Devastated...

Continue with the story about the guy last week... He left me a message on Saturday midnight (I was asleep and read it the next morning), saying that he doesn't want to give me hope to progress our relationship... The reason he gave was because he is seeing another person already... The moment I read it, I have so many questions about his personality... I wanted to throw him thousands of questions but the fact that he never even reply my 1 question that I sent since last Sunday, there is no point for me to further pursue the answer... Here are the questions that I wanted to ask him, maybe will or never:

1. If you are seeing someone already, why do you bother staying at my place for a night???

2. Why do you bother being so extremely nice to me on our first day of meeting by buying me snacks and fruits???
3. Why you bother being so affectionate with me when we are together???

4. Why you bother being so physically intimate with me when we are together???
5. Why did you kiss me after I fetched you back home???

Whatever that had happened between us, it meant so much and real to me... But at one point, I recall you telling me that not to miss you before you walk away and I should have realise that hint...

I'm not sure if he is being honest with seeing someone, but I would prefer if he lied to me by saying he don't felt the chemistry with me, which would have hurt lesser to me... I have yet to seek the truth out of him but if I have the chance, I will when time comes... But will I ever see him again??? The answer would be a definitely no cause it gave me sleepless nights and heartbreaks...

Falling in love this easily is definitely not a good thing :'(

Uncertainty...

OK I have a story which kinda saddened me a little... To keep it short, this is what had happened...

So I chat with this guy 2 weeks ago and things were going well... We decided to add each other Telegram and continue our conversation until I request for a meetup... Since he has the same personality as me, he prefer to meet me up following week as he say he wasn't ready... I agreed to it and we eventually meet up on the agreed date and he stayed over for a night at my place... Everything was great and to me, I really felt so much feelings with him around... He brought so many stuff for me even just for one night visit... Until the next night, after our dinner, I fetched him back and it felt so surreal to have someone that I dearly love...

This feeling changes after the following day... He rarely reply messaged as he used to be... Although he does reply later on with an apology, the feeling just hits differently... We never failed to wish each other good morning and good night everyday before we met but since then, he never wish me back... Then as of today, I understand he was busy trying to pack and preparing himself for a trip tomorrow... Hence, I tried to ask him to meet up for dinner because I just want to see him once again before he go for a long holiday but he declined... Like I said, I am not disappointed, just that I felt a little uncomfortable with this feelings of mine hanging at the edge... Am I overthinking??? What is this feeling??? What am I supposed to do??? Did I gave myself too much hope for this love to grow???

Should I keep going on with this or give it up???