I Wonder...

Suddenly thought of something:

Is it impossible to buy a house until you are at least 30???

I noticed that few of my colleagues (those in my current company) owns a house only when they are in their early 30, regardless they are married or still single... I believe that married one should own a house earlier but it doesn't seems to be like this... As for the single, I still think that they can actually own a house when they are 25 provided that you put away luxurious apparels and not owning a car with an income of 3,000...

To be frank, I was 1 step closer to own a house... But at the same time, once I bought my car, my financial fell down tremendously... I still can't figure out what is the cause but it really gave me a hard time... So I should not say any further about how 3,000 can own a house...

Next year will be my 27th... My wish to buy a house at 25 never came true... And I strongly feel that I failed miserably... So next year will I really get to buy my own house??? Or I have to wait another few more years???

Although I don't mind to be getting older, but I do not want to own a house at such an old age :(

Exhausted...

Today, I am both physical and mentally exhausted... I thought this will only happen once but I can't deny that it keeps happening now... And yes... My hunches are somehow getting close to be true... Why??? Cause I never get to see the fun side of my life now... A month and a week more to go... I just need to endure slightly more and that's it... I really do not know what's happening all of a sudden but I don't think I can somehow cope with this... I want a better environment to work in... I want to be appreciated... I want to be rewarded... I want to get something back for what I had contributed...



I want my life to be entirely different...

Nailed It!!!

That day when I went for karaoke, I never expect myself to nailed 3 songs perfectly:

1. Sia's Chandelier

2. Raymond Lam's Let's Get Wet

3. Linkin Park's In The End (not so perfect for this)

That satisfaction I get from singing chandelier was the best I would say... Like totally hit the note as what I want... Perfectly... Totally love it... I am so gonna sing this song again for every karaoke session lolz...

Let's Get Wet was unexpectedly good, especially when I sang it without the singer's vocal (in other words, music only)... Somehow, I nailed this song perfectly as well xD

In The End is usually the rapping part that is the most challenging to me because I do not clearly know the lyrics except their chorus part... I accidentally slipped out of the rapping tune because I was not able to catch up with the rapping but I think that was fine because overall, I did great I think :P

I guess when I sang my first song, Perfume's Relax In The City was like a warmup for me... To be frank, there is no way I can change my voice like Perfume... That's impossible =.=

It sounded totally disappointing at first but I had chandelier to pull me up again... Woooo hoooo that feeling ahahahahahahaha!!!

I think I am qualified to be a singer lololololz...

Hello~~~

Adele nailed it again :')

Rolling In The Deep and Someone Like You was good but I think Hello is better...

Hello from the other side~~~

Not Depressed But Dull...

My dull life is back... You know when there is a period where you have nothing to look forward to... To be frank I am supposed to be happy or excited as my last day is getting nearer... However, even if I changed to my new job, I got a feeling that my life would be the same until I really move out and stay alone... I really can't see any drastic changes in my life unless I am not staying with my family... As time goes by, my thoughts of living alone seems to get stronger and I just can't control it at all... Not to say that I hate them but things just doesn't feel comfortable like this... All I can say right now is I will just move on till I found a home that I can afford and start a new chapter of my life...



Sigh...

But How???

Despite the fact that I am still in my notice period, I just somehow loses my interest in doing what I am currently doing... Demotivated and the mind of wanted to leave as soon as possible seems to hit me hard right now... I am still taking my responsibility seriously, like trying to do eveything good enough before I leave but it just seems none goes well since the day I resigned... Why am I going through such difficult time??? Most of my problems tends to be super complex which I worry that I might not be able to find the solution even on my last day... This make me sounds like I am being very irresponsible... What am I supposed to do when the thing I'm supposed to do turns out to be this complex??? For a moment, I felt hopeless...



Please enlighten me...

Things Starts To Change...

Since the day I am officially resigned, things were not going smoothly at all... It is just so not right... Since the first day, everything seems to be plummeting downwards... I might be having my life easy all these while but why does the bad things occurs the moment when I saw a new hope in my life??? Does that mean it was better to remain how my life was meant to be all along??? Does that mean it was a wrong decision for me to change my job??? Does that mean I am not supposed to be doing anything with my life which I am unhappy with currently and continue to dwell in this miserable life??? Once again I will repeat... I am not hoping everything to be perfect... In fact I am ready for every obstacle that will be coming...

Although I am prepared for everything but I don't think I am at the mental state which I can perform my best right now... For instance, I am required to standby at 1 in the morning... I am not complaining as I am just pointing out that something bad will happen regardless of how positive I am trying to think nowadays... Perhaps, a drop of patient and a bucket of positive mind is what I need right now...



I am getting exhausted over this life... Maybe a long vacation or a change of environment is what I want the most now...

If I Start Earlier...

My new boss keeps asking me if I would like to start my work earlier... It feels like he has a big project coming and need more assistance on it... I can feel the peer pressure when he keep asking me about it... I wonder if this is a good sign or a bad sign???

On top of that, on that day when I went to sign my offer letter, apprently there is another dude went for interview or sign the offer letter (not sure at all about this)... Does that mean when I join, at least there will be someone new and hopefully we can get along well???

Nevertheless, I have yet to decide when to start... Most likely I will start earlier but definitely not after Christmas xD



Think Joey think!!! My brain is exploding!!!

No Surprises...

At first I thought that my resignation can be kept until like maybe a month before my last day... But somehow, it just goes out so fast that most of them knows about it... Is it that hard to keep this a secret??? Hmmm...

Anyway, I just notice that my heart is really no longer in this current company... I felt so demotivated to move on and just hope that my last day comes earlier... There are too much bad things happening during my resignation period... I really tried very hard to leave the positive impression before my last day but it seems like negative things keeps rolling down to my life... Come on for God sake... When I wanted to leave a good impression, all those fucking shit things keep occuring... How am I supposed to move on like this??? How do I keep my positive impression like this??? To be frank, I am not asking good things to happen... I just want it to be peaceful all along... Am I asking too much???

My leave was postponed due to pack schedules that I have to keep up with... And this incident makes it sound like I was the one in fault for causing the trouble and I deserved to postpone my leave??? This is important and that is important and you expect to settle these 2 things up before I can take my leave again??? I think my limitation of being a nice guy has just over the boiling point... I guess I need to act more sternly not to show that I don't bother about my impression, but to tell them that I need a good rest before I can move on... I should do something to tell them that I am a human... If I ever sense that they are trying to use me to the fullest because I have resigned in a very disrespectful way, then I gotta be honest: I won't give a fuck about the impression and you shall look forward to what I am capable in doing to make your life even harder than before...



I just have to say that being nice and kind is far much harder in this state...

Live A Life With Joy...

Saw a very inspirational quote:

We don't live to work, pay bills and die...

Somehow, it is very important that the money you earned should be spent on something you really love and not just merely for bills or loans or etc etc etc... Consider it as a self comforting/award for achieving something in your life so far... For me, besides gaming related things, a sweet and lovely relaxing vacation will eases my soul... Was looking forward to another trip and I am so excited just thinking about it xD

Now I am still thinking if I should start my new job earlier or I should just take a long break before starting my new job... Hmmmm... Another dilemma strikes me now =.=

Nevertheless, I am just looking forward to these few months until early December :)



I'mmmmmmmm gonnna swinggggggg from the chandelierrrrrrr~~~

It Is Official...

With the letter, I am considered officially resigned... I can wait to start a new chapter of my life... Definitely will miss my colleague pals... Thus, I'm gonna spend as much time as possible with them...

But before all of that moment to happen, I am just shrouded with tonnes of things to do... Not sure how I'm gonna drag myself through this... I just feel that I am being pressed and stressed on for now... Of course, all I can say is I will consider this as helping instead of putting myself into being a victim... Gotta do what I got to do...




But I am still a human you know??? I jugak ada emotion la deiii... Lu macam ni all the time how I can bring myself together worrr???

Simple But Tough...

I am having a deployment tomorrow morning... The things that I have to do is simple but I just feel nervous regardless that I had done this numerous times... Why am I this weird???

The worst part is after tomorrow's deployment, there will be another one... Although I won't be the one supporting the deployment but it was done by me... In fact, this one makes me nervous even more... I took leave not just to stay at home for support... It gives me a vibe that any off day I am taking now will eventually ended me not enjoying the night before my off day... I do not like troubling other people as well... Plus because of that stupid shit, there are so many things I need to do for this week... Sigh... Thinking of it just makes me feel like I wanted to leave earlier... It sucks to act like a good guy during my notice period... This is just so not me...



Nevertheless, Charlotte was a quite good anime... Love the insert songs more than the theme songs... This anime gave me a hell of an emotional rollercoaster ride...

That Feeling...

I said that I will reveal more about my resignation story... So here it is... It was that feeling... The feeling of being important which I don't really feel much previously... The feeling of appreciation, acknowledgement of my importance and the severity of losing me from the team... Like I said I am not trying to be evil but sometimes, when a person does not feel the rewards, even in terms of encouragement or appreciation, it can be very disappointing... Not sure about other people but to me, I am a human and I definitely have emotions... If I am only being picked for doing the wrong things while the right things that I have done was not even worthy to be mentioned by them, I can easily succumb into depression... In order to fight off the depression, finding a way to solve it and change the way of my living is the only way...

Thus, the main point is, no matter who you are or what you are, always encourage or appreciate the things that a person have done for you... It is not necessary to be in money (but of course this is a lot better), but a simple gesture of appreciation will make them happier...

However, one thing for sure... I don't really like working with the bosses at GHR because I really feel that they are just abusing their power unto those people below their level... Thank God that my office does not adapt to this culture which is the thing I love about my current job... When dealing with those higher ups??? Hell fucking no...

After a long blabber, let's get back to some happy things... I have a new location to choose from when buying a house... The truth is, KL might be my less preferred area to buy a house right now because my new company is at Sunway nearby now (Subang area)... Hence, Selangor is my more preffered area to buy a house now... But the prices there are not cheap either so I might opt for subsales houses... Gotta put in quite an amount of effort to find one now...

Ok that's all for now... It's Sunday... Enjoy enjoy~~~



Preparing for my new life...

That Satisfaction...

It might sound evil but I am not doing this because it was fun... Although I have to say that it eases my heart when I feel that I am important to them... Yet still, it is my choice and I already decided... There is no turning back... The next thing is hopefully I can keep this secret as long as possible... Hehehe...



Wanted to type more about it but I am totally exhausted... Perhaps next post will be the full story of it... Hahahaha...