Thursday, June 30, 2022

Feeling Moody Again...

Sometimes, I ask myself why would I compare my body with others when quite a number of people complimented on my current body progress... My problem is, what the other see is not exactly what they saw because it is my own body and I know how it looks way much more clearer and better than them... Whenever someone compliments me and I replied them it was just OK, I wasn't really acting humble at all to be frank... Is not like I wanted to compare myself but it just very difficult not to, especially when it makes sense...

One example is, I tend to see guys who are like in his early 20s and already have a great body, probably with 15% body fat and below... Although I started working out around late 20s, I could not help but keep thinking why I did not start it earlier??? If I did, will my body looks much better now??? Getting a good shape is definitely not an easy task as I am trying to progress now but why does it look so easy for those guys who did it in their early 20s??? Will I, at this age, able to achieve the same body goal like they are having in their early 20s??? Is it even possible or I should really hire a personal trainer for this???

Apart from my body, another thing that is really disturbing me is my penis size... I used to be very confident with it until I realise all the partners I met have so far have way much bigger size than mine... It just somehow leaves an impact to me that I may not be able to satisfy all of them... And the saddest thing is, yes I can tell that they are not satisfied at all even though they say it was OK and it was fine... I felt like things have changed a lot for me in terms of sexual fun... Whenever I tried to hook up, it just turns out not to be as good as it used to be and worst is maybe my partner were not enjoying it all...

I wish I could really turn back time so I can do things I really enjoy when I was younger... I guess starting gym in the early age wasn't a bad thing at all...



Will I be ever satisfied with what I have achieved or have until now???

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