all...

To be frank, I am not happy with the new company due to:
1. Not many people which I can talk with... The boss himself is self-centered workaholic which is not so suitable for me...
2. Constant pressure of works... Though this is absolutely normal but not normal when your boss is the type of person which constantly cares about the results of the work and not about their feelings...
3. The office environment is all about work... Never feel the atmosphere of the office to be "fun to work in"...

However, there is one thing that drives me to be happy:
1. Bunch of things for me to learn!!!
2. Well... Pay of course...

And I don't think I will stay in this company longer than 2 years lol...



HUATTT AHHHH~~~ Holiday ended doesn't mean CNY has ended!!! xD

Dong Dong Chiang!!!

Well is another year now... Another year for Chinese calendar... Hence, I would like to wish everyone  a healthy and wealthy year ahead :)



GONG XI FA CAI~~~ HUATTT AHHHHHH~~~~~~

Life About Friends...

As I grew older, I notice that I am being more selective with friends... I couldn't deny the fact that the friends that I used to hang out with turns out to be a group of friends that I reluctant to get close to anymore... Here are some stories to it:

The first group: My other group of high school friends (I have 2 groups of high school friend... Luckily, there is a group which I am still close with)... They are my group of intelligent, active, and rich group of friends... Putting wealth aside, this first group are the extrovert type of group I would say but I was very close with them maybe because we get along well... I might be the only introvert in this group but I don't see any problems hanging out with them... Eventually, I stopped hanging out with them is because they joined another group of friends which is from the same high school but I am not close with... Though I know the other group of people but I am not fond with joining them (I do dislike few people from the other group to be frank)... In fact when they hang out together, I was not invited most of the time so it turns out that this group becomes their group rather than our group... And slowly, I was no longer be part of their group...

The second group: My university group of friends... Although we still have an active group chat, but things were not as fun as how it used to be... We were enjoying WoW during that time... Played Dragonica together and even DotA together almost every week... Eventually my outing with them deteriorates because I felt that everytime when I go out with them, I will just sit alone by myself while they talk about their things which I don't even understand... Is like the group that I used to talk about games turns out to be entirely a different group which I have no place to join in their conversation and this gives me the discomfort... I don't hate them and I still discuss with them through the group... However, going out with them is already not an option for me since they rarely invite me when there is an outing...

The last group: This is not a group but more to an individual... This ex-colleague of mine which I thought I was close enough with him during the early days turns out to be the most disappointing friendship that I have ever been through... First of all, he did something unforgivable where he lied about his availability when I invited him to go out... If he told me that he was not free, I am still OK with it until I see those pictures of him... He told me that he was too lazy to go out when I invited him but the next few hours he appeared at somewhere??? This was the first time and I just let it slip... Then, the second time happens... Invited him for breakfast together since Friday but he decline and he is the one that suggested Monday instead... OK fine so as Monday comes, he told me that he can't wake up on time and say that he could not make it so I suggest Tuesday... If he is the type of person that appreciate my friendship, I believe at least he will try his best to make it for the next day but the truth is nope... He still gave me the same reason, unable to wake up on time... If I honor this friendship, I will sleep earlier just to meet up with that person the next morning, considering it as a once in a while meet up... However, if you declined my intentions like this, please remember that you will never ever get invited from me again forever... Unless you ask for it then I will reconsider... And that's all for today...

Wow what a long story I just wrote... I guess I have reached a new milestone of blogging lol... Gotta sleep now as I need to be in top notch condition for CNY...



Can't wait for CNY :)

Tough Thug Life...

Frantically I have to say that my new working environment was not as cheerful as how it used to be... There are not many people which I can talk a lot with like what I did in previous company... Workload wise was fine, but the only lacking point is dullness in the office... If my new company have more talkative group of person which does not talk about work only, then it will be great... My senior which I feel most comfortable with no longer accompanies me through my tenure in this new company... Hopefully the other senior will be able to compensate a little... My boss??? He never talks to me a lot and so do I because I completely feels that he is a serious workaholic... All he talks about is work and this is the reason that I could not communicate much with him... I hate talking about work during lunch!!! Conclusion, I can hardly find crazy people to blabber crazy things like my ex-colleagues...


Whatever my life move towards to, all I can do right now is improve and accel myself to the point which I think I can rebuild my self confidence again...



Just smile and wave...

Dull Life...

I start to feel my dull routine life is back on line... All I ever think of is work, eat, play, sleep and nothing much for me to do... I may hang out with my friends once or twice a month but I feel like I need more of it now... To be frank, I have a lot of entertainment in my life provided that I have my own house... During the weekend, if I have my own house, I can invite friends over to my house... And we can play mahjong, PS4, PC, or even board games if they want to... Or when I just feel like being alone for that weekend, I can stay in my house playing my favourite PS4 games... When I compare my entertainment life in my own house with my current house, I can see a huge gap between it... As time goes by, I kept thinking when will I get my own house... The feeling of freedom seems to grow wildly in me right now...



I do not want to be super rich... Just enough to sustain my living and get what I want at the minimal level is good enough to keep myself happy...

Never Mess With An Introvert...

Seriously... A warning to everyone out there... Never ever mess or make a fool out of an introvert by saying things like "You need to learn how to socialise and not being anti-social"... I, personally an introvert myself never find phrases like that amusing, especially coming out from an extrovert's mouth... Do keep in mind... Never ever assume that an introvert never socialise or think that they are an anti-social freak... An introvert doesn't mind losing a person in their life if they are not worth being one, even if it is family... Please remember that introverts chooses his/her friends by their own will and not by force...

As for other introverts that get what I mean, give me a high five!!!



I am fucking sleepy and tired right now...

Happy New Year 2016!!!

Well... This is the only time I can blog from my room and hence, I am few hours late... Still, is never too late to wish everyone

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

What else I can say about new year??? Just another year that is lol...