Moody Thursday...

Completely engulf with moodiness since waking up in the morning... Hope it does not turn out to be a depression... I am desperate to have a short break away from this place... Feels that I don't belong here at the moment... What I really really really want right now is lying on a lounger by the beach... I miss the serene sound of the waves and the lovely smell of sea breeze... I don't know how long I can wait... I am getting tired...

I am waiting for some great life event to happen right now... Such as some positive news from the contests that I have joined... Other than this, there are nothing for me to anticipate until end of next month (yes as in April 30th)...

To be very frank, there are A LOT OF THINGS that I can do to uplift myself or relieve all the tiredness away without going to a beach... One of it is by pampering myself with a good message but this is an issue cause it cost money... As usual, my financial was never been good and I only can limit myself to maximum of 2 massages per month, which is kinda sad... Another one is by eating good food and yes, it costs me a lot of money as well... Alas, this is not something I can indulge myself every time...

I am so not in the mood to do any work right now... I have no motivation to work right now... I have lost my soul and my body is out of my control right now...

I just want to have an absolute alone time without anyone around me right now...

Blooming~~~

I never expect our friendship blooms this rapidly... The fun I had by chatting with him really means a lot to me... I just can't wait to see him for real... And something tells me that something better would happen when we meet... And the good news is, he might be coming over to KL to work :D

Moving on to my personal things:
1. I guess the Samsung contest winner will only be revealed by end of next month... So much anticipation of waiting for it ahahaha xD
2. As for Maybank Samsung Pay contest, lagi panjang leher... But the result for this contest should be announced by end of next month...
3. Going to meet my very first swimming buddy tonight but he is not responding about his confirmation... To be frank, I still dislike KJ pool xD
4. Body fat from 16.8% (after sick for 2 days) increased to 17.8%. Before I got sick, I was at 18% body fat... Uggghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
5. Planning for no to low fat, low calories and high protein diet on my swimming days...

Wait... Does point #5 even need to be typed out???



When I want the time to passes by faster, it gets even slower...

Torturing...

The fact that I will get lonelier when the person I would really love to chat with does not reply me within an hour or two does seems like a real issue to me... I mean, he might be busy with something or he have a life but still, it makes me wonder why he rarely reply my messages... The only worst thing I could think of is I am starting to annoy the shit out of him... It's just doesn't seems right... Is it because he rarely have internet access??? Or was it because he can only use his phone during certain period of time??? This thing is seriously troubling me...

I guess I should just ask him directly lol...

From Unknown To Someone Special...

Never had this feeling before where someone who would be interested to keep chatting/messaging me... Usually I will always be the one doing that and the other person will just respond to the things I asked... This time, he is the different and in fact he could be the special one... He will eventually ask me back some questions as if trying to keep a communication between us rather than just a 1 way communication... Although we never meet before, I can feel the chemistry in it... And the best part is, we are planning for our first trip TOGETHER!!! I guess this will be the best thing could have ever happen in my life... The only thing that I hope will never happen is either him or me suddenly have to cancel the trip due to unexpected events...



Anticipation kills!!!

Pure Disappointment...

Twice... I have chat with two persons from BW and agreed to meet up few days later but twice, we ended up not meeting... Why??? It is not simple to shake off an anticipation that has built up... Was it really that difficult for me just to satisfy my lust once??? Why???

I'm sorry to say that I will do anything just to meet this guy for a great fun... There is no way I am letting it go now...

I am unstoppable...

Weird Thoughts...

I do have the tendency to always keep myself entertained by thinking something interesting to happen whenever I am free... I'm not sure if I am making use of the time but well, that's my personality I guess... When I am not playing my game, I will have my thoughts wonder around wildly... What can I do next??? Should I go to the gym??? What to do after that??? Should I go somewhere??? There are so many things in my mind... I just can't stop thinking about them... Exhausting yet exhilarating... Like what is coming up next in a week or two, will I eventually win something??? If I really won, what my parents will think??? Will it be better if I collect it myself??? I mean, questions never stops to pop up... So now, will I have mental issues if this continues??? Lolz...

I have to admit that what I enjoy the most is something like this, typing a post about what I want to express and having some lovely alone time, doing nothing much just to stop myself from thinking too much and that's it... Going to the gym or go for a swim might do the trick as well :D

Nevertheless, I have spent too much time together with my family making me feel that I want to be alone more nowadays... Not saying that I dislike being with them but unfavourable thoughts eventually strikes me once in a while... I just can't wait for my own house to be ready... I am pretty sure I will have a more balance lifestyle once I moved out...



Sounds like I am having a midlife crisis now...

HIV Test...

Since I got myself involved with sexual activities, not to say I am scared or worried but I felt that I have the responsibility to ensure I am free from HIV or STDs before engaging with other people... I mean, it is very important that I am free from diseases so I won't accidentally spread it to others... I took a HIV, Syphilis, and Hepatitis tests yesterday and so glad that all the results are negative... Although I am free from it, I will still proceed with caution when it comes to my sexual activities...

Now back to my daily life updates.

Joined another Samsung contest and I got a feeling I can win at least one of the first 3 prizes based on my submission. The prizes will be as following:

Grand Prize: 55 inch QLED Samsung TV (price at RM9,999)
First Runner Up: Samsung Galaxy A8+ (around RM2,000+)
Second Runner Up: Samsung Gear S3 Frontier (RM1,399)
Consolations: Parkson Vouchers for 50 people (RM50)

Not to be over-confident but even I failed to win any of the top 3 prizes, I hope I can at least win a RM50 Parkson voucher lolz... Have to wait for at least 2 weeks for the results to be finalised...



Move on with my life for now...