New Gym...

After my previous' gym access has expired on Christmas Eve, I have enrolled to a new gym last week which is Celebrity Fitness at Subang Parade... The gym does provide a good variety of equipments, and what surprises me most is they provide free towel services as well... Nothing to complain about it at all and I should visit other branches since I got myself the all branches pass...

I did have a progress picture on 31st January 2017 and I was thinking if I should take another one this year... However, I felt nothing much change when looking back to the first picture lolz... I guess I will only decide when that time comes...



Left with 50 bucks to survive till next Wednesday... Apa macam???

Surviving...

I am only left with 200 bucks to survive through this month... This is my very first time living my life in such misery... It is never fun at all... Things are getting very rough this month... With urgent job to finish and almost have to work every weekend (I chose not to cause I really can't) was indeed taking its toll on me... I have to free myself from this stress and all I can do is do what I want to do...

I am really going through some tough time this month and I really really really hope everything will be back to normal by next month...

Another thing I am looking forward to is my increment and bonus... Do I deserve what I should deserve???



Will I be disappointed??? All my high hopes are always never gonna happen...

Awaiting...

Since New Year, I was busy as fuck thanks to a project my boss took... It was not as bad as it can be, but still sort of stressful... And now it has ended for the first wave... There are still few more waves incoming...

Aside from my busy life at work, the next thing I'm looking forward to the most is my bonus and increment... Who doesn't like to know that... I was hoping that my bonus for this month will be extremely rewarding... Well... Just hope... Life would be suck if I am not financially balanced...


Will I be happier in 2018???

Happy New Year 2018...

It was supposed to be a happy new year... Like seriously happy... But I felt even more gloomier than I expected and this is the reason why I'm posting this even before 12AM... I just felt things never go according to my life or way... Things happening around me just made me more depressing and gloomy... I just felt that the only cure to this was indulging myself in those happy ending... Things were never seems easier to me since early of this year... Finding my true self does not seems to help my life in being happier... What a sad truth...

I really don't know where my life is leading to right now... To be frank, even if I suddenly got a new job offer from another country, I don't think it will make me any happier right now... This is how depressing my life...



Waiting for the moment to change my life... I got a feeling that my life is slowly worsening though...

Pressured...

Having pressure from both job and financial... I wonder when this will stop or end... Really struggling to living my life through this... Sick and tired...



They say we should suffer when young, then it will be easier when older... I wonder if my life will be anywhere easier...

First Time In My Life...

It is not a good thing... And this was my very first time... And what would it be??? My credit card reached it's limit for the first time lolz... Never have I ever face such situation but I do expect that I would hit the limit some day... Probably and hopefully this is the first and the last... It is kinda scary to see this... FML!!!



AND MERRY CHRISTMAS 2017 TO EVERYONE~~~

When Everyone Is Enjoying Year End...

Let me be frank... Not sure if it was my fault to agree on doing this new project but the timeline/deadline given was indeed not so favourable as it was year end... I really felt that it took away my joy of Christmas (although I don't celebrate it) and my holidays are merely not holidays at all... I have to think about work during holidays which are not something I am used to doing it... The pressure from my boss makes me uncomfortable... Of course, I still think that I can cope with it but my boss is having way over too much expectation from me which eventually turns out to be a pressure for me... I just don't feel like over-stressing myself on this... I am not the type of person that willingly to do something which I don't like... I am sorry...

Another thing that's stressing me out is my financial... Well... It haunts me all the time... So what can I do about it??? Tell me please...



I wish I am rich... Like seriously rich lolz...

Worn Out...

Seriously... I am starting to feel tired of being a programmer... Perhaps, I am not a programmer to begin with... Every time I wanted to learn something new, it will never turns out to be good... I wanted to learn how to use Google API but all I get are errors and have zero fucks on what is even happening... Meanwhile, the forums does not give an insight details on how to even use that fucking API, not even a code snippet example... Even if they provide, I will definitely get an error... How am I supposed to learn or know what is going on like this??? This is seriously tiring... In fact, by not getting it work, I will delay my project... I am just fucking tired of all these delaying shit... On the other hand, my boss keep pushing me that I must finish this project on time... With all these shit going on, I guess it is almost impossible... I am really sick of this programming life...



Fuck this life where I will never be given a chance to learn something new...