Wesak Day!!!

So happy that tomorrow is a public holiday... I should have took 2 days off (Thursday & Friday) so I can get another long weekend but due to my tight deadlines, I am only able to take 1 day instead... Anyway, there are still a lot of holidays that falls on Tuesday or Thursday xD

Recently, due to my work, I can feel that my body is getting weaker... I was feeling unwell (not fever thank God) quite frequently since then and I know it is impacting my health in so many ways... Besides of physically weak, I was facing some mental breakdown for a period of time but I am slightly better now... Not sure how long I can keep this composure because it has been going on and off... I have to remind myself that I am just doing what I am capable of, and don't give any fuck to what other people say as long as I do my job well... This is all I can do for now...

Currently my body is screaming for gym so badly... For some reason, home cardio workout does not gives me the satisfaction at all... I don't feel as motivated as I used to be in doing home cardio workout nowadays... In fact, I am craving for weighted workouts... It feels like my body wants to hold weight rather than doing cardio... Probably I should consider finding some weights so I can do my workouts at home whenever I want... And yes... I hate my condo for shutting down the gym... Fuck you!!!

FUCK I WANT TO GYM SO BADLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BL Dramas...

During my long holiday last week, I binge watch a lot of BL dramas... For some reason, whatever happens in the drama will very unlikely to happen in reality... That feeling you can see or feel in the drama is just something that close to impossible in reality... Not sure how to put it but ya, I finally understand why so many people  (both male and female) love watching BL dramas now... To me, apart from romantic scenes, bed scenes with 2 guys (shirtless) is a compulsory element in BL dramas... It does spice up and elevate the drama to a different level... OK I better stop here or else I am getting hornier by thinking of it lol...

Whatever I watched and felt from a BL drama is definitely something what every guy wants to experience... The most recent BL drama I watched is called "Because of You" and one of the main male lead cast is a Korean acting in a Taiwan BL drama...

Too bad I'm not an actor else I can have a chance to act in a BL drama with hot guys like them HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!

MCO3.0!!!

Well basically Malaysia is undergoing 3rd Movement Control Order and all gyms are not allowed to operate for a month... Therefore, this is the only time where I will do home workout and it will only consist of cardio workouts since I do not own any weights... As I have mentioned previously, it took me some time to gain weight but it seems like I will be losing it again :')

Why is it so difficult to hit my goal :')

Why MCO WHYYYY!?!?!?

Updates #9342569275

OK just a random update post about myself... Here it goes...

I've been hunger, or perhaps deprived of sex as I did not engage in any of it for almost 2 months (or more)... Therefore, I've been eagerly seeking for one but as usual, no luck in getting any... So all I can say is go with the flow...

Apart from that, I've been very busy with my work... So far so good (not as bad as previously) but I still tend to have the thoughts of quitting this project... The only possible way for me to quit the project now is by resigning which I really can't afford to lose this job... I've been hunted by some job headhunters and they approached me with some job opportunities... However, none of them really interest me and I felt uncomfortable working in financial related stuff for now... I was trying to look for more interesting stuff (in IT field as well) and hopefully, I can find one as soon as possible before my current project starts to kill me :')

As for my physique, it seems like my chest is building up quite well... I can clearly see some improvement on my inner-chest and that actually excites me lol... On top of that, my deltoid is shaping up as well, making my shoulder looks more muscular... What surprises me the most is that I managed to gained my weight back from 65kg to 68kg... Given that my targeted weight is 70kg, it seems like I am getting closer to it more... Overall, my upper body part looks more fit and sadly to say, I still have a long way to go for my lower body (abs and leg)... For my arms, I don't see any improvements yet for now... In the end, I am quite satisfied with how my body is growing right now...

Talking back about this pandemic, Malaysia will be undergoing its 3rd Movement Control Order... The only thing that affects me from this MCO is basically the closure of gym... Luckily my condo's gym is still operating else I will be screaming...

That's all for today... Hopefully my next post will be a pictured post >.<

I don't feel motivated to work at all lolololol...