Facial Skincare Routine...

Now I understand why Korean guys have such good face skin... They really took the time and money to buy those products that are suitable for them in order to achieve the good outcome... I mean, probably in other country, men doing facial skincare makes them less manly but when it comes to Korea, even the manliest man can have good looking skin for their face as in they don't look less manly with fair, clean, bright looking face...

Anyway, I really enjoy staying alone more and more after my Genting trip... Maybe because I don't get to enjoy it most of the time, when the time comes, I really enjoy it... The fact that most early 20s guys get to enjoy living alone or having their own room which I do not have such luxury until my 30, could be the thing that drives me wanting more to live alone... This is how I want my life to be...



Even if I do not have money to renovate my entire home, I will still move in first...

My Solo Day!!!

(First time masking xD)

Yes... Finally I am all alone and do what I want to do without worrying anybody judging me lolz... Not to say judge but I just want to have this type of me and myself moment where I can do anything I love (no worries not gonna do illegal things)...

Next pic might be a little too much but I took this pic is just for a purpose of references for myself in the future:

Frankly speaking, I wish I am a little bit sexier lolz... But it does tell me that I used to be not fat... Gotta workout hard!!!

Weeeeeeeee~~~

Well...

As expected... Nothing good will ever happen to me most of the time... Gotta accept the fate that I have for the rest of my life... I am sulking and partially depressed but at the same time, I am always prepared for such things... Perhaps, my life would be better if I do not have high expectation of what I'm looking forward to... That's just how sad my life is lolz...

If there is something that I can change in my life, that would be my fragile heart...



If there is something that I wish for, that would be anything which will never make me depress...

Trying Something New...

For my facial skin care routine, all I ever did was cleansing it with some face cleaner and nothing else after that... However, I notice that the pores on my face becoming more visible and this somehow tells me that I should be changing my face cleaner... Without a doubt, I tried to do some research on the web and I ended up with 2 products, Origins from the US and Innisfree from Korea... I've picked Innisfree since cosmetic products from Korea are more trustable and because I am newbie in this skin care routine, I tried to pick something that is easier for me to apply... As recommended, I bought these 3 things:

1. A face cleanser

2. A toner

3. An all-in-one essence

I tried it for the first time and it does seems to be easy to deal with it... No fuss, just cleanse my face and leave the shower, wipe it dry, apply toner and the essence finally... Simple... I can't say much about the improvement it have on my face right now yet, but it looks promising so far as I notice smaller pores on my face and brighter complexion out of it...

Eventually, for a full facial skin care routine, there are 2 more steps that I did not perform yet which are:

1. Exfoliate

2. Moisturise

Exfoliation is a once or twice per week thing while moisturisers is a daily thing which should be done lastly after applying essence... However, I did not buy any exfoliating and moisturisers products BUT I do have some free free gifts that are able to exfoliate and moisturises as well, which I can use it if I wanted to for a few times... Guess I should give it a try since it will be wasted if I'm not using it right??? Lol...

Honestly speaking, I am still a completely newbie in this field and I will try my best to learn more along the way... The biggest struggle that I am facing now after I started my facial skin care routine is I can barely scratch my face when it is itchy lolz....

It is so much fun finding something new to do once in a while lolz...

Tell Me...

I have this bad omen, something bad is going to happen... I always believe of the curse that I have... The curse where every first good thing will never happen, and it tends to be miserable... So miserable that it will eventually leads me to depression... However, I told myself that this is a norm and I should just move on with my life... But this, I don't think I can ever get it through that easily... I really do not know what he is thinking about, and at the same time, have I done something that he dislikes... Indeed, I hinted way too much about how much I love him all these while but could it be possible that he find me being too clingy or something??? I am so desperate for an answer from him but I am afraid it will further destroy our friendship... After that message, he never even read or reply my question which makes me felt that he is starting to avoid me... I understand that we just met twice and if he found me annoying, I really really really hope he will tell me directly rather than ignoring me completely...

Ok... Again I am being selfish this time but I really really really hope that our Genting trip is not going to be cancelled due to anything bad between us... That's all I am asking for dear God... As long as I get to be with him just for that night, I will be extraordinary happy... Yes I do...



Please...

Why???

Met him again last Friday night... To me, it is definitely a not so favourable night, not sure who is to be blamed as there are too many people involved out of the sudden... This is basically what happens:

1. As usual. Things goes well on the first half hour. We had a minor fun in shower.
2. We move on to the room. Hope that we both can have a good time.
3. Situation changed. He wanted to try threesome. I agreed cause I am willing to do anything just for him.
4. Went out to find someone. Frankly speaking, nobody really caught my attention because I only have my eyes set on him.
5. Found someone. Good looking but not hot. I am OK with him since I asked him to pick anyone he wants.
6. Threesome ended badly. He did not enjoy much, and I felt worst not because I did not get to enjoy but the 3rd guy used 2 of my condoms and nobody enjoy. Not awkward though.
7. Get along with him, and became friends, went for dinner together.
8. Met a friend of 3rd guy since we were OK for him to invite his friend together for dinner.
9. Known each other quite well, and went back home.
10. Once I reached home, I personally message him and ask what does he think about 3rd guy ask if we are couple. He say the truth is we aren't. I accept that. Then I ask him directly if he ever thought about we both as a couple, he replied no.

Ok based on the story above, yes I am glad that I met the 2 new guys (the 3rd guy treated us for dinner so I can forgive him on the condom) but overall, it was quite an unfavourable event or day for me. I am completely lost on what he thinks about me right now.



I really love him a lot actually. Not because of the fun we had but because of the person he is. Just that I am not sure what he thinks about me right now.

How???

He acts hot and cold sometimes... It is extremely difficult for me to catch what he wants from me... I do message him once in a while so that I can see if he still has any interest on me... Well although we agreed to stay a night in Genting, but it is still far away and I'm really afraid that something not right might happen between us before the Genting trip (touch wood)... If I ever confess to him and he accepts it, will it be different from how it looks or feels like now??? The thing is, we will be only meeting for not even 5 times and if I confess to him on Genting, will he able to accept it??? There are so many uncertainties that makes me ponder more than ever... The more I think about it, the more further I felt from being with each other...

Ok... I gotta think of doing something with him after dinner... That's it...

Action is louder than words!!!

27th April 2019...

It feels so far away... The day where we will spend a night together... There are so many thoughts in my mind right now... I am so happy, anxious, excited, and any emotions that can fills it in... I've been waiting for this moment since that day we met... The fact that we can't go Bangkok together, this trip will be an important one for me... I thought of so many things that we both can do... Honestly speaking, I prefer that we both can go on Bangkok trip together rather than a 1 night stay trip...

The more I would like to meet him, the more difficult time passes by...



Don't stray too far away from me T_T

Near Yet Far...

Will be meeting him this week, but it would be on Friday... Feels so close yet so far... Can't wait to see him again, the one and only person that is willing to meet me again when I asked for another meet up... Usually others will ignore me after our first meet up but I understand very clearly that they found out that they are not fond of me so it is fine... I did the same thing so I could not blame them at all... But him, the very first guy that really fond of me as much as I fond of him which I never experience before... I can definitely smell love between us... And I really hope it does :)

Right now, I need to keep myself cool and not overthinking too much by looping Kill This Love... I have to stay cool and chill until we meet up on Friday night... So torturing...



Dear Brain, you can do it!!!

RAMPAPAMPAPAMPAPAM!!!

Ok... I'm dead... This song is fucking awesome... I have to say even better than Ddu Du Ddu Du... Going to loop this for as long as I can!!!

Over Obsessive...

I do have this mental complexity where if I fall for someone, I will never stop thinking about that person... I have the tendency to ask a million questions so that I could know that person more... However, in this case, I felt completely like a creep, an over obsessive person that wants to know every single thing the person is doing at this moment... The more that person replies to my questions, the more I wanted to ask... It is very difficult for me to stop because in my mind, all I ever thought of was I wanted to know this person more deeply... I can easily have emotional crash if we failed to meet on an appointed date... That's when my mind will ask me if that person is trying to avoid me or that person finds me annoying or something... I just can't get these things sorted out accordingly by myself... Of course, I still know how to interpret based on their reply whether they are interested with me... Once I got the message, I will eventually understand and stop communicating completely...

I really have so much things going on in my mind... It's like a battlefield... What am I supposed to do make that person feels comfortable and I do not being so obsessive at the same time???



Douyatte?!?!?!

Last Friday Night!!!

Ok I have to write out this story of mine... There is no fucking way I won't record this moment in my blog...



(WARNING: NSFW)



I've decided to meet up with a guy that I met from the forum. I added him on WeChat, had a conversation for a day, exchange some pictures of ours and plan for a meetup on Friday night (there was quite a long story before this but I'll skip it straight to the best part). Before we even met, I was already impressed by how his look and sexiness. No doubt, I told myself, that I like him a lot. Usually, Friday night has the WORST traffic but that night, it was seriously a miracle. The traffic was completely smooth as hell (and for him too) and that was the very first time I had such smooth driving on a Friday night. Hence, both of us reached the sauna downstairs, we met and we went up together. At the counter, we paid the entrance fee, head over to the dressing area, undress, grab a drink and we go for our shower together. This is how the story starts.

As we enter the shower area, it was completely empty. Nobody around, just the 2 of us in the shower area. As we take off our towel and hang it up, we move to the shower (an open shower) and wash ourselves up. At this point, we did not engage in anything. One reason is I did not initiate anything cause I really do not want to scared him the moment we met. Plus, he was very shy because he kept avoiding long eye contact with me every time I look at him. I think that was fine as he looks cute by doing that. When we are almost complete, more people walks into the shower and have their eyes set on us. After a minute, he left the shower first, followed by me. I told him that I need to use the toilet and he patiently waited for me outside for a minute or two (thank you). Once I'm done, I invited him for jacuzzi together and he nod. There were 2 other guys in the jacuzzi. As we both unwrapped our towel and enter the jacuzzi, everyone in the jacuzzi was looking at us. Nothing scary nor weird though. We move to one corner, and seat separately. Basically during the jacuzzi, we just asked each other questions and nothing much involved. After a long moment of silence, I guess this is the time. I invited him to the steam room, he agreed and we left the jacuzzi in hope that we did not catch too much people's attention. We wrapped ourselves in towel, and move on to the next stop.

I opened the door to the steam room. As a gentleman, I had to hold the door for him since it was my habit. As we get right into the steam room, he automatically leads me to the section where it was considered a hidden spot of the steam room. We sat down closed to each other, gazed at each other for few seconds, and I make my first move. I gently move my lips toward his, kisses his sweet lips and we both starts to make out in no time. While we were kissing, we both pulled each other closer so that our body made a contact and it went on for a few minutes. At some point, I know that I have to spice things up. He told me before that his ears turns him on a lot. Therefore, after some kisses, I slide my lips all the way to his right ear and start licking his ear thoroughly. I can see that he loves it as he moan erotically. On top of licking his right ear, I nibbled his ear and kiss around his neck area as well to give him some new sensation. Once I'm done with the right side of his ears, I went on with the left side. Again, he moaned again as I was licking all over his ear. After playing with his ears, my dominant mode was activated. I slowly kiss and lick all the way down from his left ear to his chest, on his well defined pecs and straight for his nipple. He did mention that nipple was not his sensitive spot but I still wanted to savour his nipple. I suck his nipple while giving him handjob and after a minute, I slide my lips across to the other side of his chest. Now, it was the finale. I slowly kiss and lick from his nipple down towards his abs, and all the way to his dick. At that moment, his dick was hard enough for me to give him a good suck. Without hesitation, I slurp up his erected dick and give him a slow and gentle blowjob. No regret. I could not help to see and hear him moan while I sucking him while I caress all over his body with my hands. For a good few minutes, I was a little bit tired and decided to stand up to stretch myself. Eventually, he move his head over to my dick and this time, he return the favour while I was standing. While he was sucking me, I bend myself and kiss him all over his back and neck. It was a very arousing moment for me because I know there are people started to gather around the steam room just to see both of us from all the moans. As he was sucking me while I kisses his neck, I moaned close to his ears in hope that he loves my moaning as well. Not long after, I decided to sit down just to make out with him. At this point, my eyes were completely set only for him, ignoring everyone else. While we were making out passionately, a guy approached us and some of them gave us a blowjob. As I notice the crowd is getting more in that small steam room, now I invited him to the room. Things get hotter from now on.

We wrapped ourselves and leave the steam room. I told him that I need to grab my supplies before we get into the room together and of course, to grab some drinks as well. Without wasting any time, we move quickly into one of the room and locked the door. We removed our towel, hang it up, throw my supplies to the ground, and I immediately make out with him. It was such a pleasure to make out with him the whole time even without thinking of anything else. It just felt so peaceful when I'm with him. At one point, I took control over his hands and place it above his head with his armpit exposed. Given that he clean shaved his pits, I immediately lick and kiss his pits without hesitation as well. This was the very first time I enjoy pit licking. After a few minutes, I decided to ask him if he is ready and he said yes. So I put on my condom and give him some lube while I lube my condom up as well. As he was lubing up himself, I squeeze quite a generous amount of lube to my fingers and I started to finger him while I kiss him again. Surprisingly, he moaned when I fingered and kiss him at the same time, which I found it attractive.

On our first position: Cowboy. I lied down on my back instantly while having him ready to ride me. As I placed myself comfortably, I hold my dick up so he could fit his hole nicely into it. One thing I admire about him is he never flinched or complain about being in pain when he ride me. It was so smooth that he gets in instantly. Of course, I have to ask him if everything is OK. He replied yes. As a top, we need to ensure that our bottom is at their most comfortable state. As soon as he is set, we are ready to go. He moves up and down and I was doing my humping motion as well to ensure that my dick hits deep inside it. At the same time, I give him a handjob to heightened his senses. I won't say I am an experienced top and I thought he might not enjoy much from it. But things feel different when one thing happened, while he was riding me, he had orgasm from it, handsfree. That moment when he was enjoying and moaning while riding me and had his orgasm twice, he look so fucking hot. I speed myself up and hump him even faster so that it does not stop that momentum that he had that time. Unfortunately after the 2nd orgasm, he stopped having handsfree orgasm. I still let him ride me for another one good minute but I feel that he might be a little exhausted, hence I asked him to change to:

Our second position: Missionary. This time, he lies down and I will do all the job. In this position, it was not a favourable position for him since he can't feel the excitement much from it, as I started to get tired, we move on to:

Our third position: Doggy. By having him on his fours, I hump him from the back. Not a favourable position as well, then we get back to:

Our fourth position: Missionary. As we both starts to get exhausted, I want him to lie down while I do my best to pleasure him. On our fourth position, it was another hot moment because I was totally soaked with my own sweat at this point as if a water pipe was burst. My sweat keeps dripping down to his body while we are on our missionary position. I apologised for a few times about it but to my surprise, he actually love sweaty sex as much as I do. Therefore, I push myself as much as I could to get the job done at this point. Unfortunately, we still can't achieve what we want to. Then we move on to:

Our fifth position: Cowboy. The position where he enjoy the most. Probably due to exhaustion, we both do not have enough energy to push as hard as our first time, which results in no orgasm from him even though he ride me hard. Not long after, I can see that he is exhausted and I asked him to stopped. As he was riding me while I get into my sitting position (my dick is still in his), we both cuddle each other and make out for a short period while we try to get our breathe. Finally:

Our last position: Standing. While we both are standing, I asked him to bend a little with his hands on the wall for support and I penetrate him from the back. This position seems to be the second most favourable position for him because while we are on it, he requested me to do it faster and I found out that his dick was wet as well. Eventually, I hump myself to the max and I have to stop due to complete exhaustion.

We both were drenched from my sweat. We both enjoyed it. We both were completely exhausted. But we still have one thing left to be done. I ask him if he wants to cum now and he says that he wants me to cum on his face first. Of course. It is my honour to do so. Hence, I prepare myself to shoot out the load onto his face, while some ended up on his hair and the wall. Now is his turn, and he requested to shoot on my face as well. I agreed. While he was building up, I proceed to make out with him with my cum on his face. Not long later, he shot his load as well. It is a happy moment in my life with him. We wiped our face, wrapped ourselves up, picked up my supplies and we left the room. We went straight to the shower room to clean ourselves, get dressed at the locker room and the end.



This is seriously a long ass story. Hope you enjoy it :D

GG...

I'm pretty sure I am almost 90% falling for him, without a doubt... Compared to all the other people I've met, he is the one and only that agreed to meet me without having second thought after our first meeting, which I never experience before... To me, someone that agreed to meet up with me without second thought always give me a good impression...

Right now, I have so many thoughts in my head just about him... I'm trying very hard to shrug it off every night... Right now, what I really want is going to Bangkok with him, provided that he doesn't mind me joining since he prefer to travel alone... I will be very happy and honoured if he allows me >.<

There are so much questions I would like to ask him but I am afraid that I am being too clingy... Plus, I am not sure if he is the type of guy that loves being clingy or what yet but if he loves it, I can foresee we both can be a very good couple for real... Well, what I can do right now is slowly get to know him more and open myself up to him as well so he don't feel so shy with me... I want him to ask me things so badly... I want him to know more about me so badly... I want him to feel less intimidated around me... I want him to feel the sense of comfort and safeness beside me...

Honestly speaking, the memory that I had with him last Friday night, will forever remain as a precious memory to me... There is no way I can forget it... The more I recall back about him last Friday, the more perfect he fits as my ideal partner for life... I really have to list it out the good things about him:

1. He keep his body in good shape. I am completely allured by his body from the front to his back. He has that slender waist which makes me just wanted to hug him from behind and never let go.

2. He take good care of his face. Is rare to meet a guy that make sure they have least acne. I don't mind a little but too much is just something I can't withstand. It tells me that the guy did not put any effort on taking care of skin. So glad he is not one of them.

3. That charming face. Nothing could describe how cute and lovely he looks. For some reason, he does not look extremely good (neither do I) but he exert that miracle charm which I can't get my eyes off him. Until today, I am very regretful for not looking at him longer that night. Fucking stupid of me.

4. His shyness. I notice that he keeps avoiding eye contact with me, even there are times where I stare at him for a few good seconds, he will avoid it. I am OK with it probably because he don't feel very comfortable (hopefully in a good way) but he still looks darn cute when he looks away once he notices me looking at him HAHAHA!!! Cute little fella xD



Ok... Gotta end this post... Next post will be the full story of him and me in the sauna last Friday night... Be prepared for a NSFW post HAHAHAHA!!!

What should I do next???