What If...

Someone that can afford something and able to utilise/enjoy it is considered fortunate... So if I have something but unable to utilise/enjoy it, does that consider a waste of money??? What if the reason that I am not able to enjoy it was legit enough, am I still wasting my money??? This feeling of incompleteness has been haunting me for quite some time... I really do not know how to express it out cause I think that I am the only one who has this problem and nobody else does... Even if I describe the situation in detail, I can assure that not many people will understand it besides me... To be frank, the only solution for this issue of mine is to have my own space of privacy, with a TV and that's it... It is just this simple...

Having a migraine since this morning... Not a good day for me...

Bobby Bag!!!

Can't wait for September as my Bobby bag will arrive around that time... This will be my very first bag that I am buying for myself... Not sure how much I will love it but so far, the exterior design looks good enough for me... All I can do is wait for the day where the bag will be delivered to me and then I will only decide how good it will be ahahaha...



I am still hunting for a house...

Twist & Turn...

For the past 2 weeks, I was in sheer disappointment, excitement, worry with a pinch of happiness, sorrow and sadness... Never felt this sudden surge of emotions before... I really got lost within the emotions and I just do not know how to handle it... I was deeply unhappy when I can't buy what I want but at the same time, it was acceptable cause I knew I won't be able to afford it to begin with... In fact, now I am on a full time hunting of houses below 400k... To be frank, I could have bought Ascotte Boulevard 2 years ago if my parents did not stop me from doing it and this still hurts me a lot... Surprisingly, after 2 years they are still selling at the same price... I still love it and I will buy it if they have my desired unit view... Else, I should just opt for the newer one...

I have so much to type but I am damn tired and sleepy while typing this post... At least I cover the main point that I would like to convey for this post...



Sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep~~~

How Should It Be???

I was supposed to sleep but I need to post this blog before I hug my bed... Things were rough last week and I did lie to my mom that I was not disappointed... The truth is, it was something I have expected and I should just deal with it and forget about it... However things were keep changing... Now, the agent recommends me another way to get the loan secured and this is just... You know... Will I get disappointed even more if I fail again???

What I am trying to express is the chances for me to get the loan keeps emerging and it tends to not giving me a break from thinking about it... I do like that house a lot but I just can't get it out of my head even though I know I won't get the loan for it as of now... In other words, I will be bugged by this thing for the next few months... I really do not know if I should pursue this loan but since the agent says that she can reserve this very unit for another few months, why not??? Lolz...

I felt bad at the same time for involving other people into this... I felt selfish just because I am involvong someone for my own benefit only... To be frank I have no hard feelings if thr person involved disagree to help me on this because I knew it will be a trouble for them as well...

Nevertheless, it will only take a few months... Shouldn't be long and we shall see what is going to happen for the next few months...



I really don't know what I can do for now...

And Once Again...

The hype that I have built over something for the first time will always succumb in disappointment... I guess that is what my life was born to be... It will NEVER be a happy thing for me... This feeling is exactly like my first time applying for Unifi... The things that I've always wanted will not be real for the first time... Now I have totally lost my motivation... Hopefully I will be healed by next week... I just feel that good things will never come to me when I really need/want it... And this concludes that being positive doesn't really helps...


Disappointment at its finest...

Plan B...

I must stay strong... One of the bank (there are still other 2 banks pending) did mention that it is quite difficult if I am applying alone and this is where plan B comes in... I can still get it by having 2nd person to apply the loan together... However, deep inside my heart, I do not really want to trouble anyone else on this... Unless I am too eager to buy this house, then I really have no choice but to ask someone for help... The only reason I like about this house because it will be ready by end of this year including the rebates as extra cash for me to get my furniture and appliances... Not many project do things like this...

Right now, I can only hope for the other 2 banks to approve my loan without asking me to share with someone else... I prefer to bare the cost more alone than having 2nd person to share... I really dislike troubling other people on this... Like seriously...

Please be trouble free please...

Smell of Disappointment...

I told myself that it would be fine even if I am disappointed as expected... But it doesn't... I am suffering and seems to be depressed... I'm not sure why... All I just hope for is to have the loan pass and that's all without the need to trouble anyone else... I knew I will have this feeling of regret buying the car if my house loan got rejected due to this commitment... Maybe for this time, I hope for a miracle even though I am being selfish for once...



Please...

At Long Last!!! But Not Yet!!!

At long last, I have found a house that I MIGHT be able to afford... Actually, the chances to get the loan is still not so high but some good vibes telling me that everything will be alright... It seems difficult but at the same time, not impossible... All I need is some luck and faith lolz... I told myself, if I really able to get a loan for this house, it was pure luck...

What I like about this project is because it is going to complete soon and at the same time, they still have the rebates/discounts for late buyers... The more important thing is, I don't need to pay anything at all besides the booking fee and eventually, I can get some cashback (in terms of monetary) which I can use to buy furnitures or maybe renovate some part of the house to look better... I guess this is a plus point from the rebates... Since the developer provides nice looking tiles, I don't need to spend anything for the tiles in this term... With the money, I can do quite a few things... Like seriously I will really think over what to do with the money merely for the house... Lol...

In the end, is all about my luck... Whether I get it is all depends on luck... Just be positive and everything will be fine... Positive :)

To be frank, if being positive all the time really helps me to buy this house, I will never ever be depressed anymore AHAHAHAHA!!!