Sunday, July 24, 2022

That Feeling...

It hits me differently this time. From all the love I had previously, this love felt so different to me. Not sure how to explain it but perhaps, a short story of how we met would be good enough to express the differences.

So we met each other from Tinder and as usual, we just matched and I initiated by greeting. Of course, he replied my message and I replied back with the usual "How is your day?". In his Tinder profile, he did include his IG handle and because I find him quite cute, I decided to try my luck by messaging him at IG in hope that he will give me back some quick responds. Luckily, he responded and we managed to keep in touch on Tuesday. For both Tuesday and Wednesday, we chatted quite a lot and we managed to know each other a little bit more. Initially, I have no intention to meet him cause first thing, he is from Vietnam (LDR concern) and secondly, how would someone as young as him interested with someone who is 11 years older for God sake. It just does not make sense if you ask me. However, something tells me that even if he have no interest on me, at least able to see him in person would be satisfying for me. Therefore, I decided to arrange a meet up with him.

His last day in KL was on Friday morning and I was thinking if I should meet him on Wednesday night since we had spent the entire Tuesday just to chat. Unfortunately, he went to visit Malacca on Wednesday and he decided to stay 1 night there and only will come back on Thursday. Provided that he will be flying back to Vietnam on Friday morning, this only left me with Thursday night to meet him up. And I told myself that probably this would be the first time and last time of me meeting up with him, I might as well just be the driver for the night for him by picking him up from the bus terminal, then to his hotel to check in, have a dinner together and call it a day for us. It was supposed to be this simple. And because he was travelling with another friend, I just hope he and his friend enjoy the trip with me.

As he reached the bus terminal, I guided him on how to look for me. But given that I park my car far away from where they could be at, I decided to go up and wait for them at the bridge. Because he posted something on his IG stories and I recognise what shirt he was wearing that day, I immediately recognise him as he walk towards the bridge. My first impression: Tall, Meaty, Neat. To me, neatness is always a must for me and he definitely have that quality. Since he is still wearing his mask, I do not manage to see his face real close at all. Then, I turn my attention to his friend and ask for his friend's name as well so that he was not left out. We were having some casual chats as usual all the way to my car. As we reached to my car, I help them to put their luggages at the back and set my GPS to their hotel. Because I never drove to and from the bus terminal in my entire life, I was solely focusing on my driving (and quite nervous that I even forgotten to turn on the car light) and barely able to respond much to him while I am driving. I felt bad in a way and I felt more comfortable the moment I dropped them down for check in at their hotel. While they were checking in, I try to find something to eat. You know, since I am already being their driver, might as be their tour guide for the night although I never do this to anyone in my entire life. I'm pretty sure I did badly and boring lol. Then we depart from the hotel and to the restaurant that I recommended.

Since this is their first time trying wantan mee, I recommend them the dry version as soup taste a little bit bland. His friend, which never managed to enjoy any food in KL since they arrive on Monday, finishes his plate of noodle from that restaurant. Even he says that the food was good which makes me feel glad that I did not recommend them the wrong food. After filling our tummy, we went back to our car and I was thinking that this would be a goodbye for us. On a side note, as I was too busy driving to their hotel, I never manage to take a good look on his face until we have our dinner at the restaurant. Two words for me: 'Fucking Cute' or 'My Type' is all I can say about him.

Given that he is an extrovert, he doesn't sleep early and have the tendency to go out till late night. While inside the car, thinking of fetching them back to their hotel, he suddenly ask me to suggest some place to go. Frankly speaking, I never expect this and given that I live in KL for so long, I never go out at night for a walk like this. Around that time, I will be playing games at my home or laying on my comfy bed. Being a complete introvert myself, I would be too lazy to go anywhere at that time (10pm) but being with him, I never feel tired at all. I was quite surprised myself that I was still feeling energetic late that night. We sat inside the car for like 10 minutes while I try to think where to go. It is definitely a challenge for me that night and I decided to bring them for a walk at Lalaport instead.

We walked and talked around and outside of Lalaport, then all the way to Times Square, Lot 10 and finally somewhere around Bukit Bintang. After all the walking, we went to buy some snacks and drinks, find a place to sit and enjoy the rest of the night together. To me, it wasn't boring because I get to spend my last night with him and around 12am, we decided to leave and we walk back from Bukit Bintang all the way to my car.

Here are some things that we did or he said that made me fall for him more (not in chronological order):

  1. We have quite a few physical contact, such as when we walk side by side, our arms will be touching each other frequently. And there was once where we were walking through a narrow passage, he put his hand on my shoulder while I was leading. Then there are times where I purposely put my hands on his shoulder and push him to walk
  2. There was once he was sweating so much, but I could not help myself by touching his sweaty arms and looking at his glistening forehead. Frankly speaking, if I have napkins with me, I would have wipe off some sweats off him. Nevertheless, he looks hotter when he is sweating lol
  3. When we were sitting and having our drinks, he accidentally spilled some water onto his pants, so right at his crotch and he was going to wipe it off while his phone hanging on the edge of his thigh. I actually did not know he wanted to wipe his pants as I only notice his phone was at the verge of falling down so I reach my hands out to hold onto his phone but he mistaken that I was trying to wipe his pants LOLOLOLOLOL
  4. We got 3 different drinks and he wanted to try mine, so we ended up having indirect kiss through the straws lol
  5. He complimented me that I look much bigger in person than in picture as he prefer bear and muscular guys. He even complimented me that I look good in button up shirt

Good thing always come to an end. I stopped by the road side near his hotel and this is the final goodbye for both us. I really enjoy the night and before he leave the car, I decided to take some pictures together. Unfortunately, my phone is not good with night photography and the pictures turns out bad but it is better than nothing. After pictures were taken, he and his friend left the car. As he was going to close the door of my car, he open it back and lean his face closer to me while asking me to come closer to him. To my surprise, which I never expect at all, he gave me a kiss on my face and he closes the door. I was quite speechless and at the same time, my heart did flutter a little when he did that out of the blue cause I thought he was not so interested with me at all. Hence, that was the last time I got to see his face.

Since that night, we are still keeping in touch until today and we do share our daily life. He even told me that he wanted to kiss me on the lips instead of my cheek that night but he somehow worries that his friend might see it HAHAHAHA

Ok. Based on this story, it somehow tells how different is it from the love I had previously. It feels like from a hopeless love slowly blooms into a fruitful one. Even though our feelings toward each other is still strong for now, but I can't say exactly that we are a couple until the day I visit him at Vietnam, and officially ask him to be my boyfriend. Looking forward to my Vietnam trip now :D



But first, I better renew my fucking passport ASAP lolz...

Friday, July 15, 2022

New Songs!!!

OK time to indulge myself with some good music again... Not sure why do I want to post it on this blog HAHAHAHA xD




Whenever TWICE releases their Japanese songs, it always feel so different than their Korean songs, in a good way I have to say... It feels more Japanesey in a sense which I like...

Well... Today is Friday... Can't wait for the weekend :)



Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~