End of March 2017...

Since I have applied for my Wellington, I am constantly waiting for the good news... I have submitted everything I am required to and now I am waiting for their approval... My feelings are currently jumbled up, difficult to explain it... I felt that I put a lot of effort and time on getting my biography + CV as interesting as possible and all I hope for is given a chance... It still seems to be a long way to go but I must do my best regardless of what it takes... The competition for this Wellington programme is real... Shit just got real... I can sense the joy and happiness whenever I passes a stage successfully... And that is all I hope for...

I have to endure and keep doing my best!!!

I Can Do It!!!

Not just for New Zealand thingy but for my current task... I must get the functions working regardless of what... I know it can be done for sure, just need to know exactly how... I've been lacking behind and I really need to pick it up... It seems easy but it doesn't feels like though...

I've been reading on a lot of things about NZ recently and I found it amusing everytime I read it... From a weather that I might not get used to till the things I can do there, it all seems unreal... The best part that intrigue me the most??? Their annual salary can go between 80k to 100k NZD for my position... That is a whopping RM240k annually!!! Damn!!! It will be extremely lovely if they do really pay me that much but I told myself it might differ... So, regardless of how much I'm getting paid, janji it is higher than my current salary then it will always be an OK from me xD




I can do this for sure!!! Yes I do!!!!!!!!

Struggling...

For the very first time, I'm struggling to get my tasks complete... I'm the type of people that will give up things easily if I can't do it for several times... What I need the most when I'm at this state is some help from professionals to guide me on how to do it... Why can't I get through it by myself??? It is hard whenever I think of it... When I'm not good with a thing, I will just purely give everything up... That's me... So now, what should I do???

So far, my Wellington thing is doing fine... My first stage final step is to upload my CV and Cover Letter... Once I have done that, I need to pass my first stage in order to proceed on with second stage, which is a video presentation... Not sure what is this video presentation about but every stage that I passes means I'm 1 step closer to my goal :D

I can't wait to see the results of my Wellington but at the same time, I am worried about my current tasks now...



I'm kinda depressed right now actually...

And Still Waiting...

Yup... It will be an endless post of my status on waiting until they notify me... Indeed I do sound desperate but I guess this is normal since I am really looking forward to it... Lolz... It is not easy lolz...

Back to something more personal... I felt like I am not concentrating or enthusiast on my current work... I mean, this Wellington thing really have a big impact on me as of now... Not easy to control myself not to think about it... At the same time, I am lacking behind on my work and I need to pick up faster... I want to finish it up but it is just too much obstacles... Is like I tend to slack off more as well recently... However, when it comes to tasks that I am familiar or good in, then I will be able to concentrate and being enthusiast on it... I find this funny as I should be more interested on new things and not old things...

I really hope that everything goes smoothly, especially for my Wellington as I can foresee that I will be extremely depressed if I failed to get selected... All I ever want is to experience working outside my comfort zone more...



So how ah???

Uneasy...

Yes... I am still feeling nervous, strongly hoping that I can really get selected... Even though I am a little bit eased and glad when I received an email from them yesterday stating that they acknowledge my email and I can get to update my profile soon, somehow the doubts are pulling me away... Well, I told myself that this will be a chance to break my first step into the new world and I will definitely not giving this up... However, I couldn't help that the fact is there are a humongous amount of people applying for it as well... So far there are 150,000 applicants (as of 10th March) and 12,000 have updated their profile in the system... Is like selecting 100 out of 12,000 sounds crazy enough and by the time I have updated my profile and I got selected as one, it will be total miracle lolz...

I guess I can't take away my thoughts on this until the results are officially announced... All I can do is be prepared with eveything I need to prepare and do whatever I can to impress the employers... To be frank there are too many things going through my brain lately regarding this Wellington thing... Basically, I can't stop thinking about it... Everyday... Without fail...



This proves how desperate I am... Like seriously...

Eager For Response...

I've been waiting for quite some time, hoping that I will receive at least some response from them... To be honest, even they reply me back with a message stating that they are currently full, at least I know I've lost all hope and move on... However, if they are not replying back at all, that feeling of hanging on the edge lingers... This feeling is killing me!!!

Anyway, all I can do is to follow the flow... Of course, if I am selected as one to join the trip (even I don't managed to get a job there), I will be happy enough :)

The reason is I want to show to my parents that I can do things all by myself, I am independent enough and they do not really need to worry about me at all...

If I managed to take a step forward on this, I can foresee where my future goes... It may not be an easy life, but if I am happy it with, it is all worth it :D

I am so desperate to spam their email notification just to get their attention lolz...

Life's Getting Bumpy...

It has been a rough ride in my life recently... I would say it is kinda stressful and sometimes when things just doesn't work out well, it causes me to stuck on the point of not progressing... At this moment, I can only blame myself... To me, when I'm not achieving something even though it is just a minor thing, I feel bad... I won't say it makes me feel depressing but I am worry that if this state got prolonged, it can turn out to be one...

So far, I am glad to say that I am not depressed, which is good... Pressured from job are common but it is bad when I can't work things out accordingly...



However, the Wellington thing is still bugging me all the time... Please send me an email :'(

First Step To New Zealand...

Ok... I never expect the opportunity arrived for me this year... I did mention before that I would definitely try to find a way to work overseas (but not Singapore) if I ever have the chance... And it seems like the chance has arrived... To be frank, I'm unsure if I will even get the slightest chance to be selected for this LookSee Wellington program but hell yes I am so gonna do my best and give it a try... I do not want to miss any opportunities given...

New Zealand is a beautiful place... I may or may not get used to it but I am indeed someone that can adapt easily on every environment... I do not wish to say anything about this to my family unless I am really selected as the 1 out of 100 candidates for this program...

For a moment, I may sound desperate and maybe even asking for God's assistance to guarentee me this selection because I just want my parents to be happy... They kept asking me to find a job in Singapore but I never tell them about my dislike of Singapore though... Hence, NZ will be a great surprise to my parents since none of our family members is working at NZ now... And yes... I want to make my parents proud as well...

In the end, it sound kinda selfish of me since I will be leaving my parents here... At least they are still accompanied by my brother... I'm not sure if this is a good decision but my desire to work and being independent at somewhere not close to my family is definitely something I'm looking forward to all this time...

Regardless of what will happen in the future, all I gotta do is believe in myself and do what I can do to get what I want :)



I can do this!!!

Koh Lipe #2!!!

I once said that I will try to post more pics... Here it is:

(Awesome turqoise water)

Come on... Who doesn't like a beautiful sunshine with such pretty water... To me, it is an absolute serene and peace which I won't get to enjoy in city center... If I'm working on an island, I would be the happiest worker in the world lolz...



I'm loving it!!!