OK this might sounds inappropriate but still, I don't really feel "pantang" at all. So what happened is I was attending a wake for my belated cousin brother. Since I am one of the blood related relative, I will have to undergo those praying session with the monks. And as usual, all we do is sit down with a joss stick on our hand and follow the instruction of the staff. For the very first time, I find this amusing for me because one, it has been a long time since I attended a wake, and two, there is this young boy who was part of the staff where they guide us along the procedures. Nothing much catches my attention in the beginning until I realise something later.
So we were sitting down and listening to the monk chanting. While this young lad, who were supposed to guide us, tend to look at me, not in my direction, but right into my eyes. If it is just once or twice, then probably I will say he was looking at my direction. Being a flirty guy that loves to stare at guys right into their soul through their eyes, I purposely look right into his eyes and see what is his reaction. And to my surprise, he look at me not thrice of four times, but in total, I would say almost 10 times during the whole chanting session within 20 minutes. Frankly speaking, I do kinda feel that he was somehow interested in me (hopefully lol) and at the same time, I do find him extremely adorable when he look away immediately when our eyes meet. I mean, since I purposely did that to him, seeing how his gaze moving back and forth when our eyes meet somehow melts my heart. Guys who are shy when I look right into their eyes are definitely my liking.
To describe him, he is definitely a very young lad, most likely around 19 or maybe just hit his 20. Short hair, small cute eyes, slim fit, same height as me, and most importantly his shy personality. Not sure how he looks like since he was on his mask all the time but something tells me he should be quite good looking as he grew more mature.
I really wanted to start a conversation with him but sadly, he seems to only understand Mandarin which I am totally sucks with. I would love to at least get his name, or better his number just to start off things. Whether he is really interested with me or not, if he willing to give me his number, that is already a good start. Being a banana, communication is the biggest challenge for me right now. Hopefully I will get to see him again tomorrow (and tomorrow is the last day I can see him) and get a chance to at least talk with him once.
Will I ever get to know him and hang out together? Only God knows :)
To my belated cousin brother, may your soul rest in peace.
As for the rest, Merry Christmas :D
