Then lately, I was watching some dramas and videos of couples (both straight and gay) and it gives me a funny feeling... As if I was in their shoes, it makes my heart flutter and I just could not lie about it... After awhile, I realise that I was deprived of something, which is love... I miss those intimate moments I used to had with the other half whenever a scene of similar things occurs in the drama or video... Light kissing, cuddles, or anything that contains physical contact makes me feel calm and comforting... Especially during rainy days, imagine the warmness of your partner's body lingers around... It is something I love for sure...
Able to hug my partner from behind, and lightly kiss him on his face or snuggle him right next to me, it gives me a sense of satisfaction... I wanted to have this feeling for a very long time but it never really hits me that hard until recently... I'm not sure how to explain why but I strongly believe that it was partially due to my emotional swings... I've been in this emotional state for quite some times whereby I kept listening to sentimental songs to fill my void... Not sure if this is a good or bad thing but it does soothe my emotion...
Now... On the happy note, I was so surprised that my protein stuff arrived a day earlier (it was estimated to arrived on 18th Nov)... It has been a year since I bought protein stuff because once I start consuming it, I will push myself harder in the gym so that the protein stuff I bought will not goes to waste xD
Therefore, for the next 3 months, I will see how much I can grow or improved :P
6 days a week of gym sounds like a plan to me now lolz...
