Building The Group...

I was given a responsibility to recruit more guys into this so called "Group of friends" which allow us to hangout, travel, do this do that and anything that comes to our mind together... A group of friend that can just enjoy everything together is not easy to come by because we need to make sure every new guy that joins into the group has to be comfortable with all the other guys in the group... This will be the only most difficult task to achieve... Other than that, we are adults so they can eventually iron things out themselves...

So, I don't know what to further comment on this since it is very new... We will see how it goes from now...



WHYYYY!!!

LOL...

Ok there are few things I need to address... Let me just put it in point form for easier reading purposes:

1. My Facebook friends (the young or around my age group of friends) are getting married one by one... Indeed it is a happy occasion for them and I am happy and glad to see them marry their other half... Well, for me, I won't say that I am sad given that I am dating someone, just that having a boyfriend makes me feel like I'm not blending well with the group of straight couples getting married... I believe even we can't get married, but I am definitely happy being together with someone I love for the rest of my life and I think this is suffice for me... I don't really wanna think much about how to deal with it in the future so let's just say, we will go with the flow... This is my life and I do not want to hide anything at some point anyway :P

2. MY HOUSE!!! MY BELOVED HOUSE OMG!!! I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR A VERY LONG TIMEEEEEEE!!! Nothing beats the joy of owning your own house... I just can't wait to move in, that's all... And yes, another sum of money to be placed into it... Happy guy with sad financial...

3. The last and most annoying thing, my job... I really have almost zero interest in getting my work done... This is obviously not good but I can't help it with the fact that I just can't concentrate... Frankly speaking, the current thing I'm doing is not so interesting to me (but the upcoming big project is something I'm looking forward to) and this is one of the reason why I'm losing determination to do... I just don't know why I am not even slightly motivated to do anything... I feel so useless right now... Another reason is my boss didn't give me the next level of incentive for the last 3 months lorrr...

Ok 3 important points has been pointed out... Now, there are so many things I need to think about ahead and I'm not sure if I can cope with all of it or not now... I just feel so pressured and stressed nowadays...

I need to breath...

SOON!!! REALLY SOON!!!

(YESSSSSSSSSSS!!!)

The time is coming very very very soon... So so so happy to see it... The swimming pool... UGHHHH!!! Such a masterpiece... Can't wait to get my key and settle everything down as soon as possible... And just hope everything progress smoothly... I know my life is not that easy lolz...

LALALALALA~~~

The End...

That's it... Not because I pity but I start to feel that feeling towards him... And I am officially dating someone, through whatsapp message on 20th June 2019... Ok probably not dating, but more of like a starting of something... I would say dating will begin on the first day he land on KL... I really don't know what else to type because I am just too happy about it... He is the type of guy where I would not mind pampering... Given that he is not high maintenance (just a little bit unhygienic), I think this makes us match so well even though he has better style than I do... Next is I am going force him to stop smoking completely even before he hits 28... This is definitely for his own good and most importantly, I don't like smokers...

OK all I ever know is, once he is in KL, this is where everything gonna start...



I'm very lazy to type a long story that's it lol

It's Coming Back...

Yes... It is coming back to me now... That same feeling I had when I first met "S", then
"J" and now him, "W"... Every night, around 3 or 4 AM, I would be awaken abruptly just because of thinking about them... It is more than enough to make me wide awake thinking about them... I find this effect extremely exhausting cause once I woke up, I can't immediately fall back to sleep... Usually I have to rely on songs or music for an hour before I can get back into slumber... And then, when the alarm rings, I felt HORRIBLE!!!

I really don't know how to cope with these feelings... The worst is when things are unsure, whether it is a yes or no, a successful or a failed one... I understand that it takes time to develop... However, when I set my eyes on something that I really want, I must have it...

I have prayed for God assistance regarding "S"... Then I have prayed for God assistance regarding "J" as well... Now, will there be a 3rd time, praying for God's assistance for my love life on a guy??? Lolz...



Why does it have to be this tough???

Again... Why???

Met a guy on Tinder yesterday and started to have conversation with him... This thing that always bug me is why does these guys, going into a dating app just to find their other half and swipe me right, and once we got matched, they never bother asking me questions??? You want to date me, obviously you need to know me more but if you don't ask me, how do you know more about me??? I am always the one that asking and I felt very clingy if I keep doing that... All I want is just a normal conversation between both of us so that we can start things normally...

I guess life is hard lolz...



Life is never meant to be easy LOLZ!!!

My Tinder Story...

Just a quick lol moments that I would like to highlight... I've been using Tinder for a year and although I am not so active with it, every time I uses it and try to swipe for some girls and guys, the results are me matching with guys all the time, not even once for a girl... I find this hilarious for some reason and I am still thinking how could this happen lolz... Is it because I don't look manly enough on my Tinder profile???

Oh well I don't really care much to be honest... As long as things goes well, I will move on with it lolz...



Shortest Tinder story ever lolz!!!

Oh No...

I have know "N" for at least a year... And given that we met each other for the first time in the sauna, it was rather interesting and fun... After that, he went back to his home and for the next few months, there we meet again at Kuching... This time, I am staying over at his house and I really appreciate the time, energy and even petrol that he spent on me during my stay there... And we went to Kota Kinabalu together, just the two of us and we had a blast island hopping... We laughed a lot... We enjoy our trip a lot... We enjoy accompanying each other a lot... And since we had some fun in the hotel together as well, I would say it was the best trip in my entire life with a guy... No doubt...

Now... Things get complicated... He seems to have fallen for me... I did used to like him when we met for the first time but as time goes by, it diminishes... I don't have much feelings for him... I still like him as who he is but I can't seem to relate myself as a lover to him... I feel kinda bad just by thinking about it... I really do not want him to fall for me too deep and ended up having me telling him the truth... On the other hand, I never have someone in my life which make me feels comfortable as he does but it feels like I am giving up my chances to other girls or guys out there if I ended being with him... Or maybe he is the one and only one in my life that could give me the so called love... What am I supposed to do now???



Am I really ready to commit for it???