I Wonder...

Suddenly thought of something:

Is it impossible to buy a house until you are at least 30???

I noticed that few of my colleagues (those in my current company) owns a house only when they are in their early 30, regardless they are married or still single... I believe that married one should own a house earlier but it doesn't seems to be like this... As for the single, I still think that they can actually own a house when they are 25 provided that you put away luxurious apparels and not owning a car with an income of 3,000...

To be frank, I was 1 step closer to own a house... But at the same time, once I bought my car, my financial fell down tremendously... I still can't figure out what is the cause but it really gave me a hard time... So I should not say any further about how 3,000 can own a house...

Next year will be my 27th... My wish to buy a house at 25 never came true... And I strongly feel that I failed miserably... So next year will I really get to buy my own house??? Or I have to wait another few more years???

Although I don't mind to be getting older, but I do not want to own a house at such an old age :(

Exhausted...

Today, I am both physical and mentally exhausted... I thought this will only happen once but I can't deny that it keeps happening now... And yes... My hunches are somehow getting close to be true... Why??? Cause I never get to see the fun side of my life now... A month and a week more to go... I just need to endure slightly more and that's it... I really do not know what's happening all of a sudden but I don't think I can somehow cope with this... I want a better environment to work in... I want to be appreciated... I want to be rewarded... I want to get something back for what I had contributed...



I want my life to be entirely different...

Nailed It!!!

That day when I went for karaoke, I never expect myself to nailed 3 songs perfectly:

1. Sia's Chandelier

2. Raymond Lam's Let's Get Wet

3. Linkin Park's In The End (not so perfect for this)

That satisfaction I get from singing chandelier was the best I would say... Like totally hit the note as what I want... Perfectly... Totally love it... I am so gonna sing this song again for every karaoke session lolz...

Let's Get Wet was unexpectedly good, especially when I sang it without the singer's vocal (in other words, music only)... Somehow, I nailed this song perfectly as well xD

In The End is usually the rapping part that is the most challenging to me because I do not clearly know the lyrics except their chorus part... I accidentally slipped out of the rapping tune because I was not able to catch up with the rapping but I think that was fine because overall, I did great I think :P

I guess when I sang my first song, Perfume's Relax In The City was like a warmup for me... To be frank, there is no way I can change my voice like Perfume... That's impossible =.=

It sounded totally disappointing at first but I had chandelier to pull me up again... Woooo hoooo that feeling ahahahahahahaha!!!

I think I am qualified to be a singer lololololz...

Hello~~~

Adele nailed it again :')

Rolling In The Deep and Someone Like You was good but I think Hello is better...

Hello from the other side~~~

Not Depressed But Dull...

My dull life is back... You know when there is a period where you have nothing to look forward to... To be frank I am supposed to be happy or excited as my last day is getting nearer... However, even if I changed to my new job, I got a feeling that my life would be the same until I really move out and stay alone... I really can't see any drastic changes in my life unless I am not staying with my family... As time goes by, my thoughts of living alone seems to get stronger and I just can't control it at all... Not to say that I hate them but things just doesn't feel comfortable like this... All I can say right now is I will just move on till I found a home that I can afford and start a new chapter of my life...



Sigh...

But How???

Despite the fact that I am still in my notice period, I just somehow loses my interest in doing what I am currently doing... Demotivated and the mind of wanted to leave as soon as possible seems to hit me hard right now... I am still taking my responsibility seriously, like trying to do eveything good enough before I leave but it just seems none goes well since the day I resigned... Why am I going through such difficult time??? Most of my problems tends to be super complex which I worry that I might not be able to find the solution even on my last day... This make me sounds like I am being very irresponsible... What am I supposed to do when the thing I'm supposed to do turns out to be this complex??? For a moment, I felt hopeless...



Please enlighten me...

Things Starts To Change...

Since the day I am officially resigned, things were not going smoothly at all... It is just so not right... Since the first day, everything seems to be plummeting downwards... I might be having my life easy all these while but why does the bad things occurs the moment when I saw a new hope in my life??? Does that mean it was better to remain how my life was meant to be all along??? Does that mean it was a wrong decision for me to change my job??? Does that mean I am not supposed to be doing anything with my life which I am unhappy with currently and continue to dwell in this miserable life??? Once again I will repeat... I am not hoping everything to be perfect... In fact I am ready for every obstacle that will be coming...

Although I am prepared for everything but I don't think I am at the mental state which I can perform my best right now... For instance, I am required to standby at 1 in the morning... I am not complaining as I am just pointing out that something bad will happen regardless of how positive I am trying to think nowadays... Perhaps, a drop of patient and a bucket of positive mind is what I need right now...



I am getting exhausted over this life... Maybe a long vacation or a change of environment is what I want the most now...

If I Start Earlier...

My new boss keeps asking me if I would like to start my work earlier... It feels like he has a big project coming and need more assistance on it... I can feel the peer pressure when he keep asking me about it... I wonder if this is a good sign or a bad sign???

On top of that, on that day when I went to sign my offer letter, apprently there is another dude went for interview or sign the offer letter (not sure at all about this)... Does that mean when I join, at least there will be someone new and hopefully we can get along well???

Nevertheless, I have yet to decide when to start... Most likely I will start earlier but definitely not after Christmas xD



Think Joey think!!! My brain is exploding!!!