Sunday, October 24, 2021

What Should I Do???

OK something interesting really happened to me today... I really have no choice but to note this down in my blog cause I am totally confused at this point... So let me sum up the story and get straight to the point (cause I'm too lazy to type very long lol)...


So in my previous project, I was working in this insurance company and I met a few staff member from the insurance company... Since I am a vendor and I am supposed to develope something based on user's requirement, I have met this guy a few times and the work I am in charge of that time is practically relates to him (he was the person in charge)... Frankly speaking, the first time I see him during our discussion, he did catch my attention a bit... Tall, good looking, manly, above average fit, and have quite a lovely smile... But based on his attitude, I am pretty sure he is straight and eventually, all I can do is admire him as a straight colleague... But due to our nature of jobs, we barely have chances to meet up for discussion... Therefore, I knew in my mind that there is no way I could like even befriend him or something... What I can see is we are just purely colleague and all we can talk about is work related stuff... Although sometimes we did crack some jokes with each other but that was like only once... I could say at certain point, I just feel he is too straight to be even interested with someone like me... Nothing to be sad about since I respect him as a straight guy...


So I was browsing Tinder few days ago... Out of the blue, I saw his profile appearing for the first time in my life... I mean, what are the chances a straight good looking guy will be using Tinder lolz... For a moment, I thought that it would be really really weird if I swipe right on him and he swipe back since I am still expecting him to be straight... Is like, what are the chances that a straight guy would view other guy profiles (Tinder allows you to filter man or woman or both in the setting)??? Therefore, without hesitation and without hope, I just swipe him right for the sake of swiping and continue to browse...


As usual, I never expect anyone to match me in Tinder... So I just opened my app like a few hours ago and a notification appears... I was wondering who could it be since I never get a match for like a very long time... The moment I opened the chat, it was him... For a moment, I froze for no apparent reason and came back to my senses... I am quite surprised yet at the same time, confused... Until now, I am still curious of what is happening to me... Here are some of the questions that I've been asking myself for the past few hours:

  1. If he is straight, why would he be able to see my profile and swipe me? Does that mean his setting is set to view both?
  2. When I swipe him that time, it was not an instant match... So does that mean he only saw my profile after I swiped him???
  3. If assuming he is PLU, did he really have an interest on me since he saw my profile and swiped me? Or maybe he just want to be friendly with me?
  4. Assuming he is straight and paid for the app to see who swiped him, why would he still bother to swipe me?

Honestly, I can barely tell if he have any interest on me while I was working together with him... I don't even see a single hint of it... He is too straight to swipe me right at this point... I am still shocked to see him swiped me as I really do not know if he swipe me because he have feelings for me or he just swipe me as a friend...

Right now I am both excited and worry to know the answer... Cause my feelings for him was all gone since I left the project he worked in and now, a spark has been ignited out of a sudden... I really do not know what I am supposed to do as I am still lost of words for what is happening...



Hooooooowwwwwwwwwwwww?????? What should I doooooooo??????????

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