2020 Summary!!!

This year is definitely the most memorable year for me... Definitely something worth noting down to sum up my 2020 and welcoming the 2021, with a hope that it will be better for everyone :D

I really wanted to buy my own house since 3 to 4 years ago... Unfortunately that time, with my meagre salary I could not afford any of them... Even if I found some cheaper ones, the layout is not what I really love... As time passes by, month by month, I will try to browse for new properties... None of them caught my attention until 2 years ago, I found my dream house... It is small but it comes with 2 bathrooms and 2 bedrooms which is something I wanted... Those cheaper properties I found previously was either loft or SOHO... I have never been that excited to buy my very first house... It is definitely a dreams come true for me... And on 1st of November, it marks the day where I moved in and live alone in my house... I can proudly say that I am able to check off one of my life goal :D

Covid-19... Needless for me to say, this is definitely one hell of pandemic that strikes the entire world... Nobody could escape and the worst part, it is still ongoing while I'm typing this post... The only advice that I can give to everyone, please please please keep yourself safe and avoid any unnecessary outings to reduce the risk of getting infected...

Well... That's all I wanna express for the end of 2020... Wish that everyone's resolution for 2021 will be fulfilled... 

As for me, all I wish for is to earn more money so I can clear off all my debts T_T

Hmmmm...

I've been working with my current company for 5 years and since last year, I have been browsing for some new opportunities but none of it really interest me... Not to say that my current company is not good just that I know my boss is leaning toward on working this big project (which I have been doing since last year end) that earns big bucks... If you ask me, isn't that a good thing since your boss is earning so much and they can pay us employee better (bigger bonus as well)??? These are the problems that made me question myself if I should continue on...

When I started doing this new project, I really struggled a lot... It was so bad till the extent that I confront my boss and told him that I really could not continue on anymore... Of course, my boss persuaded me and ask me to stay for a month before he reassign me to other job (yet I worked for a year now lol)... I was so devastated that time and I told my boss that need to take a break from working at my client's office for awhile... I'm so glad I made that decision and after that break, things were slightly better for me...

The second problem which concerns me is how interesting the job could be... I've been working for so many years and most of the things I've been doing was enjoyable... Therefore, I can achieve my tasks given successfully... But in this project, I can only say that not even a single thing is enjoyable for me... It was purely related with insurance and to me, I don't really like doing jobs related with financing (this includes banking stuff)... It was a pain in the ass... Sadly, financing related stuff earns the most for IT company lol...

Finally, the biggest problem is this project has been delayed for too long... Not sure if I need to stay for another year here and I really really really do not want to stay in this project for too long... This project is too bored and uninteresting for me... Like SERIOUSLY BORED...

So, I applied for this job 2 weeks ago and I got a response from them for an interview tomorrow... I wonder what will happen if I got an offer from this new company??? xD

Ranting done. Time to move on :P

Weeeeeeee~~~

My brother suddenly bought me a new PC instead of buying for himself... Not sure why when my old PC still works fine and perfectly for me and I was planning to continue using that initially... Well, since my brother insisted to buy, I will just take it with my arms wide open HAHAHAHAHAHA...

My last research on computer was like 4 to 5 years ago... To my surprise, so much had changed... Never expect to see such a small hard disk (and it is SSD) and almost everything has shrink in size... Even the PC casing nowadays are glass tempered on one side... Totally flabbergasted...

Since I need a place to store the specification of my new PC for future reference (or just in case somebody ask me lol), here it goes:

Processor: INTEL CORE i5 10400F

Motherboard: GIGABYTE B460M H

GPU: AMD GIGABYTE RX 5500XT OC 4GB

RAM: CORSAIR VENGENCE LPX 3200 8GB x 2

Hard Disk: ADATA XPG SX8200 PRO 512GB

PSU: COOLERMASTER MWE BRONZE V2 650W

Casing: COOLERMASTER MASTERBOX K501L RGB

Kinda enjoy playing some games with the new PC... So smooth and fast xD

Quick Update...

Ok... First of all, I've been very busy with work even though I'm working from home... Probably this will last for the next few weeks or even early next year... Although so far I'm still able to cope with it, but I could not deny the fact that working from home made me less motivating and less efficient on doing my work... Honestly, I prefer to work in the office more... Given the situation didn't get any better (as in the pandemic), working in the office will just be a dream... Now move on to the next thing I want to talk about more...

For the first time in my entire life, I bought myself a tank top and put it on... I have to say I am still not so used to it yet cause I never wear any sleeveless shirt since I was young... I wanted to try wearing sleeveless for a very long time just for the sake of trying... Frankly speaking I feel comfortable wearing tank top while working out but I just feel that I am attracting a lot of attentions from other people which makes me feel less comfortable at the same time... Maybe it was just me overthinking xD

Nevertheless, I can check off one of my goal which is to wear sleeveless shirt... I will try my best to wear this shirt to the gym more frequently...

I'm so out of shape now T_____T

Why???

Something stupid happened to me yesterday night... I was having my shabu-shabu dinner and at one point, I wanted to eat the tofu that has been boiled for like quite a period of time... As usual, I scoop it out from the pot, placed it on my spoon and was ready to eat it... And that's when the worst thing happened... I accidentally slurp the tofu too hard (it was rather a small piece by the way, not a big one) and it went straight into my throat and not my mouth... It sounds normal right??? Not when the tofu was fucking hot and the tofu absorbed all the hot soup and it just got stucked between my throat with the burning sensation on going... At that time, I just notice that I did not get any drinks and it was quite a torture for me in my throat... I just went to grab a few drinks and try very hard to sooth it with those cold drinks...

Now... After all the struggles, I'm having a sore throat sensation... It has the same sore throat feeling but I am very very sure it is not sore throat but a burnt throat... I just hope that it will recover quickly... And I hope it is not a serious matter...

Even a small piece of tofu can cause so much damage to me -.-

1st November 2020!!!

1st November 2020 marks the special day for me... One of my lifetime goal has been checked and I am absolutely happy about it... Was supposed to write this post on that day itself but I was totally busy with unpacking stuff, cleaning, sorting stuff out and etc etc etc... Now, most of the things are done just left with a few stuffs to buy...

My first 2 nights of sleep was not so good because of the new environment but last night was really good... I think I have adapted to the house now, and totally in love being naked all the time in the house except heading to the yard lol... The freedom that I wanted for so long is finally here... Felt absolutely fantastic :D

My life is even better when I got the internet installed in the house... My next thing to do is deploy my PS4 and play it tonight haha... Next is to buy a long ethernet cable for my PC... So many minor stuff to care with but I am happy about it... Oh yes, and I am still deciding what hand wash to buy for the house lol...

Basically I have nothing much left to buy, and no major cleaning required... Just once in a while, I will wipe here and there or sweep and mop the floor every 2 or 3 days... Will post some pics soon lol!!!

Need to do some cleaning now >.<

AT LONG LAST!!!

Ok... Quick update... I'm moving in very soon... The day has finally arrived which I have waited for almost half a year... I feel extremely excited right now... Don't care if my home is not fully equipped yet as long as the necessities are there... I am so so so so so so happy right now... Since yesterday, my sleep got interrupted due to my brain keeps thinking about what to buy and add on for my house... Even minor stuff like scissors hanger, I would think thoroughly about it on where to hang/place it... So so so so so many stuffs to manage for such a small cozy home of mine xD

Nevertheless, I can say that I really enjoy the process on how to manage my entire home now... More things to come, and more things to buy >.<

Frankly speaking, I can't wait to sleep naked lolz

GG-ed!!!

I just came to realisation that after sorting out what to buy initially, there are more things to buy following by that... I'm done with my major electronics and now I have another list of necessity items to buy:

1. Curtains - For my living room and both bedrooms... Well... Privacy :P

2. Dining table and chairs - Gonna buy a small table and only 3 chairs xD

3. Dustbins - We need some place to dispose our ewwwwwsss

4. Cutlery trays and cutlery - Or makan dengan tangan je...

5. Dining wares - Cups, plates and bowls... My mom has a lot but she too lazy to dig it out for me now AHAHAHA

6. Utensils - Just enough to masak maggi mee only laa...

7. Shoe rack - Thank God I don't have a lot of shoes so a small one will do!!!

8. Computer desk - Amboiiii... Still dilemma to get an L shape desk or not >.<

9. Wooden mini ladder - Definitely need this...

10. Cleaning supplies - Broom, brush, mop, cloths, floor cleaner and window cleaner... Gotta clean the entire house before my furniture arrives...

Next... List of necessity items that is not urgent as of now:

1. Tool box - Every household needs 1 laa...

2. Air freshener - I want to fill my house with lavender HAHAHAHAHA!!!

3. Divider - If I managed to find a nice spot to place this...

4. Laundry basket - I can just throw my dirty apparels straight into the washing machine :P

Finally... A list of necessity items that must have upon moving in:

1. Tissues / Kitchen Towels - You know you will need it at some point...

2. Extension plugs - Charger, PC, monitor, TV, modem, fridge, water boiler and every single electronic that exists in a household...

3. Bed and pillow linens/sheets - Comfy comfy~~~

4. Bathing supplies - Don't need to share shampoo and body wash with my brother anymore yayyyy~~~ xD

5. Water boiler / kettle - I have an induction cooker... I need hot water for my coffee in the morning and some drinking water >.<

I still have some minor stuff that I'm going to buy soon such as trays for bathrooms which I believe I can get it from MR.DIY easily... I am going to spend a lot by end of this month... Like a lot O.O

WISH MONEY WILL FALL FROM THE SKYYYYYY~~~

Exhausted...

CMCO has arrived... Starting from today, I'll be working from home till CMCO ends... One thing I like about WFH is I can relax by playing some games while working halfway... But one thing I dislike for sure is I do not have a proper table to do my work... I'm practically lying down on my bed with my laptop to work right now... And I have to do this for 2 weeks T___T

Apart from that, got myself a good news... I won a contest and I am absolutely delighted... However, I have responded to the person in charge but I'm not getting any replies from them... They requested me to send them my address and I did... So far, I receive no confirmation from them... Kinda worries me somehow at this point... What if they selected another person as the winner because they did not receive any response from me when I actually did??? We will see the announcement tomorrow on their official website... Hopefully is my name that was announced T_T

So many things to busy and worry about... So many that I really could not type all of it... Is there a single day where I am completely worry free or not busy??? Wish that day will come by soon...

My brain and body deserves some good rest...

Lovesick Girlsss~~~

I guess I'm a little bit late on posting this but damnnnnnnn this song is a jammmmm... As for their album, I would say out of 8 songs, I love 5 of them which indicates that this is a good album...

Now back to my daily updates... My renovations are almost complete (left with some minor stuffs) and I think I am ready to move in once I got my furniture in as well (hopefully by end of this month)... Need to buy some mirrors from IKEA and towel racks to be installed on my bathroom... I am still considering what mirror I should get for my bedroom... Currently I don't need any kitchen racks but probably what I need are those cutlery baskets... Or maybe knife holder... Or maybe cup holders... Oh wait what about my curtains??? Bed sheets??? Pillow covers??? Ok shit now I guess I have to spend more T____T

Why I got no money T______T

Shittttt...

Shit... I've skipped gym for the last 4 days and I feel extremely guilty now... Seriously this is my first time skipping gym for 4 days continuously... Regardless of what, I must go to gym tonight... Damn it!!!

Apart from skipping gym, I've been eating lesser than usual since Monday because I want to see how much it affects my body fat... Of course, I would say that I ate quite clean for this week and with the lack of exercise, it will roughly tells me how much weight and body fat I would loss... Not sure what the outcome would be but I can say that I'll be happy if I see my body fat dropped for this week xD

Now... The main problem I need to address... Feels like my topping skills had deteriorate tremendously... Like seriously bad... In my last 2 sessions, I tend to reach orgasm way too early and this is definitely not a good thing... And on both of that sessions, I noticed these few things that could affect my performance:

1. Dehydration - Never consume any liquid at all since I reached their place till I left

2. Too much communication - We tend to talk for quite some time (around 20 minutes) before we get into action

3. Not hard - When my bottom never gets hard even after I pleasured him (maybe because I did a bad job on this?). It somehow give me an indication that they are not enjoying and thus, it affects me in certain way as well

I miss my topping moments :'(

The only bottom I had in my mind is my boyfriend right now T_T

Hmmmmm...

Recently I felt that my muscle tend to be more firm or stiff... It feels nice but at the same time, my body needs a massage badly... It is like tiring but not aching/sore... Kinda hard to describe but I don't feel uncomfortable at all, just tiring... Really wish to find some good cheap massage to keep the lethargy away... Sadly, no massages are cheap lol...

I am trying to achieve 4 days straight workout before a rest day... Seriously, how does those bodybuilders workout everyday weiii??? Crazy weiii... Now, I need to keep track of my workout and rest day so that I can give my muscles some good rest... Must not over exert my muscles!!! And on top of weight training, I need to include more cardios from now on... Need to get rid of my spare tyres T____T

Dear fats please have mercy on me!!!

Update #4721976462784464

 

Ok... Just took this pic yesterday and got my body result checked... My weight did not increase for the week but my body fat did drop a little compared to my previous' week result... Guess that I need to work harder this week to see some better results... Just hope that my body fat does not increase for this week T_T

And one thing worth celebrating... MY ABS IS SHOWING A LITTLE!!!!! OMGGGGG T______T

(Yet still I have to struggle with the fat on my waist -.-)

Ok besides my body progress, I had my HIV test done last Saturday... Of course as usual, it is negative... If it is positive, probably I will be depressed as hell and this post will be a long ass post instead... So to whoever reading this, always keep yourself safe!!!

Apart from that, I was extremely horny for the past 2 weeks... When I am horny, even my hands will not do the job... What I need is real sex... OK I had my session last Friday and it was satisfying... I was bottoming for someone that time and I thought it had satisfied my craving for sex... Sadly I just realise, I am still craving for sex, not being a bottom, but being a top... I guess being a versatile has its good and its bad >.<

I know I should not engaged too much on sexual activities due to safety of my boyfriend but I promised I will always keep myself checked and safe...

My house is progressing well and I REALLY REALLY REALLY hope that I can move in by end of October (Oh God please please please)... I just want my own freedom and please make sure everything goes smoothly...

I guess that's all for today's update... Probably the closest thing I'm looking forward to is Blackpink's album on October 2nd... And I think I will be quite busy arranging my furniture delivery this month end...

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

Recent Jams!!!

 I've been looping these 2 songs since Monday:





Couldn't help myself with these 2 damn good songs xD


And finally a new song by Perfume :D





Wish to have more holidays XD

Sad Update...

This week result is disappointing... Loses some weight but body fat increased... Feel so sad right now... I just feel like I can never hit below 15% body fat... Or maybe the machine scam me... I don't know... Getting tired by just thinking of it... And eating clean is not cheap at all... So much stuff to be troubled with... Why? Why?? Why???



I'm desperate for sex more and more nowadays T____T

Quick Update!!!

Ok it has been quite some time since I update my body pic in this blog... So here it goes:

Kind of happy with my progress right now as I am constantly gaining weight which I wanted for quite some time... Hope to see better results in the future with the help of protein supplements...

Next... My house renovation goes well so far (except the wrong paint I picked for the first time)... Can't wait to get the rest done so I can start moving in all the furnitures and electrical appliances that I have bought... And most importantly, I can move in and stay... Dear freedom!!! I've been longing for you!!!

Next... My planned holiday should be on end October... I'm going to visit my boy one last time before he comes to KL and enjoy all the food that I did not try last time there... Just hope that this covid stuff remain peaceful for these 2 months...

I guess that's all for now... Tomorrow is my rest day yayyyyyyy~~~



I am so fucking hungry right now lolololol

Post #777!!!

This post marks my post number seven hundred and seventy seven!!! Actually, this is not the main stuff I want to talk about lol... Back to my main story...

Recently, I came to realisation that I am having some issue with my temper... It was worst last week whereby every single things that does not goes my way or just doesn't seems right will make me feel pissed off... For example, I was working and doing my stuff as usual and suddenly it hangs, or I made some mistake on my work and have to redo the part again... Another example is when I was working out at the gym, whenever I want to use that machine but it was occupied... First machine, fine... Second machine, not so good... Third machine, I lost my mood to do that workout anymore... I just could not help myself being pissed off... Even when I'm walking and somehow someone just passes by where I'm walking towards or someone in front of me is walking slower than me, it ticks me off... There is this constant anger being triggered all the time... Currently, I'm doing slightly better but I still need to control it... Hopefully by next week I'm back to normal hahaha xD

There are still a few things I want to address about but I will leave it to my next posts :P



I miss my boyfriend more and more nowadays :'(

YESSSSSSSS!!!

I was absolutely delighted when I have achieved a new milestone:

One of the main reason is I never hit above 66kg in my entire life, which made me feel so happy about it... I feel like I am getting closer to 70kg very soon... Another thing is my body fat is dropping from 18% to 17% and now 16.5%... I can't wait to see myself goes below 15%...

Frankly speaking, this drastic result that I'm having now was due to my diet changes and after taking protein supplements for 2 weeks... Didn't expect it to have such a huge impact on my progress and I feel more motivated than ever now xD

Probably I will continue to bulk up till end of next month, then start to go for cutting hehehe~~~



Let's pump it up!!!

Lol...

Ok not sure what to put for this post's title but here is how the story goes...

I noticed my best friend using one of the gay app since Chinese New Year... I accidentally saw his phone's notification that time... I was a little bit shocked initially but I am OK with it since I am one of them lmaoz... Now the next part...

We went for a trip last weekend and my best friend brought his friend along... Since he is picking me up and his friend, I notice a lot of unusual vibes coming out from them... As I'm sitting behind them, I can see everything clearly... From the way they talk to sharing drinks, that is so typical thing to do for a couple... And probably the most obvious part is when we were all asleep, I somehow notice that they were cuddling together on the bed (we shared the same room but they were using the bed while I'm on the floor xD) and I guess that explains everything... Another obvious thing is when my best friend locked the room together with his friend just for a shower... I mean come on... That would be the most obvious hint if you ask me... Then we had our lunch the next day and head back home...

I somehow tempted to ask my best friend but not sure how to start... Hence, I ask my boyfriend for opinion and he wants me to ask him straight to the point if they are dating... Hence, I decided to ask my best friend how old is his friend first... And after his reply, I jokingly say that as if they were like dating... And BAMMM!!! BINGO!!! He admitted himself and my best friend says since I am one of his closest friends, he don't mind telling me the truth...

Ok now... I don't mind him coming out to me but the next interesting story is, how do I tell him about my boyfriend LOLZ!!! The fact that I am in a long distance relationship for almost a year plus makes it more difficult for him to trust me if I tell him... It just doesn't seems right...

Regardless of what, sooner or later, I will eventually tell him because he is one of my closest friend and I have no intention to keep it among them all...



Thinking what story to tell my best friend about my boyfriend now lol...

Weekend Trip At Genting~~~

Went to Genting like after a year again... Rented an apartment and had a blast together with my secondary friends... I always wonder as we grew older, would we eventually loses our friends slowly but I am blessed that we are still close to each other... It is definitely a right thing to do by spending our time together once in a while... Comparing when we were young, we used to do crazy stuff together... As we get older, we may not be doing crazy stuffs like we used to, but still enjoy the accompany being together with each other... Hope this friendships of ours will last eternally...

Can't imagine how chaotic it would be if we are going on a trip with our full secondary group of friends XD



Looking forward to some interesting story lololol~~~

1st of August...

Another quick update on my progress:

Was quite happy cause my body fat dropped and I am still keeping my 65kg weight at this point... Wanted to go beyond 66kg but I guess I really need to eat A LOT... I am not giving up on my 70kg goal... Means I have to workout harder, eat harder and spend more money on food T_____T



Can someone be poor by eating??? Lol...

My Inspirational Figure...

Probably I never thought of having someone as my inspirational figure in achieving my body goal... Until few months back (early January I would say), someone sent me a picture of this guy and I am absolutely in love with him... His body is exactly the body I would definitely want to achieve and it turns out not just an inspirational figure, he had became my motivator now... I do have a picture of him but if anyone knows who he is, please please please please please tell me who he is:

I'm pretty sure I still have a long long way to go... But I will do my best to get at least 80% of his body... Whatever it takes!!!



Fuck me he is so fucking hot lol!!!

Saturday Update...

OK I know today is Monday but I need to remind myself on updating my progress constantly in my blog... So here is my progress for last Saturday:

My waist still look horrible... I don't know how to get rid of it -.-

And the worst is my body fat increased compared to last week... So depressing...

Anyway I bought MyProtein for the first time (and my very first time taking protein supplements)... Hope I can see better results from that moment on...



Dear protein supplements, I am waiting for you :D

Not So Sexy Back...

Ok my first time taking a back shot and yes, it is horrible... Not great with selfies either so I won't feel bad about that...Let's see how well my back will develope within one month :P

Apart from that, the moment where I have to spend a lot arriving soon... I'm trying not to overspend now xD



But I don't mind spending more for food hehehehehe~~~

Lol...

Time to fill my blog with some pics first...

I had to say, I am extremely motivated to workout nowadays probably due to wanting to get myself back in shape... It was so depressing that my body fat shot up by 2% for the last 2 months and it absolutely freaked me out... Therefore, I must put more effort on getting back to my previous body fat, and work harder to reduce it further...

Not gonna be an easy one but still gotta do it...

Pporappippam~~~

Noooooo...

Recently I have been busy with browsing furnitures... Never expect that there are so many things to consider when I need to move in to a new house... Here are some of the items I need to get before moving in:

1. Bed & mattress
2. Fridge
3. Water Heater
4. Fan
5. Washing machine
6. Sofa
7. Wardrobe
8. Clothes hanger (for drying)
9. Ironing board
10. Iron

Above are my essential stuff... Now moving on to semi-essential items:

1. Mirrors
2. Aircond
3. Shoe rack

Anything other than that are least essential and can be bought later...

Ughhhhhhhhh... There goes my money T_T



Can't wait to start my new life T______T

27th June 2020 Update...

It has been a long since I post a pic of my body progress... Feels like no differences compared to my last one XD

I am still working hard on it and hopefully in these 2 months I can see some progress compared to my past 2 years of stagnant progress...



A man gotta do what he has to do!!!

Tortured...

The fact that I still have to wait for another 2 months is more than enough to kill me... I really can't wait for the day where I can sleep naked in my own bedroom, wake up naked to brush my teeth, head to the kitchen naked to prepare my cup of coffee, lie on the sofa sipping on my fresh hot coffee naked, take a nice shower and leave the shower naked and etc whereby everything revolves about me being naked and even with (not family) or without someone in my home... This is what a real comfortable house supposed to be... The more I desire for this lifestyle, the tougher my days goes by... I really really really need this asap... Now this is my first torture...

Second is I met this very nice guy (I knew him for quite some time) and we finally meet up for dinner... He is cuter in real life and looks quite hot to me (my boyfriend is still my number 1 xD)... I told him that if I ever want to have fun now, my boyfriend will always be my first but since he is not around me, he will be the next in line... And while we still keep in touch everyday, somehow we will ended up having naughty conversations and I could not help getting hard out of sudden >.<
I really hope that we can meet up for fun sooner as long as he is OK and comfortable with me... I do not wanna push him as well... Deep inside me, I really want him to have a good time with me...



Please stop torturing me T____T

Oh No...

Ok... A quick update...It was rather a disappointing/embarrassing update... What happened is I had a fun session with a guy last Sunday... And for the very first time in my life being a top, I did not manage to get hard and shoot earlier than expected -.-

I felt so sorry and bad... It never happen before in my entire life as a top and this somehow impacts me a lot... Was it because I rarely workout? Or was it something is not right with me?? What is the problem???

It kinda worries me as I can't imagine if the same thing could happen again on my next fun... I swear I do not know why this could happen... I do not want the same thing to happen when my boyfriend stay with me... I really don't...



WHAT HAPPENED TO ME!?!?!?! T_____T

Moonbyul - Absence

Ok... This song is seriously interesting solely because the song is more like a ballad pop rather than hip hop which Moonbyul rarely shows off... I never hear a solo song from Moonbyul that is this captivating... Knowing that Moonbyul only used to rap and sing fast paced verse but hearing her singing a slower verse really makes her stands out... I have to say, she win my heart this time with this song... GANBATTE MOONBYUL!!!



And now... Tomorrow is the day I am finally waiting for... That feeling of getting my house key... Best thing ever...



TOMORROW HERE I COMEEEEEE~~~

The Day Has Arrived!!!

Nothing is happier than preparing to get the keys for my new house... Just went to get the letter and it doesn't seems to have much hassle on getting my keys... I just need to wait them to call me and I am ready to go...

Recently my blog is lacking of images... I need to find more pics and post it in my blog...

Whenever I type my blog posts, I am not doing it in a very proper or sequential way... I am blindly typing what comes across my mind and this is the reason why it looks so unorganised xD

Another thing to highlight is, I was on Work From Home period and I am going to start my Work From Office starting 1st of June... Not sure if it is a good thing since I'm so used to WFH for 2 months straight... Hopefully I can adapt to it lol...

Oh yes... As for my Maison 21G, it has arrived last week and I am absolutely enjoying it... Probably my next few perfumes will be from them xD

I guess that's all for now... And I am still as horny as I am used to be LOL!!!



PURGE THE SINFUL DESIRE IN MEEEEEEEE!!!

Waiting...

I am currently waiting for 2 things... One of it is a long awaited thing, and the other one is a very new thing...

1. Vacant Possession Letter

Ok... The day has arrived... My long awaited key collection has arrived... I can finally feel my house... See my house... Roll on the floor... Lie on the floor... Walk around... LOL... This is the best day ever for me... It has been a very long time and now I am waiting for the letter... DEAR LETTER, PLEASE COME ASAP!!! That's all I can say as of now...

2. Maison 21G

I somehow found this perfume brand via Facebook ads... And somehow, it caught my attention as they do sell sampling bottles (which are like 3ml lol)... Their myriad of aroma allows us to mix and match the fragrance we like and I have decided to go with as following:

• Ocean + Raspberry - Something very new and I'm trying this out for fun lol
• Ocean + Lavender - Something similar to my Davidoff Cool Water... I want to smell how much differences between them lol...

I understand that these 2 things I'm waiting for requires postmen delivery and this would take some time due to the virus... What I can do is praying hard that they reach to me ASAP...

OK... Done for today's post lol!!!

Bored...

Was bored and decided to write down what happened or happening in my life since MCO (LOL):

- MCO would be ending soon... Given that I am working from home since MCO, it wasn't very productive for me lol... But at least when my boss asks me to do something, I can deliver it on time :P

- Life is kinda bored as time goes by... The longer MCO extended, the more bored it has been... Thankfully, it is going to end next week... The daily life would be different than usual but at least we can breathe some fresh air from then on... As long as everyone keeps themselves safe & clean, this virus stands no chance against us...

- I believe once the MCO lifted off, I will be getting my house keys... Can't wait for that day to come...

- The good thing I want to point out during MCO is I can get to play The Sims 4 with all the latest packs... At least I enjoyed it for a period of time... Then I tried Armello and deleted it after like 1 week (it is only fun playing online)... Lastly, I re-download Two Point Hospital to play again with their latest patches and expansions... It was fun :D

- That was for my PC... I've completed FF7 Remake for PS4 and Evil Within 2... It was a very fruitful MCO I would say... That was the very moment where I enjoy my gaming life for a period and it was absolutely great... I would never forget these feelings xD

- Given that I am in my moratorium (defer payment) for all loans, I can make good use of the money now to clear my credit card debts... It was really a good period for me...

- Lastly, I had a 3some last week... Was good since it was my first fun with "somebody" since MCO started...


There are still some minor minor things happened but I won't write it down as it will be rather too short to be written lol...



Please listen to ITZY - Wannabe LOLOLOL~~~

If I Am...

Whenever I accidentally browsed some hot guys picture, I ask myself why I can't be like them... Imagine when you are so hot and flaunt what you have... I want to have such attention but I do not dare to expose too much as well... In fact, I am no where close to flaunting anything and it tells me that I should not think so much about it as well...

Life is just as usual, with MCO extended for 2 more weeks... Need to cut my hair too... Miss my baby at Kuching... During MCO, it is best to spend with your love one... Plus I was planning to visit him during end of this month but this virus thingy spoilt my plans...

But one thing I am really happy for sure... I am very close to getting my house key, and prepare for renovation... Can't wait to see my beautiful house... Once I move in, I can enjoy my new life with my baby :D

Dear Covid-19, please end quickly so I can move in with my boyfriend T_T

Movement Control Order (MCO)...

Since last week, we were in MCO whereby no citizen are allowed to leave their house (except buying necessities) in order to protect everyone from this Covid-19 virus... I mean, given that the rising cases of this issue in Malaysia, is right that everyone plays a part to keep whole Malaysia safe... And because of this MCO, we are required to work from home... I kinda enjoy this moment LOL!!!

Nothing much to update as of now... Or maybe, I'm too lazy to type so much...



Seems like I can't find him on April due to MCO :(

When Life Is Perfect...

I've been longing for a perfect life... At least comfortable enough financially without any debts, has a nice house, a nice car, and someone to accompany you for the rest of your life... I've turned 30 and sadly to say, the next crisis are always waiting for me... Able to enjoy life without any worries would be something everyone hope for, not just me... But seeing people living a perfect life always make me wonder why I am still so far away from being like them... Not just in terms of wealth, they are absolutely gorgeous physically which leads to a good health... The time I've spent to achieve either wealth or health is not even close to what it seems... Stuggles are always there... Sadness never stops to engulf me... When I try to put an effort in achieving something, it can never go as planned... What is a perfect life to me??? When is the perfect comes to me??? When will I get my perfect life???

Hopefully the answer lies ahead sooner...



When will my sadness turns into happiness???

Busy Days Ahead...

Yes... It has been a month since I post something... My life is literally lifeless... Even if I got the time, I would use it to do something I want... So right that I have nothing to do now, I have decided to post something...

It will be too cumbersome for me to type what happened so far in my life via mobile... I would keep that for another day when I'm using a PC... However, today's post will be a picture post and be prepared for it!!!

Letme be frank... I have lose weight... Like a lot... I was supposed to bulk up and now I'm losing weight... This is going to be hard and difficult for me to catch up... What am I supposed to do???

When will I get my desired body??? T_T

February 2020...

Ok... This month, is gonna be a hellish month for me... It will not be an enjoyable month and probably I don't dare to imagine what is waiting for me ahead... Yes... I still get to enjoy a short trip to Penang next week and that would be the most enjoying moment for me in the month of February... The rest, I wish time passes by quickly, or at least ensure what I have been doing is right... Thinking about this project exhaust me so much that I would not hesitate to change job if I can...

I knew that I won't get to enjoy as much as I used to... But I just don't like the working environment of my current project...



SET ME FREEEEEEEEEE!!!

Happy Lunar New Year 2020!!!

Ok. First of all, sorry for the belated wishes and I would like to wish everyone a happy, wealthy and healthy Lunar New Year of 2020!!!

Since I rarely get to blog nowadays, I can only update it like once or twice a month... There are quite an amount of update so it might be a lengthy post once in a while but I will try to keep it short... As of now, nothing much is happening... All I can say is my next post in the blog would be after next my Penang trip which is next week... Be prepared for a lot of pics as well...



GONG XI FA CAI!!!!! HUAT AHHHHHHH!!!

Life Is Complicated...

Since last month, lots of things had happen and it heavily affects me emotionally and I am really having a hard time going through... Hence this is the reason why I didn't post anything for quite some time... Now, I will give out a summary of what happened since Dec 2019 up until this new year of Jan 2020:

1. I was struggling with my job. Like seriously bad. It never went well and I was in a serious mental breakdown where I can't concentrate and get anything right. Do note that this is not because I was going through something else but I personally not fond of this project hence I know I can't handle it well. Probably I should say this project is not suitable for me. After a tiring 3 months of struggle, now I can say I am slightly better but I don't think I will ever continue with working on insurance related project. Don't ask me why.

2. Met a guy. We had fun and everything was great until I realise he fell in love with me deeply. It was a complicating relationship that I am having. Given that he knows about my boyfriend, he just want to be with me. And because of his sad past, I kind of pity him but would love to see him recover and be better with me being around him. Don't get me wrong. I like him as a very good friend and I am very clear I will NEVER love him as a boyfriend since my love is for my boyfriend. I have drawn this line very clear with him. Nevertheless, he just wants to be with me so that he can forget his ex and I admit that whatever I do now could make him step deeper. He needs to know what he is doing for sure.

3. Seeing my friends travelling for year end. Yes. I am poor as fuck and not in a very favourable financial status. I will never get to enjoy much in terms of spending. I don't have that luxury anymore. It might drive me crazy but I still have to move on with my life. Waiting for my home to be ready feels so far away. Will my life be ever easy from now onwards? Lol.

4. Gym? No longer able to workout as much as I used to. The fact that I workout lesser nowadays due to my current project makes me fall sick even easier. Is not a good sign and I think I should not stay in this project any longer. Have to make the right decision for my health now.

5. PS4. I have so many games to catch up. Forget about Nintendo Switch. I don't even have time for my PS4. I really want to get back to my gaming life. Felt that my life changes a lot since I stop playing console games.


I have listed down most of my sad things and all I can wish for is better days ahead... Wanting to change job but unsure if there are company who would love to hire me... Is not easy at my age now... Nothing is easy...




Happy Belated New Year 2020...