Shittttt...

Shit... I've skipped gym for the last 4 days and I feel extremely guilty now... Seriously this is my first time skipping gym for 4 days continuously... Regardless of what, I must go to gym tonight... Damn it!!!

Apart from skipping gym, I've been eating lesser than usual since Monday because I want to see how much it affects my body fat... Of course, I would say that I ate quite clean for this week and with the lack of exercise, it will roughly tells me how much weight and body fat I would loss... Not sure what the outcome would be but I can say that I'll be happy if I see my body fat dropped for this week xD

Now... The main problem I need to address... Feels like my topping skills had deteriorate tremendously... Like seriously bad... In my last 2 sessions, I tend to reach orgasm way too early and this is definitely not a good thing... And on both of that sessions, I noticed these few things that could affect my performance:

1. Dehydration - Never consume any liquid at all since I reached their place till I left

2. Too much communication - We tend to talk for quite some time (around 20 minutes) before we get into action

3. Not hard - When my bottom never gets hard even after I pleasured him (maybe because I did a bad job on this?). It somehow give me an indication that they are not enjoying and thus, it affects me in certain way as well

I miss my topping moments :'(

The only bottom I had in my mind is my boyfriend right now T_T